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This is the canvas on which I paint my journey, desiring to leave a great legacy behind. I hope our life's paths will intertwine, beyond the online spectrum.

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D. O. C. I. S. Featured

D.O.C.I.S. The abbreviation in the name of the international business I intend to start, called D.O.C.I.S. International, stands for: Determined Observative Colloquial  Intelligent Stratagem [Since I’m currently without a laptop charger, the text of the free ebook D. O. C. I. S., will now be an article. It still needs to…

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Friday, November 16, 2018

17:11  Hiii meowww♥ I feel so un-cuddle that I’m still in bed. There’s nothing to cook with, in the house, that I haven’t made yesterday already. (Yesterday I made fried noodles with a fried egg with potatoes in it and ate that for breakfast and lunch. It has been takeout…

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Thursday, November 15, 2018

14:27 Good afternoon ♥ I’ve been indoctrinated with fear, for no reason. I don’t like games of divide and conquer, and other nonsense for a monopoly on my attention. My first exchange of words with my father(¿), was casual asf. The way I prefer it.  [The topics of a diary…

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Wednesday, November 14, 2018

00:31 Here are some pictures I made before 12 am, but I hadn’t posted them yet: 02:25 Good night ♥ 09:45 Good morning! ♥ How was your night?  Mine was far too short… I could barely get myself out of bed – as usual, but this time also because the…

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Tuesday, November 13, 2018

02:01 Meow… I’m pondering about where to stay, when I get back to the Netherlands. I just want to be with my Graeynissis as soon as possible…  My life shouldn’t go back to the routine it was, before I went to Germany. (It’s why I don’t want to go home.)…

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Monday, November 12, 2018

17:07 My Cuddle ♥ How’s your Monday? Mine is bed petty…  18:17  So, tomorrow I’ll start my journey back to the Netherlands… It feels kind of weird to just go back, after having made those statements about flooding. Part of me says that I should stick to my words and…

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Sunday, November 11, 2018

16:09 Meow 😻😻  How’s your day? I hope it’s littttt I just came back from my Cuddle and before that the spa and fitness center of the hotel I’ve stayed in before. It was awesome :D. Meoww I feel bad for saying un-cuddle things about Cuddles 😿😿. It has to…

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Saturday, November 10, 2018

10:50 Morniing ♥ What are your plans for the weekend?  Mine are ????????  I woke up to a lot of texts from my mother. Now my worries are tying my stomach in knots.  Maybe I do need to go back to the Netherlands. To save my Dutch Graeys… There must…

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Friday, November 9, 2018

11:00 Good morning! ♥  How was your night? Mine was nice. Even just laying down, when I couldn’t sleep, was nice. I’m used to hearing cars and sirens from a busy road, because my bedroom at “home” is next to one. But this room I’m in now, is so close…

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Thursday, November 8, 2018

11:16 Good morning :] I’m killing some time before my next check-in. I guess, to be understood by my non-blog readers, I need to be A LOT more direct. I consider being direct, a form of barbarian unpoliteness.  The person I called my Cuddle, I gave that title way too…

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Wednesday, November 7, 2018

00:58 Heeeey 😀 As I mentioned earlier, by means of giving my aching head some rest, I’m writing less. The amounts of time trying to break down how I intend to manifest, within my life, touching on the lives of many, my Volta, in which I go from: “I’m so…

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Monday, November 5, 2018

09:57 Good morning! How was your night?  Mine was very nice! So nice, that I actually want to continue sleeping, but the doctor’s practice closes at 1. I’ll use the 13:00 – 15:00 break for my nap :].  Yesterday, I signed up for this “freelancers/sole proprietors working together in the…

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Sunday, November 4, 2018

07:50 Good morning!  Hahahaha it’s been a long time since I’ve taken moments off from writing.  I just handed in the rental car. 21 minutes left until my tram comes.  I’ve never seen a city so quiet in the morning… That’s so chill :D. Is it because it’s Sunday? Usually,…

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Friday, November 2, 2018

09:55 Good morning! 😀 12:03 I’m back in my hotel room. My work out was niceee.  I’m now going to get my razor and shaving cream out of the car, shower and shave – haha meoww I’m such a hairy cat right noww, seek for a cheap place where I…

