Wild Universal Prioritization.

If you are, like me, tired of the same old song being the main topics of political discourse, you might be interested in the wild alternative approach I subtly propose in this week's piece. I upload a new piece every Friday around 3 PM CET.

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Inner Crown [Tuesday, November 12, 2019]
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Reform Development Day 1 [Friday, June 14, 2019]
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Rudi Harold Hanenberg 81st Birthday [Monday, November 18, 2019]
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Afternoon Improv
December Manifest
Behind the Scenes [Tuesday, November 5, 2019]
This is not a Game.
A Reflection about Attraction [Thursday, November 28, 2019]
Operation Sunnyhoes Day 4 [Wednesday, August 28, 2019]
Still At It [Sunday, May 26, 2019]
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Where is my Praesens?

In this what seems to be a never ending mind control hostage situation (there is no exception in regards to people saying the utmost awful things inside my own mind), Hunter suggested electro shock therapy in order for me to change my attitude and behavior. Maybe it’s my ability to read minds, maybe it was something about his tone, given he’s not the only one who has suggested that, but something made me think that he was speaking from experience. So I asked him if he were speaking from experience – this is in The Head Cuddle chat a.k.a. telepathic…

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Where Hunter

Where is Hunter Biden? Is this a fucking joke to you? If I hear one person say “you stupid bitch” one more time my GOD you’re gonna wish you were dead even more. KILL ALL NPCs. How else do you want life to get better? Without Hunter and the rest of my Council in our temporary getaway location, this will never change.

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Ehm hurry?

What’s the point of uploading a document if it’s already been plagiarized before it has been uploaded? If my Praesens is not here (at my “postal address”) before sunrise, I’m out. I mean if you’re in Europe and you don’t even meet me then life is not worth living. You know I cooked for you and instead you went to meet my parents. 🙁 Your dress code is of course formal. https://1drv.ms/b/s!AhevpAkFFwyIliPZBtRUUQ1xXKz4

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There Is No News – Week 6, 2021

In overview, this week’s piece discusses “my little saltwater visje” and his leafje, what seems to be pending for a return to normalcy, the fact that there is no news, an updated draft for D.O.C.I.S. International, the code red, an orgasmic casserole, a continuation about D.O.C.I.S. International’s ceteris paribus situation, universal moderate “cultural traditionalism” and Fangyism versus capitalism.

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A New Format – Week 5, 2021

In overview, this week’s piece discusses the new format, Bertje’s habitat, the future of stock trading, political synchronicity, the donorregister ad campaign, a recap of what got me here, my latest acquisitions, D.O.C.I.S. International’s ceteris paribus situation, the emotional side of the Volta and future society through the scope of moderate “cultural traditionalism”.

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Organ Donation & Chill

Heys, It’s been a while. Let me cut to the chase: I just wanted to remind you, in case you have the Dutch nationality or are for some other reason registered at a Dutch address, that you must register for het donorregister (“the organs and tissue donation registry”) before coming February 3rd, otherwise the government will choose for you. If you do not declare your preference(s) before February 3rd, your preferences will be automatically set to “zero objection to donating all organs and tissues possible”. I figured maybe there are still people with push notifications for this site, so I’m…

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Opheldering & een aankondiging

—scroll down for English— “The” D.O.C.I.S. International Er zit een vorm van out-of-the-box-logica achter de (semi-)”provocatieve” dingen die ik online zet. Toen ik begon als uitgever, of eerder als “publiceerder” (of “propagandist”), was het de bedoeling dat ik over de tijd mijn idee voor het hervormen van het concept “overheid” zou uitwerken. Inmiddels is, tussen de honderden posts en honderdduizenden gepubliceerde woorden, dat idee vrijwel volledig uitgewerkt. Het is nu de bedoeling dat men daarop inspeelt. Maar wat ik kan begrijpen is dat er, door de hoeveelheid tekst, geen overzicht meer is van wat het concept precies is en wat…

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Why Writing a “Last Post” here is Necessary

