11:56 (AM)  My Cuddle ♥ In case you wonder around what time it’s best to visit this website, to see a(n) (live) update, it’s around 1 o’clock in the afternoon and around 11 o’clock in the evening. Depending on how today goes, my evening update could be a lot later. I’ll be meeting up with a friend, later. I’m now still in bed…  I al-ways wake up tired. I then tend to keep myself falling asleep, until I feel less tired than when I woke up. What I seek, however, is some method/way of life where I don’t wake up…

12:11 (PM)  Good afternoon :] There are some pictures I took with my phone yesterday that I would like to show you: To mime the metaphorical context: two versions of you, one hopeful and one anxious, have been handcuffed to me. I, your escort, am a prisoner, too. For a very long time, I’ve been stuck in this prison. I know ways to escape, but to succeed, I need your strength. Let me guide you to freedom, while we turn the manifestation of fear into more courage and more confidence. I consider this life we live, where the system determines…

17:02 (05:02 PM)  Good afternoon, my Cuddle 🙊 💕  To make sure I stay on the right track, in this maze where I need to make fast decisions for the short-term, which influences how the long term plays out, I’ve made a draft of a public description [consider it a pamphlet in disguise] of the aspect of life that has been one of the factors inspiring me to write Volta. I want to spend enough time on my future publication(s) and my publishing company, while I’ll, unfortunately, give away a large part of my free time to a [probably full time,…

00:02 (12:02 AM)  Haha I’m so in love with the character I made in Episode 😻. I only styled her and gave her the character of a romantic person.  She’s also dealing with a lot of bad dreams 😅   I downloaded the game in the car, on our way to drop off my grandmas and then head home.   We just got home. I’m going to bed.  Slaap lekker 💕  03:41 (AM)  The “climax of my nightmare” just woke me up. They seem more intense every time. This time, I was myself as a young child, hanging out with…

09:30 (AM)  My Cuddleeee 😀 ♥ Good morning!! ♥ ♥ How was your night?  Mine was pretty good. I went to sleep around 9 pm and had a lot of time to sleep. Somehow I’m still tired, so I’ll be napping until 11 am. That’s when I have to check out.  I’ll be back, after my nap <3. If anyone wonders why I don’t cry, but get slightly angry when I talk about the shit I’ve been going through in my life: it’s because if I were to start crying, and really let everything out, I would never be able…

09:46 (AM)  Good morning <3 I succeeded in my mission, yesterday! I’ve had a lot of spontaneous fun :D. Pictures will be uploaded später haha.  While I was getting ready, earlier, I received a phone call, with the request if I allow someone else to claim the domain name elia-pr.info. I said “Yes.” My .com domain is only there as a memory of my first business.  Now I’m going to finish my breakfast and then pack and check outt xxx [Here’s a draft of the rest of what I’ve written yesterday:] 11:08 (AM)  Meerbusch is pretty asff =0. I saw…

06:57 (AM) Gooooood morning!  😀 I love being awake early, with a purpose for being awake early.  10:49 (AM)  I’m waiting to be called in for my MRI. Ah meoww I see myself going back home again =.= This Dutch lady “guiding me” is so rude in the Dutch sense of communication standards. 12:02 (PM)  Meow… There needs to be a solution to the way I feel :[. I don’t want to go back home to the same situation, feeling just as shitty as I do now…  This center doesn’t have beds. Part of me is glad about this for…

00:07 (12:07 AM)  The “welcome text” of this website, I have changed againn… Just like the book description of The Unpublished Episodes of Nosce Te Ipsum I. This because I want to semi-keep this website. When https://danielle-lucy.love is online, when you visit https://lilfangs.com, you will see a pop-up that asks you if you want to visit my new website. This instead of redirecting you right away. I think, to just delete everything at once or make this website unaccessible, is kind of a waste of so many hours of writing and of you keeping up with me for so long. I love you!!…

00:13 (12:13 AM)  I have decided to just go back to being “social as fuck”. I do have missed some people I used to spend a lot of time with. There’s still a book I have a lot of inspiration for, though… I have the feeling that if I say “yes” to one hangout, I need to say “yes” to all of them. But then I won’t have any “free time”… So I’m seeking a balance. My weekend is “planned full” with hangouts. I want to keep monday free for writing and Tuesday I’ll be driving to Düsseldorf…  I need…

01:56 (AM)  My brain needs rest, but my body is so full of energy. I should have gone running… Another factor keeping me awake, is me pondering about my next move. It feels like such a waste of money to spend more than €2000 of the about €2500 in savings I have, on a scan of which you don’t know the outcome. [Other than that, my accounts are basically empty.] Maybe it’s €2000 to hear, “There’s nothing.” Maybe they’ll tell me that I have some disease. It seems fucked up to spend what I saved for relaxation, on this stress….

01:18 (AM)  I just ordered some business cards, which will be delivered in 2 days :]. [I chose fast delivery, because I want to travel to the US around October 9th.] I decided to stop the “I start a new post when I wake up”. This was something I kept doing, because I wanted to start my posts with “good morning” and end them with “good night”, but my sleeping schedule is already way beyond that….  The copyright texts of my websites are changed :]. Oh boy, I must have made such a random impression on you…  Today, I want…

13:37 (01:37 PM)  Good afternoon, my Cuddle :] How’s your day?  —————————- I’m revising mathematics a little. The next things I’ll be doing are: * Buy HB pencil + gum * Buy some snacks?  * Drive and check in * Make a restaurant reservation?  * Have a few seconds to breathe in my hotel room  * Make previous exams achterstevoren… 15:51 (03:51 PM)  Earlier…  What’s your dinner time? Mine is 7… 18:51 (06:51 PM)  Haha I’m taking myself on a date. This is my second time by myself in a (non-fast food) restaurant. (But, as you might have read, going…