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This is the worst day of my life. [Saturday, November 2, 2019]

2 November 2019

Yesterday, I, at the very last moment, was not able to welcome my family for my birthday dinner. Now the majority of guests have cancelled for today. This is the worst day of my life. After having been alone all day yesterday, I just couldn’t – after all of the loneliness – say “heeyyy welcomeee 🙂 ” . I just want to die. To me this seems logical, but to others apparently it isn’t. If I’m sick on my birthday, you’re not coming for drinks and to give me a kiss? And to chill with the rest of the family?…

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Twenty-three 🙀 [Friday, November 1, 2019]

1 November 2019

Today is my 23rd birthday. A good moment to reflect on myself, tell you where I’ve been this more-than-one-week absence and share how I’m celebrating. 🙂  But I need to start off with an important redemption and (re)clarification, from back to forth. Redemption.   Redemption / Clarification In my last post I, not for the first time, shared that someone made me feel bad, without telling that person how I feel. The next day, he sent me a screenshot of the passage and openheartedly apologized. He was the first person to apologize for the way he made me feel after…

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Rationalization [Sunday, October 20, 2019]

20 October 2019

This feels like a good moment for a rationalization of my actions again. As Fangyusual a semi-provocative (but probably mostly ignored) reflection.  My love, What is logical to me is not logical to everyone else (though maybe to some it is). Every now and then I devote a blog post, or a passage in a blog post, to explaining why I have made certain decisions. In this post I will rationalize my actions by answering questions. Let me start with the most important one: Why am I keeping this blog? To portray a shift from the perspective of the one…

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Rims [Saturday, October 19, 2019]

19 October 2019

Ayy the rims on this fresh as fuck B.  My love, Rims Today, I went to the Media Markt with my mother, to select a vacuum cleaner. Look at the rims on this thing ayy. Just kidding, though it looks quite smooth. For quite a fair price in comparison to the other vacuum cleaners. What I found the most important is that it’s bagless. I’m very happy I don’t have to clean with stoffer en blik anymore. And we had fun. Dinner at Ellis Gourmet Burger afterwards. With very kind staff. The most notable moment in our conversation was when…

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Self-Tainment [Friday, October 18, 2019]

18 October 2019

The loneliness continues… Luckily I have an overdose of self-tainment.  My love, Being alone is not that big a deal. There are so many things to do and think about… Looks Like a Mind Game Like sending that creepy stalker-like message to Victishe yesterday. 🙂 As you may have noticed, I love sending e-mails. 🙂 It’s great self-tainment. I don’t know if I should insert what I sent in this post or not? Ah why would I not put my craziness on the public internet? 🙂 — Thinking About You. Beschouw dit bericht alstublieft als “niet verzonden”. do 17-10-2019 21:37…

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Empty Volta [Thursday, October 17, 2019]

17 October 2019

Currently, my life is almost exactly the way I portrayed my ideal setting. Only one crucial aspect is missing, which is why this feels like an empty Volta. My love, WiFi Yesterday, I got my WiFi installed. For this, I had set my alarm at 11:00 because I was told the technician (techniker in Flemish (and German)) would be there between 12:30 and 17:30. At 11:20 (yeah I take 15 – 30 minutes to get my slightly depressed self out of bed when there is a reason to (otherwise it’s 1 – 3 hours)) I got a call from the…

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Orgasmic Study Planner 😻 [Tuesday, October 15, 2019]

16 October 2019

The way it requires all of my time, the rush of getting it done daily, being able to be the utmost productive in bed… I love this study planner so much! This is genuinely orgasmic. My love, Until November 30th – for now – all I will attend is English class on Mondays. Because attendance is required and I want to score an A+. And minimally a B for all of my other subjects. The type of study planning I usually do one week before the final exam, I now started to do last night. Currently I’m behind (as in…

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“Ready to Propose” [Monday, October 14, 2019]

14 October 2019

Ready… This morning my first proposal for academic acknowledgement will be handed over. I will go down on one knee and say: “Will you cherish this rough diamond and be my Graeyniss?” Just kidding. By means of proposing, I will give a short explanation and regardless of interest I will not go home with the proposal of 50+ pages I have written for all of my professors. My love, The last couple of days have been full with working on my proposal, taking care of houesehold stuff (and getting my bike repaired), planning my birthday, re-braiding my hair and a…

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Boropasi [Sunday, October 6, 2019]

