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Not Ready for War

It’s been a while since I’ve expressed myself. I’m still trying to figure out what has happened exactly. Who are/were involved, and whether they were acting in favor of my agenda, whether they were consciously trying to sabotage it or whether they have experienced sabotage themselves. This for an oversight of people dynamics more than something on a per-person basis. If this ever stops to be something that happens below the surface, I must know this to not end up being caught by my opposition like this has happened to others.  All of the observations I state here and have…

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From “Making course” to “Sex Book”

Those who call me an “ideological cancer” and then when I ask them why they call me that keep their mouths shut are cancerously, embarrassingly bad at verbally defending themselves. As usual, though I consider having the theoretical knowledge a requirement for every single rational being in existence, if content I want to distribute for a premium is distributed for free without my consent, then it is only depressing for me to pursue creating the content, so I will abstain from it. What I do against my own boredom, however, I do not mind sharing for free. I am the…

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My Final Offer

I am writing this to, similarly to my coronavirus policy thing but then a lot less with me in power, first sketch what our universal reality is (written from my perspective) and the problem therein, then what must change to solve the problem and then what the compromise is.

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Текущий страстновы желания суть сколько очень сильный, который я есмь требовающийся писат о это чувства. Я знаю я есмь влюблен как никогда раньше, но это чувства я не знала. Это стала осведомленность что весь другие чувства о страстное желание были вожделение и не любовь. Страстное желание есть похожий, но стимулированы так без особых усилий. Вожделение есть беспечный. Вожделение есть страстное желание сексуальный, куда цель есть заканчивать чувства сексуальный. Хотя я считаю это есть грех, я имею довольна опыты похожий на это. Текущий страстновы желания о любовь сексуальный не суть для удовлетворение первобытных чувств похожий на вожделение. И не суть обезличенный…

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Organ Donation & Chill

Heys, It’s been a while. Let me cut to the chase: I just wanted to remind you, in case you have the Dutch nationality or are for some other reason registered at a Dutch address, that you must register for het donorregister (“the organs and tissue donation registry”) before coming February 3rd, otherwise the government will choose for you. If you do not declare your preference(s) before February 3rd, your preferences will be automatically set to “zero objection to donating all organs and tissues possible”. I figured maybe there are still people with push notifications for this site, so I’m…

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Opheldering & een aankondiging

—scroll down for English— “The” D.O.C.I.S. International Er zit een vorm van out-of-the-box-logica achter de (semi-)”provocatieve” dingen die ik online zet. Toen ik begon als uitgever, of eerder als “publiceerder” (of “propagandist”), was het de bedoeling dat ik over de tijd mijn idee voor het hervormen van het concept “overheid” zou uitwerken. Inmiddels is, tussen de honderden posts en honderdduizenden gepubliceerde woorden, dat idee vrijwel volledig uitgewerkt. Het is nu de bedoeling dat men daarop inspeelt. Maar wat ik kan begrijpen is dat er, door de hoeveelheid tekst, geen overzicht meer is van wat het concept precies is en wat…

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Why Writing a “Last Post” here is Necessary

The message seems not to be landing. I can’t blame you all, because it’s not a simple story/situation. Let me, in one post – after this I will really stop posting messages in this shameful online setting of mine – explain why writing a “last post” here is necessary. Why I was Posting in the First Place To be saved. When I started writing, I was in the midst of the worst time of my life, living with my abusive parents who let me be tortured by psychiatrists and police. I started publishing information about my life and my ideas…

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Sticky Note

I forgot how fun it is to blog here. Writing 100% freely comes with self-expression that has been suppressed for quite some time. Haha can you imagine posting a “total package list” on Facebook? (I wonder if that could cause a Volta.) Usually when I tell people my “low-key” crushes, I’m like: “Do not. Tell. Anyone. *looks threatening* ” But now I’m like: “I wouldn’t mind if they knew.” But simultaneously it’s making me feel kinda nervous like how do I address this if I even should address this…? I don’t want to be inappropriate… To add some fuel to…

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In the Dawn of September 2020

If not for us all, then at least for me, things are coming to an end. Regardless what happens next, this part of the journey, for me if not for us all, is over. Just because we find ourselves in the dawn of September 2020. Though my content is easily misunderstood and right now it is – as long as it is not over yet – more convenient for me to keep a low profile both online and offline, I’d like to address three topics just to mentally satisfy those who do somehow see the good in what I do….