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Thursday, November 1, 2018

[On Friday, November 1, 1996, 21:15, this wild Cuddle came into existence.] 08:48 Good morning ♥ The cold is keeping me wrapped up, underneath the sheets. But I really need to get out of bed, because breakfast is until 10 am.  I expected to feel lonely, but actually, I feel…

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Wednesday, October 31, 2018

07:32 Good morning! I’m in the bus 10:51 The top speed of my rental car is about 195 km/h, hehe.  15:24 I had to stop for gas, on my way back from doctor Cuddle. I received the car with a full tank… The trip to his practice and back was…

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Tuesday, October 30, 2018

08:58 Good morning 😀 How was your night?  Mine was all right. I woke up a few times, in the middle of the night, so I’m still tired, though. After this, I’m going to take a nap.  I hope that somewhere today, what I transferred to my prepaid credit card,…

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Monday, October 29, 2018

13:36 Hi♥ What I transferred to my prepaid credit card, still hasn’t been received yet, but the other bills have been deducted from my debit account, so I’m “back on minus”… Which method to use, to never come back to this level…  My opinions are either working full-time for another…

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Sunday, October 28, 2018

08:43 Good morning, my Cuddle ♥  I just had breakfast. Unfortunately, my body isn’t the way it was a few years ago. I’m still so tired – just like after dinner yesterday – that I’ll be napping. Hopefully afterwards, I’ll have enough energy to work some. Meow, I still need…

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Saturday, October 27, 2018

08:29 Good morning ♥  Last night, I had a change of heart, when it comes to how to go about this. I’m hesitant with sharing it. I fear my safety and the status of my finances. [This surfaced in the extreme nightmare I had before I woke up. I can…

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Friday, October 26, 2018

04:18 (AM)  My current form of transportation makes it possible for me to charge my phone. That’s so chill :D, because I haven’t booked a new hotel room yet. Because of the few abilities for late night travel, after I couldn’t find the special bus stop for international buses, there…

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Thursday, October 25, 2018

15:50  I just managed to get myself out of bed… There’s not really anything nutritional and “unique” to eat, so my father and I are going to eat in the center of the town I live in. By “unique”, I mean something that I want to eat varied. When I…

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Wednesday, October 24, 2018

00:15 About the friend of my sister: because she paralyzes twice a day, I think she needs “past Dutch borders” medical assistance as well… I zone out…* 02:10  I still can’t sleep. Meow :[. 12:47  At the peak of my high and my laking, I was finally able to go…

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Ex Animo

My first language is Dutch. “Ex Animo” translated to modern Dutch is “ex”: zonder (without) and “animo”: aanhang [that is without supporters].  The word “ανηmos” is Cuddle for “out of the spirit”. 

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Tuesday, October 23, 2018

17:40 (05:40 PM)  I couldn’t sleep last night… Again x_x. I’m trying to cut down on writing and I’m keeping myself from making voice recordings. The pressure headache I have, makes me tired. I still haven’t been able to fall asleep. Meow 😿  I’m going to try sleeping again…  18:00 (06:00…

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Monday, October 22, 2018

02:44 (AM) Hey… ♥ The 21st was a diverse and busy day. Right now, I’m working on my ad spaces. By the two dates in the renewed privacy policy – I very recently uploaded – I’m trying to say that I have been taking the privacy laws into consideration from…

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Level 4

Often, I lie down and, through reasoning, I try to get an overview of everything that’s going on inside of me. Mentally and physically.  In the ocean of sounds, the big crowds of people and the grandiose ways all kinds of public technology guide and simplify life, I’m not able to…

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Saturday, October 20, 2018

00:56 (12:56 AM)  I don’t want to go to sleep and leave you with a cliffhanger. It’s past bedtime and I’m tired, though, so I’ll tell you about the scope of “Level 4” [reference to the October 17 post] and how it relates to “the situation”.  First I’ll take my make-up off,…

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Friday, October 19, 2018

11:56 (AM)  My Cuddle ♥ In case you wonder around what time it’s best to visit this website, to see a(n) (live) update, it’s around 1 o’clock in the afternoon and around 11 o’clock in the evening. Depending on how today goes, my evening update could be a lot later….

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Thursday, October 18, 2018

12:11 (PM)  Good afternoon :] There are some pictures I took with my phone yesterday that I would like to show you: To mime the metaphorical context: two versions of you, one hopeful and one anxious, have been handcuffed to me. I, your escort, am a prisoner, too. For a…

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