The message seems not to be landing. I can’t blame you all, because it’s not a simple story/situation. Let me, in one post – after this I will really stop posting messages in this shameful online setting of mine – explain why writing a “last post” here is necessary. Why I was Posting in the First Place To be saved. When I started writing, I was in the midst of the worst time of my life, living with my abusive parents who let me be tortured by psychiatrists and police. I started publishing information about my life and my ideas…

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Sticky Note

I forgot how fun it is to blog here. Writing 100% freely comes with self-expression that has been suppressed for quite some time. Haha can you imagine posting a “total package list” on Facebook? (I wonder if that could cause a Volta.) Usually when I tell people my “low-key” crushes, I’m like: “Do not. Tell. Anyone. *looks threatening* ” But now I’m like: “I wouldn’t mind if they knew.” But simultaneously it’s making me feel kinda nervous like how do I address this if I even should address this…? I don’t want to be inappropriate… To add some fuel to…

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In the Dawn of September 2020

If not for us all, then at least for me, things are coming to an end. Regardless what happens next, this part of the journey, for me if not for us all, is over. Just because we find ourselves in the dawn of September 2020. Though my content is easily misunderstood and right now it is – as long as it is not over yet – more convenient for me to keep a low profile both online and offline, I’d like to address three topics just to mentally satisfy those who do somehow see the good in what I do….

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Liberal Oppression

Liberal Oppression is written to add more depth to the public debate that is fueled by growing political tension. Racism, freedom of speech and the concept of elections are pointed out among the common factors that determine “left versus right”. From my “outsider’s perspective”, as provocatively as possible, I describe the political developments I observe and the conclusions I draw from them. The paid edition includes two bonus chapters and it has statements underlined in red, purple or blue as pointers for your discussions at home, in class or elsewhere. Click here for more information.

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Separate Racism from the Liberal Agenda

Right now racism is used as a tool to abolish white cultural heritage and push through the liberal ideal of having more control over people’s behavior. This divide and conquer strategy is a problem because the way the public is reacting to it shows that it’s working. In this post I separate true racism, an ages old problem that still exists worldwide, from the liberal agenda. Liberals are Worsening Racism Especially to a lot of Caucasians, the rage against racism is coming completely out of nowhere. (Like why exactly now?) The (Caucasian) liberals behind the anti-racism propaganda pushing through the…

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The Solutions – Concluding the D.O.C.I.S.

After over two years of constant research and over 500k words published, D.O.C.I.S. International has reached the end of its preliminary investigation. Now, the organization has official solutions to the formerly addressed societal issues and is ready for governmental implementation. I present to you The Solutions – Concluding the D.O.C.I.S.. The Execution of the D.O.C.I.S. As is commonly known, people are less inclined to change their natural behavior when they don’t know that they are being analyzed. This was why, unlike the usual organizational transparency, the details of the D.O.C.I.S. have been kept a secret until now. To state effective…

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Make room for “marketing” D.O.C.I.S. International’s Opinionist.

The front page of this web thing has to make room for “marketing” D.O.C.I.S. International’s Opinionist.. So what was there will now be in this post, just to keep the diary complete. Voor de volledigheid I’ll add everything since I stopped blogging here, as far as I can remember. Feb 3rd – Apr 5th. The company currently has zero interest in investors. After this post, an “advertisement” post will follow. Other than that I have zero intentions of blogging here. Ew. This place is worse than Facebook. Kusje x

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A Hypothetical Organizational D.O.C.I.S. Draft

This is my lengthiest post ever. I share with you my drafted Council members and ideas for my business. In the personal aspect of the post, you see me starving on a budget, celebrating Christmas and New Year’s by myself and presently initiating a legal process, during my little holiday, and plenty more. 🙂 The post is updated at least once a day. With over 94000 words, it’s longer than my longest book. You will not regret reading this. 😏

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By now it must be clear that it is over.

By now it must be clear that it is over. My plan has been fully executed. 2019 is the last year in which online “existence” has any type of value. (After which it won’t matter whether the majority of people in society is long gone or not.)