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Make room for “marketing” D.O.C.I.S. International’s Opinionist.

The front page of this web thing has to make room for “marketing” D.O.C.I.S. International’s Opinionist.. So what was there will now be in this post, just to keep the diary complete. Voor de volledigheid I’ll add everything since I stopped blogging here, as far as I can remember. Feb 3rd – Apr 5th. The company currently has zero interest in investors. After this post, an “advertisement” post will follow. Other than that I have zero intentions of blogging here. Ew. This place is worse than Facebook. Kusje x

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A Hypothetical Organizational D.O.C.I.S. Draft

This is my lengthiest post ever. I share with you my drafted Council members and ideas for my business. In the personal aspect of the post, you see me starving on a budget, celebrating Christmas and New Year’s by myself and presently initiating a legal process, during my little holiday, and plenty more. 🙂 The post is updated at least once a day. With over 94000 words, it’s longer than my longest book. You will not regret reading this. 😏

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By now it must be clear that it is over.

By now it must be clear that it is over. My plan has been fully executed. 2019 is the last year in which online “existence” has any type of value. (After which it won’t matter whether the majority of people in society is long gone or not.)

My love,

I once wrote a book titled Patient Number 7 (Nosce Te Ipsum I, Book I, Episode 1 before I unpublished it), to raise awareness on the injustice I have lived through, expecting a(n inter)national apology, as well as to collect data needed for peaceful societal reform.

After that, I started, to keep my audience updated with my progress after initiating this plan. You have seen me live through plenty of killing spree worthy externally influenced traumatic situations.

The choice has been given to participate for the redemption of soul, or to solely spectate and face the consequences.

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Let’s dance #2020

I assume that by now it must be clear that it is over. I have explained how I wanted to reform society with that data collection, without the actual data, for there was no participation at all. So now we will simply execute our heist-like strategy without being able to adapt ourselves to the needs of the sheep-like dumb motherf****** we want dead anyway. 😡

In other words: there will be no more new posts. 😡

(Though I thought that this was clear since my previous post) I have not only made my strategy clear, but I have made clear which real-life people I have been referring to with “fantasy names”. So I will now, simply because I feel that my words reach my Graeynissis when I write, keep adding updates to A Hypothetical Organizational D.O.C.I.S. Draft, until I know whether they accept my offer or not. The end of this exhausting website.

I love you ♥

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This is not a Game.

For I’m losing my patience with life, I’ll lay out a strategy about how to restore order after power ends up 100% in the hands of het proletariaat. This is not a game. Though they treat it like it is because they’re trying to seize present power (collectively 🙄 ), while they don’t have a future plan. And this post includes an actual picture of Tishe. 😮 😻 My love, I’m (as usual) picking up where I left off yesterday. But as I announced in Even een Kleine Stand van Zaken, I won’t include dates in post titles anymore. In the…

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They have no Plan?

So the people have worked tirelessly for years, to take away the power of those who are in a position of power. It seems like 2020 will be their year. And now? They have no plan, I assume. My love, > They have no Plan What is happening now is like one of those Christmas movie scenes where 100 people standing in a row side to side pass on a package to wherever, with big smiles on their faces, while even a jogging toddler could do the job faster. Judicial power, executive power and (EVEN) legislative power, together with the…

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Read at your own Risk / Lezen op eigen Risico

A spark of curiosity? I’m not holding back in this post, so this is really is to be read at your own risk. Het is ook onvertaald tweetalig, vandaar ook “lezen op eigen risico”. In this post, I state my views without euphemizing them. My love, I’m writing this to settle my emotions. My heart is in severe pain. I don’t know if you feel what you read, but it is why I say read this at your own risk. > Here’s an Idea – First some Background Some females ruin it for other females. Those females who do “Ah…

