Over 500 LilFangs.com posts summarized and “remarked” in 6 hours and 18 minutes of video material. Addendum 3 is here and my series of addenda is complete.

My love,

Addendum 3

We’re doneee. ūüôā This is art.


01:00 – 10:00 Intro & Remarks about Addendum 2

What has been discussed this far.
& 2 remarks:

1) During the previous surveillance, I had never mentioned the way I interpreted the Bible. I had also not mentioned the Inner Crown experience, though I had tried to explain it to my parents, who conidered the idea psychotic and snitched me. So during surveillance check-ups, I would be asked about it, but deny everything and/or spin the story, depending on the question.
2) I sneaked to the hospital, for I was not allowed to go outside. “Als je het in je hoofd haalt de deur uit te gaan, laat ik je alle hoeken van het huis zien.”
~ 01:10 – 03:30 Nerdy Smooth instrumental

10:01 – 28:50 IJsselland hospital

28:51 – 36:55 Transferred to the closed vicinity of Bavo Europoort (mental institution 1)

36:56 – 01:23:00 Transferred to the closed and later open vicinity of the Erasmus Medical Center (mental institution 2)

~ 46:00 – 49:00 Side story 1
I wrote a social experiment to prove (or not prove, but at least provide evidence once and for all) the existence of the Inner Crown. The experiment was denied and I was forced to take anti-psychotics, otherwise I was not allowed to leave.

01:23:01 – 01:58:20 December 29 2017 – May 2017

New Year’s & sister’s birthday, mandatory blood test, first book, LF.com, correction about who I visited before restoring contact with my parents at open vicinity, Paris, Suriname

~ 01:28:20 – 01:36:30 Side story 2

About why I can never see my phycisian and first case manager again. And something about my medical records.

01:58:21 – 02:27:35 Visiting the United States, trying to make a living, then having to go back to the Netherlands.

~ 02:00:00 – 02:09:40 Side story 3

About holidays to the Bahama’s, my injured grandmas and an attempt to leave for Nassau

02:27:35 – 02:49:10 Back in the Netherlands, hunting.

Utrecht, Bad Boekeloo and Enschede, staying at grandma, founding D.O.C.I.S. International, stolen stuff and staying in a random person’s house for 2 days.

02:49:11 – 03:03:00 ANWB

03:03:01 – 03:32:40 finals, fighting with my parents, Germany, home fighting with my parents, Germany, Amsterdam until March 2019, HBR, seeing B and the denial of the Inner Crown, crisis center, second opinion.

03:32:41 – 03:33:30 Egmond, Curacao, Antwerp

03:33:31 – 03:45:45 wrap up, remarks, birthdays, thoughts (hungry)

From 03:45:46 my camera died mid sentence, so I ended it textually over the Mad Fangs instrumental.

Intake Summary

In the part about the Erasmus Medical Center, I mentioned that I had prepared my intake on paper. I had written it for myself.  The plenty of factors I wanted to mention in the 5 minutes that they listened to me without interrupting me made them pre-diagnose me as delirious. Here is what I had written down:


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Some Yays

Yesterday, after helping my former colleage out with his thesis, I made some soup and filmed Addendum 3. I started relatively early. around 8 PM, but still ended up going to bed late, because of the length of the video. “Max 3 AM I should to go sleep,” is what I told myself when I was editing the videos together right after recording everything. I ended up being done around 2 AM and added some background music because I felt like that was missing. Then, I decided to re-upload them to online streaming platforms, because it wasn’t that bad. Especially not when the instrumental is heard after the full edition of a song.

Today, I woke up at 9, then went back to sleep and turned on an alarm for 2 PM to be in time for English class. Though I already woke up feeling quite awful. Around 1, the doorbell rang. I woke up from being asleep.

My wig is in. ūüôā I started to untangle my braids, still with the intentions of attending class later. But I started to feel more nauseous, tired and achy as time passed, so “e-mailed in sick”. Apparently all classes (and even basketball practice) were cancelled due to a terrorist threat.

divaswigs wig

And my wig is drying. I can’t wait for tomorrow just to wear it. ūüėÄ

Addendum 3

Example Sentences

I want to make this a thing. I just love example sentences so much. I always just search easy words, just for the awesome sentences that are made with them.

Victor wanted them all there for a reason.

How I wish Victor would choose more randy gents to turn.

You know¬†Victor¬†will come after him at some point…

Victor put his arm around her.

His voice echoed a graveled rasp, “Tell us all you know of¬†Victor.”

Victor >>

All who accepted the motto Unity, Independence and Victor Emmanuel were admitted into the society.

Victor II >>

Now he develops a twofold character: as the receiver of the spolia opima he becomes associated with war, especially in the double character of the stayer of rout (Stator) and the giver of victory (Victor), in which last capacity he later gives birth to an offshoot in the abstract conception of the goddess Victoria.

It was understood that the trade of the victor would be secure.

The line is as secure as I can make it.

It makes me feel¬†secure¬†to know you’re there and I can depend on you.

She felt secure knowing that he was in charge.

For a moment she surrendered to his warm lips and secure embrace, clinging to him as her heart stepped up pace.

The tree lowered a branch to him, and he wrapped his arms around it.  It was warm and writhing, and one small branch wrapped around him to keep him secure as it shifted him upwards.  Toby broke through the treetops and gasped.

In no case did these methods and efforts secure a long-term solution to poverty.

“Jilian killed you,” he said, wrapping his arms around her in a¬†secure¬†hug.

The man who will call you next will do so on a secure net.

Secure in his strong arms, she wondered how she could have suspected him of anything sinister.

Still, it felt secure to have someone look after her the way he did.

I was alone, back in New York, on a totally secure line.