My love,

I once wrote a book titled Patient Number 7 (Nosce Te Ipsum I, Book I, Episode 1 before I unpublished it), to raise awareness on the injustice I have lived through, expecting a(n inter)national apology, as well as to collect data needed for peaceful societal reform.

After that, I started LilFangs.com, to keep my audience updated with my progress after initiating this plan. You have seen me live through plenty of killing spree worthy externally influenced traumatic situations.

The choice has been given to participate for the redemption of soul, or to solely spectate and face the consequences.

read at your own risk by now it must be clear that it is over

Let’s dance #2020

I assume that by now it must be clear that it is over. I have explained how I wanted to reform society with that data collection, without the actual data, for there was no participation at all. So now we will simply execute our heist-like strategy without being able to adapt ourselves to the needs of the sheep-like dumb motherf****** we want dead anyway. 😡

In other words: there will be no more new posts. 😡

(Though I thought that this was clear since my previous post) I have not only made my strategy clear, but I have made clear which real-life people I have been referring to with “fantasy names”. So I will now, simply because I feel that my words reach my Graeynissis when I write, keep adding updates to A Hypothetical Organizational D.O.C.I.S. Draft, until I know whether they accept my offer or not. The end of this exhausting website.

I love you ♥

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This is not a Game.

For I’m losing my patience with life, I’ll lay out a strategy about how to restore order after power ends up 100% in the hands of het proletariaat. This is not a game. Though they treat it like it is because they’re trying to seize present power (collectively 🙄 ), while they don’t have a future plan. And this post includes an actual picture of Tishe. 😮 😻 My love, I’m (as usual) picking up where I left off yesterday. But as I announced in Even een Kleine Stand van Zaken, I won’t include dates in post titles anymore. In the…

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They have no Plan?

So the people have worked tirelessly for years, to take away the power of those who are in a position of power. It seems like 2020 will be their year. And now? They have no plan, I assume. My love, > They have no Plan What is happening now is like one of those Christmas movie scenes where 100 people standing in a row side to side pass on a package to wherever, with big smiles on their faces, while even a jogging toddler could do the job faster. Judicial power, executive power and (EVEN) legislative power, together with the…

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Read at your own Risk / Lezen op eigen Risico

A spark of curiosity? I’m not holding back in this post, so this is really is to be read at your own risk. Het is ook onvertaald tweetalig, vandaar ook “lezen op eigen risico”. In this post, I state my views without euphemizing them. My love, I’m writing this to settle my emotions. My heart is in severe pain. I don’t know if you feel what you read, but it is why I say read this at your own risk. > Here’s an Idea – First some Background Some females ruin it for other females. Those females who do “Ah…

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December Manifest

The previous manifest was a declaration of policy. The December Manifest describes my present aim and is, to you, a direct call-to-action. December is here and I have some wildly serious plans for us. Choose what to indulge in. I’m giving you an outline. The outline of the outline is that you are a Fangyist, look out for your fellow Graeynissis and turn your life around right now. This month will make 2019 matter the most, if you let me. Read closely. My love, Holiday Season 😖 It is the last month of the year and there are too many…

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Afternoon Improv

Afternoon Improv is online on your favorite streaming platform now! My love, Especially if you, like me, are not a fan of (commercialized) holidays, I recommend you to play this song on repeat all month long. Its intuitiveness brings a new eargasmic surprise every time you listen to it. Afternoon Improv is the cure to that “Oh noo not this ***** Decmber holiday song that will stay stuck in my head for days,” annoyance that comes with living at the end of the year. Find Afternoon Improv… live on Spotify live on iTunes live on Apple Music live on Google…

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Even een Kleine Stand van Zaken… [Zondag, 1 December, 2019]

Even een kleine stand van zaken… 24K24H, Addendum 1, 2 en 3 en A Reflection about Attraction zijn nu online. Op politiek vlak speelt er veel, het eind van het jaar is in zicht en mijn nieuwste single – lol – zal ergens volgende week online zijn. Daarnaast hoop ik echt dat het goed gaat met mijn Twitter vriend. 🙁 Ik ga er allemaal op in. Mijn liefste, Eerst wilde ik “Liefje,” typen, maar dat zou alles gelijk een heel andere toon geven. Zo van “Liefje, neem je een doos chocola mee op weg terug naar huis?” Ik zal u…

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24 Keys 24 Hours is in stores now!