6 October 2019

I’ve been thinking out my boropasi to climb up the academic ladder. Boropasi (with the “B” from “Book”, the “O” from “Order”, the “R” from “Rotterdam”, another “O” from “Order”, the “P” from “Pasta”, the “A” from “Dwaas” (as far as I know, English does not have a word with the A-sound from “boropasi”), the “S” from flattening tyre (lol yesssss), and the “I” from “Receive”) means “sluiproute”, “shortcut”, in Sranan Tongo (“my dialect” (I am not that fluent in)). Specifically the type of shortcut where one maneuvers through rural lands or residential areas, making the passenger travelling with the…

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Fast Track Cravings [Thursday, October 3, 2019]

3 October 2019

They are so intense I can barely keep control of my body. These fast track cravings. My love, I remember exactly why I dropped out now. That feeling causing it is back. Stronger than before. But now I know how to channel it. It is a feeling I had the first time when I was 4 years old. Many people with high intelligence experience this: expecting to be educationally challenged, and then the class turns out to be 95% things you already knew. I understand that things should, at the beginning, be explained from scratch. In that way, it is…

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On Track [Wednesday, October 2, 2019]

2 October 2019

My life ♥ How’s life? Different? The same? Fun? Or lame? Do you have enough time for your passions? You know that everything you dislike about life will vanish in 3 years, right? Maybe it will be less. Hopefully it will not be more. On Track My soup left-overs are in the fridge and I have scrubbed the black paint off of my feet. And in the long run, I will end up where I desire to be no matter what. Regardless what gets there first: my business or my professorship. I don’t know how many off days I will…

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Painting Day [Tuesday, October 1, 2019]

1 October 2019

Heysss ♥ Last Night After that, I realized that it’s no use going to lectures (especially because the fact that it does not suit my educational background is a bit saddening), so I have off days until my change of education program has been processed. And I really miss the white boards I used to have in my room – not that I want them back, because I have a better alternative to be mentioned soon – for being able to quickly note whatever comes to mind I should memorize. So I figured, today – though my flu is getting…

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Buckle Up [Monday, September 30, 2019]

30 September 2019

My love ♥ How are you? I’ve been missing you. I love it when our minds intertwine from having a similar outlook on life. We know what euphoria feels like, but know (emotional) heartache in the exact same way. This post is titled “Buckle Up”, for it seems like I’m taking you along on my journey of biting down (happy I have that anti-knars bitje) and keeping my head up for three years, before I can resume all that I’ve been working on and have that work acknowledged. Het moet dan maar. Why is life constructed in this way. 🙁…

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Weekend 😻 [Saturday, September 28, 2019]

28 September 2019

My Catjes ♥ It has been years since I longed for a weekend. I really need this time to recuperate, work on my apartment and catch up mastering course material. But to make myself enjoy my bath more, I took care of my bedroom first. Putting together the drawers for underneath my bed and organizing my clothing. In my routine of lectures and cooking and my visit to the Netherlands et cetera, it felt like I had no time to think. Soaking in this tub, taking a moment to reflect on myself, especially reflecting on the moment itself (enjoying my…

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Dagje Nederland [Thursday, September 26, 2019]

26 September 2019

Haha ik zou me een keer niet hoeven haasten… Mijn wekker stond op 11:00, maar ik werd ontzettend moe wakker. Dus 11:00 werd 11:30. 11:30 werd 12:00. 12:00 werd 13:00. Dus toen moest ik voor 13:30 mijn “ontbijt” afhebben om met douchen enzo erbij op tijd te kunnen zijn voor mijn trein van 14:30. Dat schreef ik voordat me ineens te binnen schoot dat ik de klantenservice van telecom provider Scarlet moest bellen om te kijken of ik via de klantenservice wel mijn nummer zou kunnen doorgeven, omdat het online formulier een “+32 04” nummer afdwingt, en ik een “+31…

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Adapting [Wednesday, September 25, 2019]

25 September 2019

Goedemorgen 🙂 ♥ Het was mijn intentie om gisteren na school wat te bloggen, Dat schreef ik vanochtend, ongeveer 20 minuten voordat mijn les begon (want ik was vroeg), waarna ik aan het socializen was because I made a school friend yay. 🙂 I don’t know if I should write in Dutch or in English… I’ll use the languages based on which language I feel can express what I wish to express best. That will vary, but I’ll keep it one language per paragraph, so that your translating tool/dictionary is overseeable. 🙂 I haven’t told my new friend – or…

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First Dayay [Tuesday, September 24, 2019]