She’d never felt as¬†secure¬†or protected as she did this moment in the arms of the person who would claim her soul soon.

Perhaps I should secure some company for my lonely hours, once I travel.

Its three main objects, the peace of Christendom, the crusade and the reform of the church, could be secured only by general agreement among the powers, and Leo or the council failed to secure such agreement.

Things were getting complicated here and the mountains were calling.

Here, then, I made my home; and although it is a lonely place I amuse myself making rustles and flutters, and so get along very nicely.

Strange, it had never seemed lonely here before.

She’ll have to stay¬†here¬†tonight.

But even if I had a robot that knew everything, I couldn’t really say, “Tell me every custom they have¬†here” and be fully informed.

Here the conversation seemed interesting and he stood waiting for an opportunity to express his own views, as young people are fond of doing.

“Don’t tell him I am¬†here,” he said softly.

I am going because the life I am leading here does not suit me!

Here is my hand on it.

And here is something for your trouble.

“Come¬†here,” said the little man, and took her to one of the corners of the building.

And now here we stand hungry.

And right here I want to say something which is for your ears alone.

There was certainly something in it.

“I have¬†something¬†to tell you,” he said.

You should do something about the problem.

I guessed vaguely from my mother’s signs and from the hurrying to and fro in the house that¬†something¬†unusual was about to happen, so I went to the door and waited on the steps.

If he trusted her, he wouldn’t have been snapping at her as if she had done¬†something¬†wrong.

Something about his voice quickened her pulse.

Is not a Wizard something like a Sorcerer?

But all along, they believed they would ultimately prevail‚ÄĒand not just win the war, but also do¬†something¬†epic that would change the course of history for all time.

Let me tell you something, my little brothers, my little sisters: You ought always to love God and praise Him.

I should get rid of this and buy something a little more feminine.

“We’re coming to¬†something¬†now,” announced the horse.

Being groped by him again wasn’t¬†something¬†she was looking forward to.

Something about the way he was watching her felt uncomfortable.

His bittersweet chocolate gaze wandered over her face in search of something, or maybe he was digesting the information.

But those glances expressed something more: they said that she had played her part in life, that what they now saw was not her whole self, that we must all become like her, and that they were glad to yield to her, to restrain themselves for this once precious being formerly as full of life as themselves, but now so much to be pitied.

Maybe something was wrong all along.

But never mind; something will happen pretty soon.

And yet, there was something about her that suggested she was in uncharted waters Рmaybe body language.

Both were watching her as if she had something earth-shattering to say.

She put a hand to her mouth and glanced around for something to be sick in.

As I write this, something like fifty million blogs and billions of blog posts are online.

I always knew when she wished me to bring her something, and I would run upstairs or anywhere else she indicated.

It is something at once more intimate with us and more universal than any other work of art.

Ah yes, there was something else important, very important, that I was keeping till I should be in bed.

She would begin to say something to her in a low tone from the other end of the room.

We might have done something to help you.

No, it was something, something in the drawing room.

It was something she had always liked about him, mostly because he was sincere about it.

In the future,¬†something¬†very much like the Amazon suggestion engine, but for all of life, will change that. (😂 )

But despite this, thanks to his regiment, Prince Andrew had something to think about entirely apart from general questions.

It was no longer the commander-in-chief speaking but an ordinary old man who wanted to tell his comrades something very important.

As they turned them over one seemed still alive and, would you believe it, he jabbered something in their lingo.

The stars, as if knowing that no one was looking at them, began to disport themselves in the dark sky: now flaring up, now vanishing, now trembling, they were busy whispering something gladsome and mysterious to one another.

As before he was absent-minded and seemed occupied not with what was before his eyes but with something special of his own.

Again the princess glanced round at her companion with even more uneasiness in her manner and was about to add something, but Pierre interrupted her.

It wasn’t¬†something¬†she had considered before, but another thought followed his.

It also revealed something that gave her pause for thought.

Apparently something had been discussed in her absence.

You didn’t say a word to your father, but you snarled at me as though I did¬†something¬†wrong. ( ūüôĀ )

Yet there was something in his manner and voice that caused everybody to admire him.

Long ago, before Gutenberg, if you wanted to know something, you had to memorize it.

They try to connect the person who wants to know something to the thing that person wants to know.

Before we take that further, let’s consider¬†something¬†the Internet has taught us about ourselves.

These tell us¬†something¬†about ourselves we didn’t know before.

People who take time out of their schedule to do something that helps just one person.

It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look, which morally we can do.

In eternity there is indeed something true and sublime.

Seeing the self-confident and refined expression on the faces of those present he was always expecting to hear something very profound.

The advisors of the Princess did not like this test; but she commanded them to step into the flame and one by one they did so, and were scorched so badly that the air was soon filled with an odor like that of baked potatoes.

She didn’t believe she’d turn into a¬†princess¬†any more than she believed she wanted anything to do with killing anyone.

Every woman should have her¬†princess¬†moment, don’t you think?

You are the Queen of my heart.

I will do everything in my power to help you be the queen of cool.

He doubted it to be true Р-a queen intent on mating with her equal would say what she needed to in order to convince a slave not to wed her.

You will see dawn, my queen, I promise you this.

He was named as one of the counsellors to assist the¬†queen, but, fearing to incur the king’s displeasure and using his favourite phrase ira principis mors est, he gave her very little help; and he signed the letter to Clement VII.

The queen has killed before the Corcoran attackers.

I have no children of my own, my¬†queen, but if I did, I’d hope to see them outlive me.

Please, my queen, you look unwell.

Her only regret: the Schism kept her from becoming the rightful queen of the immortal world.


23:23 Antwerpen, Kievitwijk