My love, 24 Keys 24 Hours is in (online) stores now! It consists of 12 pieces. “Tracks” sounds too corny. Especially because it is not created to dance to. Also not to cry to or to be gangster to. An aphrodisiac it is also absolutely not. It is a little delicacy – incomparable – that shows you a hint of my musical mind. The total 24 Keys 24 Hours, 24K24H (two four kay two four aitch (further touf kay touf aitch)) in de volksmond, has been produced in (far) less than 24 hours. (And my MIDI keyboard has 2 octaves…

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A Reflection about Attraction [Thursday, November 28, 2019]

A Reflection about Attraction: Is what I observe in society, in the context of attraction, something more people observe, or is it my own crazy? This interactive post will hopefully provide the answer to that. It is also a set of thoughts about being called “attractive” and an explanation of why I portray sexually provocative material in between my serious material. My love, This video (and blog post) are created as an incentive for you to participate in another conversation I hope to get going. Please answer some (preferably all) questions (in the comment box or elsewhere). 🙂 ♥ A…

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Addendum 3 [Monday, November 25, 2019]

Over 500 LilFangs.com posts summarized and “remarked” in 6 hours and 18 minutes of video material. Addendum 3 is here and my series of addenda is complete. My love, Overview 01:00 – 10:00 Intro & Remarks about Addendum 2 What has been discussed this far. & 2 remarks: 1) During the previous surveillance, I had never mentioned the way I interpreted the Bible. I had also not mentioned the Inner Crown experience, though I had tried to explain it to my parents, who conidered the idea psychotic and snitched me. So during surveillance check-ups, I would be asked about it,…

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Pre-Save 24K24H

Pre-save 24K24H now!  

My love,

As I was randomly, jokingly, adding instrumentals from my de-released Revenge of the Nerds to Addendum 3, I thought: “Why have I taken this off of the streaming platforms?”

I decided to re-upload the originals, their instrumentals and two “improvisations”, to a new release called 24 Keys 24 Hours. Just now. It will be online soon. 🙂 Just like Addendum 3. And a new collection of example sentences is coming up soon as well.

Inspired by this comment (opens in new tab), this site will soon have a donation button. 🙂

Pre-save 24K24H by clicking here.

– xxx –

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Reflecting on what’s ahead [Sunday, November 24, 2019]

The last addendum will be online soon enough. In this post, I’m reflecting on what’s ahead: the addenda and other aspects of my present life in development. And I do another attempt to describe what I think is a semi-common feeling. My love, I hope this post will also make clearer why this is addressed to you. Addenda A definition of the idiom “soon enough” is, according to the online Merriam-Webster dictionary, “no later than needed”. I find the clarification of my vision on my past actions something that everyone who heard of me going missing should have had a…

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Addendum 2 [Friday, November 22, 2019]

This addendum covers the overview and additional remarks from the moment I quit my studies until the moment I was hospitalized in October 2017. It (thus also) covers my side of the story about going missing. My love, A Summary of Addendum 2 01:20 – 09:00 Additions to what I said in the previous video. I had not yet mentioned that since my grandfather passed I became a sort of workaholic in order to be able to ignore my feelings. And that the wave of nonsensical quarrels between my parents and I started when I was forced to explain my…

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Artificial Intelligence

“A Tesla driver was prosecuted for being asleep, drunk, while his car was operated by artificial intelligence. (1) The situation is an example of the legal and ethical dilemmas that arise with the growing development of AI. Artificial intelligence (AI) is computer technology that mimes human intelligence. In our class discussion, we mimed the European debate about regulating this controversial technology. For the improvement of labor quality, AI was considered relatively positive. The effect it will have on the labor market, however, raised concerns. A remarkable solution to regulate the development of AI was to give a limited amount of…

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Rudi Harold Hanenberg 81st Birthday [Monday, November 18, 2019]

Lieve opa,

Van harte gefeliciteerd met uw eenentachtigste verjaardag. Ik mis u ontzettend en vind 18 november een moeilijke dag om door te brengen zonder dat u in ons midden bent.