24 September 2019

Goedemorgen ♥ It’s my first day of university in Antwerp. 😮 Sorry ik ga weer in het Nederlands verder. De andere bus ging net voorbij toen ik voor een rood stoplicht stond, aan de andere kant van de halte. Ze gaan om het kwartier, dus ik kom nu aan om 10:37 in plaats van 10:22. Het was mijn intentie om die 20 minuten te gebruiken om de collegezaal te vinden en een zitplek te (kunnen) claimen die niet helemaal vooraan is. Nu mag ik blij zijn als ik om 10:45 binnen ben ah x_x. Hoewel ik langs de Ikea moet…

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Officiële Yays

23 September 2019

Mijn lief ♥ Het is nu super officieel: ik heb een eigen huis. Mijn eigen plek. Heb hier gisternacht voor het eerst geslapen. 🙂 Sinds mijn vorige post is het ontzettend snel gegaan. Donderdag heb ik mijn huurcontract getekend, samen met mijn moeder als borgsteller. En vrijdag kreeg ik mijn sleutels! Daarna moest ik snel richting Rotterdam om mijn oma op te halen en naar huis te gaan, want mijn oom uit de Bahama’s, samen met zijn vrienden/zakenpartners kwamen langs op de avond voordat ze terug naar huis gingen, voor de barbecue die mijn vader had georganiseerd. Het was mooi…

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Boxes [Wednesday, September 18, 2019]

18 September 2019

Heyy ♥ Boxes My love, I still can’t believe that I got this good news yesterday. As expected, I was too late sending my files for the apartment I showed you in my previous post. It was already rented to someone else. But yesterday I got a call with the news that I got a similar apartment a few storeys higher. 😀 A higher home means a better view. 🙂 I’m sooo happyyy I still can’t believe that this is real! ♥ Like before that call I spent my hours in stressed couch cuddle mode (watching the Belgian series “De…

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Woah :o [Sunday, September 15, 2019]

15 September 2019

Brain Woah My time to think yesterday got me so many woahs, my meow. My first woah is that this week is a week in which I have 0 plans (hopefully aside from signing the contract for the apartment I’ve slowly fallen in love with :D), after such a long time! Didn’t realize how much my brain needed rest after I wake up the next morning, feeling like just laying down and distracting my mind with technology at least as possible at first. To just let everything that has happend sink in and scrutinize it. (Usually I’m suppressing what is…

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Presentation Day :D [Friday, September 13, 2019]

13 September 2019

Heyyys ♥ I’m on my way to Grand Vision for my presentation now. Instead of driving there myself, which was the original plan, my father had to be in Amsterdam anyway so he is dropping me off. Now I can have some beers as well yay. 🙂 (Ahahaha I really feel like jugging some, but will keep it appropriate haha.) This is such an interesting moment in my life. I hope this will be the first of many speaking opportunities. For that I need to perform well today. Starting with being on time omg we’re stuck in traffic. 🙁 That’s…

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The Verge [Thursday, September 12, 2019]

12 September 2019

Good evening ♥ We are on the verge of presentation day.  I  intended this to be a day of relaxation and it was. 🙂 Aside from my car adventure… Another Fangs Car Adventure Passing cars, driving 140 km/h where the speed limit is 100, is a habit of mine. I know the risk I am taking and do not recommend it to anyone. It used to be 160 with a speed limit of 100, so in that sense I’ve changed. But the rush of speeding is one of the things I love most about my life. Earlier today on my…

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Feedback Back-ups

11 September 2019

Heyy ♥ Currently, I’m having lunch at Esco*bar, while revising my text/essay. Not really a place to work at, but I can find my concentration by blocking out all sound by playing music (paradox lol) haha… It’s a nice place for students, I think. Before this, I checked out of the hotel after frying an egg, showering and doing the morning dishes. It was my intention to just find a dress at the first store I walk in to, but I see it has to be Christmas time to pull off something like that? Dresses were hard to find in…

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10 September 2019

My precious blog visitor ♥ Sorry for the delay, my dear. During the day I realized that I really had to test my presentation on that same day, because tonight I will be in Antwerp and having to make big changes on Thursday would be too late to implement new feedback comfortably. “Test driveee” So I spent my entire Monday (plus Sunday partly) crafting 58 PowerPoint slides, cooking, (partially) listing what points to make per slide and writing several different types of hand-outs (for both individual and group assignments). At some point I decided that I should better wing it…

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Schedule of Yays [Sunday, September 8, 2019]