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December Manifest

The previous manifest was a declaration of policy. The December Manifest describes my present aim and is, to you, a direct call-to-action. December is here and I have some wildly serious plans for us. Choose what to indulge in. I’m giving you an outline. The outline of the outline is that you are a Fangyist, look out for your fellow Graeynissis and turn your life around right now. This month will make 2019 matter the most, if you let me. Read closely. My love, Holiday Season 😖 It is the last month of the year and there are too many…

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A Reflection about Attraction [Thursday, November 28, 2019]

A Reflection about Attraction: Is what I observe in society, in the context of attraction, something more people observe, or is it my own crazy? This interactive post will hopefully provide the answer to that. It is also a set of thoughts about being called “attractive” and an explanation of why I portray sexually provocative material in between my serious material. My love, This video (and blog post) are created as an incentive for you to participate in another conversation I hope to get going. Please answer some (preferably all) questions (in the comment box or elsewhere). 🙂 ♥ A…

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Addendum 3 [Monday, November 25, 2019]

Over 500 posts summarized and “remarked” in 6 hours and 18 minutes of video material. Addendum 3 is here and my series of addenda is complete. My love, Overview 01:00 – 10:00 Intro & Remarks about Addendum 2 What has been discussed this far. & 2 remarks: 1) During the previous surveillance, I had never mentioned the way I interpreted the Bible. I had also not mentioned the Inner Crown experience, though I had tried to explain it to my parents, who conidered the idea psychotic and snitched me. So during surveillance check-ups, I would be asked about it,…

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Pre-Save 24K24H

Pre-save 24K24H now!  

My love,

As I was randomly, jokingly, adding instrumentals from my de-released Revenge of the Nerds to Addendum 3, I thought: “Why have I taken this off of the streaming platforms?”

I decided to re-upload the originals, their instrumentals and two “improvisations”, to a new release called 24 Keys 24 Hours. Just now. It will be online soon. 🙂 Just like Addendum 3. And a new collection of example sentences is coming up soon as well.

Inspired by this comment (opens in new tab), this site will soon have a donation button. 🙂

Pre-save 24K24H by clicking here.

– xxx –

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Reflecting on what’s ahead [Sunday, November 24, 2019]

The last addendum will be online soon enough. In this post, I’m reflecting on what’s ahead: the addenda and other aspects of my present life in development. And I do another attempt to describe what I think is a semi-common feeling. My love, I hope this post will also make clearer why this is addressed to you. Addenda A definition of the idiom “soon enough” is, according to the online Merriam-Webster dictionary, “no later than needed”. I find the clarification of my vision on my past actions something that everyone who heard of me going missing should have had a…

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Addendum 2 [Friday, November 22, 2019]

This addendum covers the overview and additional remarks from the moment I quit my studies until the moment I was hospitalized in October 2017. It (thus also) covers my side of the story about going missing. My love, A Summary of Addendum 2 01:20 – 09:00 Additions to what I said in the previous video. I had not yet mentioned that since my grandfather passed I became a sort of workaholic in order to be able to ignore my feelings. And that the wave of nonsensical quarrels between my parents and I started when I was forced to explain my…

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Artificial Intelligence

“A Tesla driver was prosecuted for being asleep, drunk, while his car was operated by artificial intelligence. (1) The situation is an example of the legal and ethical dilemmas that arise with the growing development of AI. Artificial intelligence (AI) is computer technology that mimes human intelligence. In our class discussion, we mimed the European debate about regulating this controversial technology. For the improvement of labor quality, AI was considered relatively positive. The effect it will have on the labor market, however, raised concerns. A remarkable solution to regulate the development of AI was to give a limited amount of…

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Rudi Harold Hanenberg 81st Birthday [Monday, November 18, 2019]

Lieve opa,

Van harte gefeliciteerd met uw eenentachtigste verjaardag. Ik mis u ontzettend en vind 18 november een moeilijke dag om door te brengen zonder dat u in ons midden bent.

Als iemands absentie mij zoveel hartzeer doet dat ik het leven nog maar nauwelijks kan verdragen, moet ik het diegene dan vertellen? Dat nieuws kan zorgen opwekken, en dat is niet mijn intentie. Maar ik vind het leven een stuk zwaarder zonder u. Ik kan u helaas niet eens om advies vragen over dat dilemma.