Als iemands absentie mij zoveel hartzeer doet dat ik het leven nog maar nauwelijks kan verdragen, moet ik het diegene dan vertellen? Dat nieuws kan zorgen opwekken, en dat is niet mijn intentie. Maar ik vind het leven een stuk zwaarder zonder u. Ik kan u helaas niet eens om advies vragen over dat dilemma.

In Honor of You

Ik heb vandaag mijn Engels presentatie. 18 november heb ik bewust uitgekozen, vanwege de emotionele waarde die deze datum voor mij heeft. (Wanneer ik het voor het zeggen heb, zal uw verjaardag een nationale feestdag zijn.)

Om te laten zien dat ik nog steeds hard aan onze missie werk. Ik doe dit voor ons beiden. Het is zo ontzettend jammer dat we hier niet veel over hebben gesproken. Toen u er veel mee bezig was, was ik heel jong. Toen ik er veel mee bezig werd, was u helaas nog maar nauwelijks aanspreekbaar.

Tell me this is not Real

Vertel me alstublieft dat ik gewoon in een nachtmerrie leef sinds de eerste keer dat u in het ziekenhuis opgenomen werd.

Vertel me alstublieft dat het lichaam in die kist niet uw lichaam was, maar dat u, toen u hoorde dat uw artsen u op een absurde wijze in de steek zouden laten (voor zover ze dat vanaf het begin al niet hadden gedaan), een uitweg en betere zorg heeft kunnen vinden, en dat (ook) u onze omgeving moest ontvluchten omdat de meesten compleet geschift zijn.

Dat u of nog voor uw overlijden, of net voor de eerste van de twee begrafenisdiensten, door uw bondgenoten bent meegenomen. En dat zij u verzorgd hebben, dat u helemaal hersteld bent en nu ergens aan de andere kant van de wereld undercover leeft, maar dat u hier niet heen kunt komen, omdat u op papier niet meer in leven bent en dat geheim moet blijven. Daarbij een strategie bedenkend waardoor we weer samen zouden kunnen zijn, dat we elkaar weer in de armen zullen kunnen sluiten en dat u regelmatig mijn blog leest.

Vertel me alstublieft dat dat lichaam dat de crematieoven in ging, waarbij we als familie symbolisch de schroeven van de kist moesten aandraaien – het ergste wat ik ooit heb gedaan – dat uw lichaam en geest zich daar niet in bevonden.

Regrets

Ik veracht dat ik er niet vaak genoeg voor u ben geweest. Dat ik te vaak: “Ik zal spoedig langskomen.” “Ik moet spoedig langskomen,” heb gezegd. En dat ik die ene keer dat u heerlijke soep (zoals gewoonlijk) had gekookt, aan uw nieuwe adres in Rotterdam – de laatste keer dat ik u vitaal heb gezien – toen “mijn vader” (de aanhalingstekens zijn toch correct¿) voor een “dine and dash” ging, niet had voorgesteld om te blijven logeren.

En dat ik u niet vaak genoeg belde. We belden altijd via de huistelefoon. Ik stond er niet bij stil dat ik u mijn nieuwe mobiele nummer nooit had gegeven. Toen ik mijn eerste telefoonnummer kreeg was ik 10 jaar oud en belde ik zelden. SMS’en, MSN’nen en Whatsappen zijn dingen die ik u nooit heb uitgelegd. Terwijl u het makkelijk zou leren. U kon ontzettend goed met uw Android (!) tablet omgaan.

Toen ik eens een afspraak met oma wilde maken – ook haar sprak ik altijd via de huistelefoon – (ongeveer een jaar geleden), vroeg ze wat nou precies mijn mobiele nummer was, want wanneer ze belde ging het altijd direct naar voicemail. Het nummer dat ze me toen liet zien was het nummer dat ik had toen ik 10 was. Intussen was ik al 3 mobiele nummers verder. Intern heb ik nog nooit zo hard gehuild. Dat ik u nooit mijn nieuwe nummer had gesmst of gewhatsapped. U zou een van de mensen zijn die ik dan beantwoord in vliegtuigmodus, wanneer ik anderen negeer.