8 September 2019

Heyyy ♥ It has been a while. Excuse my absence. I have been working on this awesome essay: The concept I had laid out months ago. Thought that it was going to take just a few hours and a few pages to work it out, but after my last diary post I saw that I needed a lottt more words to explain the entire concept in detail to someone who would not see me explain it in person. I’m glad that it’s finished now. 🙂 Finished and featured! You should read it. I predict what you should personally do to…

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Back Home [Monday, September 2, 2019]

2 September 2019

Good morning ♥ Yesterdays Yesterday morning, around 9 AM, my sister and I arrived on Schiphol airport. We met our loyal family friends from Amsterdam, considered family, at the Departures 2 parking lot, where they went to with two cars: one of theirs and one of ours, so that I could drive my sister and myself home. My need-for-speed-within-boundaries style of driving brought us home sooner than the navigation system indicated. After having disarmed the home alarm system one of our neighbors watched the remote of while we were gone (haha oops I rang the doorbell exactly when he was…

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D.O.C.I.S. Assignment 1: Privacy

1 September 2019

Let’s discuss the topic of privacy. The PDF file below is our first D.O.C.I.S. Assignment, getting creative with the book 1984 by George Orwell and the topic of privacy. The D.O.C.I.S. Assignment was originally posted on The Fangs (opens in new tab). The featured image is from Wikipedia (opens in new tab). To become a member of The D.O.C.I.S. Book Club, please click here (opens in new tab). Here is an example of a finished Assignment 1: With D.O.C.I.S. Assignments, there is no wrong!

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Sunnyays 7 [Saturday, August 31, 2019]

31 August 2019

Heysss ♥ North Sea Festiyays In Rotterdam they let me in with my camera, so I gave it a shot here as well. But I had to walk back to the apartment to drop it off because even though I mentioned that there is almost no difference between that camera and a phone camera, it was protocol and some artists don’t like being photographed like that, but if I would have had a fat sports lens on it, they would have allowed it in… x_x (This is funny if you’ve read two posts ago:) Het was zo ontzettend mooi! Ik…

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Operation Sunnyhoes Day 6 [Friday, August 30, 2019]

30 August 2019

Good day ♥ By the time I upload this, it is probably afternoon, so that’s why I’m saying “day” instead of “morning”. It is my second to last day here on Curaçao, which will be devoted to working on my essay (plus some things for the Book Club and Bookstore due on September 1st), maybe some swimming and after that the second and my last night of North Sea Jazz Curaçao. My Regular Duties On September 1st, the assignment for the D.O.C.I.S. Book Club will be announced.  On September 13th, I’ll be giving a speech about “Evolving Individualism in the…

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Operation Sunnyhoes Day 5 [Thursday, August 29, 2019]

29 August 2019

Heysss ♥ Today’s island tour was a lot of fun! I’ve taken many pictures. Here is a sneak preview: Why you’re getting a preview now is because I need to get ready for the Jazz Festival real quick… I was quite tired after the tour of quite some hours, so I’ve been napping. Napping for too long… I can hear Juan Luis Guerra play from where I’m at. The festival terrain is right at the entrance of the resort we’re staying at. I don’t know any of today’s artists. but I love hearing new sounds. (Plus it might be so…

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Operation Sunnyhoes Day 4 [Wednesday, August 28, 2019]

28 August 2019

Gooooood morning ♥ There’s no better way to start the day than by searching my favorite picture from my favorite Dutch politician. 😻 Ahahaha I’ve seriously dreamt about this last night, but in the dream I couldn’t find the picture. I’m glad I’ve found it. 🙂 It was shown on the (gossip) news when I was visiting my grandmother quite some months ago, and has not left my mind ever since. I love this expression of (European?) liberalism so much. Especially because he is a politician (and my Catthierry 😻 ). It is revolutionary. 🙂 ( 😏 😏 😏 )…

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Operation Sunnyhoes Day 3 [Tuesday, August 27, 2019]

27 August 2019

Heysss ♥ The hunt for cuddles is still on. Not really spotted approachable potential cat preys yet… Auntiyays Just kidding, I’m not using strategy on this. Finding a Catje is a matter of luck. I was watching TV and chatting with my fam. And waiting for a proper internet connection so that I can tell you about earlier… It was a lot of fun going to the casino with my (don’t tell my other aunts :x) favorite aunt, sister and 17 year old cousin. We went to the Renaissance casino, not Princess (oops excuses I informed you incorrectly x_x). My…

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