In Honor of You

Ik heb vandaag mijn Engels presentatie. 18 november heb ik bewust uitgekozen, vanwege de emotionele waarde die deze datum voor mij heeft. (Wanneer ik het voor het zeggen heb, zal uw verjaardag een nationale feestdag zijn.)

Om te laten zien dat ik nog steeds hard aan onze missie werk. Ik doe dit voor ons beiden. Het is zo ontzettend jammer dat we hier niet veel over hebben gesproken. Toen u er veel mee bezig was, was ik heel jong. Toen ik er veel mee bezig werd, was u helaas nog maar nauwelijks aanspreekbaar.

Tell me this is not Real

Vertel me alstublieft dat ik gewoon in een nachtmerrie leef sinds de eerste keer dat u in het ziekenhuis opgenomen werd.

Vertel me alstublieft dat het lichaam in die kist niet uw lichaam was, maar dat u, toen u hoorde dat uw artsen u op een absurde wijze in de steek zouden laten (voor zover ze dat vanaf het begin al niet hadden gedaan), een uitweg en betere zorg heeft kunnen vinden, en dat (ook) u onze omgeving moest ontvluchten omdat de meesten compleet geschift zijn.

Dat u of nog voor uw overlijden, of net voor de eerste van de twee begrafenisdiensten, door uw bondgenoten bent meegenomen. En dat zij u verzorgd hebben, dat u helemaal hersteld bent en nu ergens aan de andere kant van de wereld undercover leeft, maar dat u hier niet heen kunt komen, omdat u op papier niet meer in leven bent en dat geheim moet blijven. Daarbij een strategie bedenkend waardoor we weer samen zouden kunnen zijn, dat we elkaar weer in de armen zullen kunnen sluiten en dat u regelmatig mijn blog leest.

Vertel me alstublieft dat dat lichaam dat de crematieoven in ging, waarbij we als familie symbolisch de schroeven van de kist moesten aandraaien – het ergste wat ik ooit heb gedaan – dat uw lichaam en geest zich daar niet in bevonden.


Ik veracht dat ik er niet vaak genoeg voor u ben geweest. Dat ik te vaak: “Ik zal spoedig langskomen.” “Ik moet spoedig langskomen,” heb gezegd. En dat ik die ene keer dat u heerlijke soep (zoals gewoonlijk) had gekookt, aan uw nieuwe adres in Rotterdam – de laatste keer dat ik u vitaal heb gezien – toen “mijn vader” (de aanhalingstekens zijn toch correct¿) voor een “dine and dash” ging, niet had voorgesteld om te blijven logeren.

En dat ik u niet vaak genoeg belde. We belden altijd via de huistelefoon. Ik stond er niet bij stil dat ik u mijn nieuwe mobiele nummer nooit had gegeven. Toen ik mijn eerste telefoonnummer kreeg was ik 10 jaar oud en belde ik zelden. SMS’en, MSN’nen en Whatsappen zijn dingen die ik u nooit heb uitgelegd. Terwijl u het makkelijk zou leren. U kon ontzettend goed met uw Android (!) tablet omgaan.

Toen ik eens een afspraak met oma wilde maken – ook haar sprak ik altijd via de huistelefoon – (ongeveer een jaar geleden), vroeg ze wat nou precies mijn mobiele nummer was, want wanneer ze belde ging het altijd direct naar voicemail. Het nummer dat ze me toen liet zien was het nummer dat ik had toen ik 10 was. Intussen was ik al 3 mobiele nummers verder. Intern heb ik nog nooit zo hard gehuild. Dat ik u nooit mijn nieuwe nummer had gesmst of gewhatsapped. U zou een van de mensen zijn die ik dan beantwoord in vliegtuigmodus, wanneer ik anderen negeer.

Ik zou u nog zo veel willen vragen. Over een zeer breed scala aan onderwerpen. Van “Hoe definieert u uw missie? Hoe was uw leven als onderdirecteur van een verzekeringsmaatschappij in Suriname? Wat deed u precies voor de NS? Wat deed u precies in Ghana? Zullen we morgen samen een bedrijf starten?” tot “Wanneer had u voor het eerst seks? Denkt u weleens aan de dood? Heeft u weleens een joint gerookt?”