Ik zou u nog zo veel willen vragen. Over een zeer breed scala aan onderwerpen. Van “Hoe definieert u uw missie? Hoe was uw leven als onderdirecteur van een verzekeringsmaatschappij in Suriname? Wat deed u precies voor de NS? Wat deed u precies in Ghana? Zullen we morgen samen een bedrijf starten?” tot “Wanneer had u voor het eerst seks? Denkt u weleens aan de dood? Heeft u weleens een joint gerookt?”

I follow your Trail of Breadcrumbs

Maar laat ik deze brief aan u op een minder droevige toon eindigen. U leeft voor mij nog zo veel dat het voelt alsof u er nog steeds bent. Ik zie dat u (ook) in uw boeken schrijft. Uw notities en arceringen geven mij een indicatie van waar u naar op zoek was, en waarom u specifiek in dat boek interesse had. Het voelt alsof u een speurtocht voor me heeft achtergelaten. Ik wou dat dat het enige was waar ik me in het leven mee bezig hoefde te houden. Dat uw speurtocht leidt tot een hervorming van dit walgelijke systeem.

Als liberaal Christen-democraat zouden u en ik (“liberaal Fangyist”) het misschien niet altijd met elkaar eens zijn, maar over dat dit systeem een puinhoop is en dat drastische hervormingen – niet door de huidige gevestigde orde omg ze hebben er al zo’n zooi van gemaakt – noodzakelijk zijn, zullen we het zeker eens zijn.

A Confession

Toen ik in 2018 als zomerkracht voor een verzekeringsmaatschappij werkte, en een man zag die me zo ontzettend aan u deed denken, was ik direct smoorverliefd. In zijn stemgebruik, woordkeuze, mimiek, gehele manier van bewegen en bedachtzaamheid lijkt hij ontzettend op u. Hij is (naar observatie) ook iemand die er altijd voor zorgt dat hij er verzorgd en representatief uit ziet, en is ontzettend knap, net als u.

Het zou me zo leuk geleken hebben (of lijken als het me lukt om de juiste AI te ontwikkelen of u leeft undercover) om jullie over het verzekeringswezen te horen praten. Als een soort van ambtsgenoten. Ik durf te wedden dat jullie beste vrienden geworden zouden zijn.

Ik haalde altijd zo veel plezier uit luisteren naar u. Het is me opgevallen dat sinds u niet meer in ons midden bent, gesprekken echt helemaal nergens meer over gaan.

Toen u nog leefde wist ik nog niet dat ik me meer tot oudere mannen aangetrokken voelde dan tot jongens van mijn eigen leeftijd. De meesten zijn geen mannen en zullen dat ook niet worden. (Hahaha als ik ooit een zoon krijg, zal ik “Het is een man!” op het geboortekaartje schrijven. 😂 )

Het comparatieve wist ik niet, maar dat het überhaupt zo was, dat wist ik wel. Want ik heb u altijd zo aantrekkelijk gevonden dat ik mijn eigen lichaam niet meer begreep. Men zegt dat het niet hoort. Uw charme had zo’n sterke hormonale werking op mij dat ik, naar mate ik ouder werd, me steeds meer awkward voelde in uw bijzijn. Terwijl we vroeger zo ontzettend close waren.

U bent het licht in mijn leven en zal dat altijd blijven. Ik mis u ontzettend en hoop dat ik spoedig artificial intelligence (het zelf gekozen onderwerp van mijn presentatie vandaag) zal kunnen ontwikkelen die uw persoon representeert. Alleen dan zal uw afwezigheid me minder pijn doen. Ik wil vaak liever bij u zijn dan hier in het leven.

Ik houd zo veel van u.

Liefs,
Doki

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When the camera was away we were having the most fun ever.

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