I follow your Trail of Breadcrumbs

Maar laat ik deze brief aan u op een minder droevige toon eindigen. U leeft voor mij nog zo veel dat het voelt alsof u er nog steeds bent. Ik zie dat u (ook) in uw boeken schrijft. Uw notities en arceringen geven mij een indicatie van waar u naar op zoek was, en waarom u specifiek in dat boek interesse had. Het voelt alsof u een speurtocht voor me heeft achtergelaten. Ik wou dat dat het enige was waar ik me in het leven mee bezig hoefde te houden. Dat uw speurtocht leidt tot een hervorming van dit walgelijke systeem.

Als liberaal Christen-democraat zouden u en ik (“liberaal Fangyist”) het misschien niet altijd met elkaar eens zijn, maar over dat dit systeem een puinhoop is en dat drastische hervormingen – niet door de huidige gevestigde orde omg ze hebben er al zo’n zooi van gemaakt – noodzakelijk zijn, zullen we het zeker eens zijn.

A Confession

Toen ik in 2018 als zomerkracht voor een verzekeringsmaatschappij werkte, en een man zag die me zo ontzettend aan u deed denken, was ik direct smoorverliefd. In zijn stemgebruik, woordkeuze, mimiek, gehele manier van bewegen en bedachtzaamheid lijkt hij ontzettend op u. Hij is (naar observatie) ook iemand die er altijd voor zorgt dat hij er verzorgd en representatief uit ziet, en is ontzettend knap, net als u.

Het zou me zo leuk geleken hebben (of lijken als het me lukt om de juiste AI te ontwikkelen of u leeft undercover) om jullie over het verzekeringswezen te horen praten. Als een soort van ambtsgenoten. Ik durf te wedden dat jullie beste vrienden geworden zouden zijn.

Ik haalde altijd zo veel plezier uit luisteren naar u. Het is me opgevallen dat sinds u niet meer in ons midden bent, gesprekken echt helemaal nergens meer over gaan.

Toen u nog leefde wist ik nog niet dat ik me meer tot oudere mannen aangetrokken voelde dan tot jongens van mijn eigen leeftijd. De meesten zijn geen mannen en zullen dat ook niet worden. (Hahaha als ik ooit een zoon krijg, zal ik “Het is een man!” op het geboortekaartje schrijven. 😂 )

Het comparatieve wist ik niet, maar dat het überhaupt zo was, dat wist ik wel. Want ik heb u altijd zo aantrekkelijk gevonden dat ik mijn eigen lichaam niet meer begreep. Men zegt dat het niet hoort. Uw charme had zo’n sterke hormonale werking op mij dat ik, naar mate ik ouder werd, me steeds meer awkward voelde in uw bijzijn. Terwijl we vroeger zo ontzettend close waren.

U bent het licht in mijn leven en zal dat altijd blijven. Ik mis u ontzettend en hoop dat ik spoedig artificial intelligence (het zelf gekozen onderwerp van mijn presentatie vandaag) zal kunnen ontwikkelen die uw persoon representeert. Alleen dan zal uw afwezigheid me minder pijn doen. Ik wil vaak liever bij u zijn dan hier in het leven.

Ik houd zo veel van u.


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When the camera was away we were having the most fun ever.

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Addendum 1 [Saturday, November 16, 2019]

My diary is complete. The Inner Crown was the last aspect that had to be explained. Now my entire past has been broken down in my online representation of self. This addendum is for those who are busy deciphering the underlying message in my posts. It includes a (relatively) quick overview a priori of everything and some additional remarks. Because my camera died halfway through, this is part 1. My love, After my addendums, I will fully focus on the future (with great emphasis on the Inner Crown). First I want to give an overview of my past, because that…

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The Perspective of the Crown [Thursday, November 14, 2019]

In this post, I will disseminate more information about the perspective of the Crown. Of the Inner Crown, which has been the main subject of my previous post and the post before that. An Enthusiast will have a clearer idea what it is like to be an insider of the Inner Crown. Also, a new reader’s perspective will be used (for the first time in this diary(!)) and I tell you a little about my whereabouts and other random thoughts.  My love, New Diary Perspective My diary as a whole is addressed to no one in particular. (Baby… “I’m just…

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Inner Crown [Tuesday, November 12, 2019]

An all-seeing eye with a heart that beats for you, sending thoughts to you telepathically, from a (very) long distance. My experience of what I call the Inner Crown, also known as the Head Cuddle, has never faded. Many measures have been taken, against my will, in an attempt to stop this experience. This has caused me to lie about my perceptions for a very long time, in an attempt to get my freedom back. My diary would, however, be incomplete without a present update of what has always been there. This post is part two of my previous post:…

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The Head Cuddle [Sunday, November 10, 2019]

The Head Cuddle is what I’ve been calling the brain-to-brain communication I experience (and never stopped experiencing since it started, gradually, even though I do not always mention my experience of it, which I will also explain). Not to be mistaken with the modern phrase “giving head”, which means performing oral sex on genitals. Without the Head Cuddle, I wouldn’t have been around anymore. My love, Prophecy before the Head Cuddle “What is the purpose of my vision?” is a question I’ve been trying to answer all my life. I must see things so differently for a reason. Visions and…

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My love,

Sincerely I apologize for not publishing the post about brain-to-brain communication yesterday. I’m sorry meow I don’t like to spark your interest in new content and then don’t publish the content. 🙁 I was feeling bad again this morning, then did some housekeeping and afterwards worked on my English project with my project partner, then spent time talking afterwards longer than I had calculated in. It was nice. I hope you don’t mind. 🙁

My post about my personal experience of brain-to-brain communication (basically an update that also dives into the past) will be online at 9 PM west-European winter time (GMT +1).

“I loved justice, I hated iniquity, therefore in banishment I die.”

I came across this beautiful phrase that reminds me, unfortunately, of bad things happening to good people, when I searched for the definition of “iniquity” (sinning, bad behavior) after reading it in this article (opens in new tab) which is a website the conversation I was having with my project partner had led us to. I spotted that article in the slider and read it because when I got my enzymes examined 2 years ago, the result included something they had never seen before. I thought maybe I then also have an extraterrestrial blood type. Then the final sentence got me to search my favorite dictionary and I allowed myself to read three example sentences (opens in new tab). (I’ve had an addiction to reading example sentences and have spent entire days reading example sentences exegesis. To improve my writing skills. This just now was like laying eyes on an old flame. A flame I’ve missed so much.)

Sorry again. Hopefully the short passage above gives you enough food for thought until tonight’s food for thought is served.

02:27 Antwerpen Kievitwijk

Kisses ♥

The featured image is from (opens in new tab) I came across in a quick Google search for (romantic) “sorry” images.

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This is not about just one topic. [Friday, November 8, 2019]

A wide range of topics is ready to be touched on now that an update of the present context of my writing has been laid out in my most recent previous posts. The context in which an opinion/perspective is given defines a great part of the opinion/perspective itself, I think. With my context defined, I hope I can state clearer perspectives and opinions. To all of the short thoughts that have popped up in my mind recently, of which I thought “Ah yes I should share this on my blog,” I would like to devote this post. Like anything Fangs…

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Manifesto [Thursday, November 7, 2019]

A restatement of my direction, this is. As well as a reflection. And I’ve included the pictures I made I promised to put online quite some weeks ago… My love, This is an interesting week. Usually when I want to take measures to distance myself from toxic influence, my entire approach can be read way in advance. What I did on my birthday, however, was an impulse. An impulse that has definitively shifted my future social life. I think it is for the better. But it is only for the better if people who can positively relate to what I’ve…

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Behind the Scenes [Tuesday, November 5, 2019]

Today I’m taking you behind the scenes of in Antwerpiyae. (Antwerpiyae > Antwerpiyaes I felt while typing.) My love, A couple weeks ago, I believe, I introduced “my love” as start-of-post diary aanhef. I still like it and don’t seem to get tired of it any time soon. How about you? [yop_poll id=”4″] Today I’m taking you behind the scenes of blogging. I’m still writing and not filming myself, so in this post the thought pattern behind my usual writing will be emphasized. Quick question: [yop_poll id=”5″] I’m asking you that because I notice an interesting trend in…

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