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Back Online :) [Thursday, June 13, 2019]

13 June 2019

09:35 (AM) Good morning 🙂 ♥ I’m so glad to be back online, and I’m even more glad to find you here again 🙂 . It’s such a risk to lose (frequent) visitors, when going offline (unannounced) 🙁 . One of the greatest down sides of not having a fixed income, is that it’s not guaranteed that there’s enough on my account, to pay my bills. But it’s fixed now and I’m even out of personal debit account debt 🙂 . So after paying my €25 hosting bill Tuesday night (so cheap because I’m the administrator myself), I’m back online…

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Vampin’ [Sunday, June 9, 2019]

9 June 2019

03:48(AM) Meoww I just made myself a late night snack. Back in the day when I was 14 and cool on Twitter, if I’d be awake late at night like this, I’d say that I’m Vampin’. I’m Vampin’, my Graeyniss. Hungry… Crank up the volumeee: 2/2 pic.twitter.com/Y9dIwvstSD — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) June 9, 2019 Do you have sexy traditional plans for Pentecost you need some arm candy Catje for? What are your plans for "Pinksteren" ( = Pentecost )? pic.twitter.com/gFtYMkhLQr — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) June 9, 2019 I'll be missing out on these Peking ducks pic.twitter.com/EQiwFMI6ks — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_)…

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~ While eating sushi, reading lilfangs.com/syntax-error out loud

8 June 2019

I was planning to make another video about editing my websites, but you know I don’t like doing web development related things… So I impulsively decided to read my, at that moment, most recent diary post out loud and comment on the words I have written there. It was a lot of fun recording it. You can clearly see me get more comfortable with you, as time passes by. I tell you, for example, all about my feelings for King Victishe… And there are manyyy tangents in this video! All about the content I’ve been putting out in the open:…

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Processing… [Saturday, June 8, 2019]

8 June 2019

01:05 (AM) Meowww my laptop is processing the video of three hours I made earlier, reading and elaborating on yesterday’s diary post, while eating sushi 🙂 . I’ll let you know when it’s online 🙂 . I keep postponing changing around my websites, because I would rather pay someone to do it… That’s how I ended up reading a post out loud for you 🙂 . ~~~ 02:16 (AM) My video is almost fully processed now 🙂 . You can follow the process live here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3wL_B9_mcA&feature=youtu.be Meanwhile, I’m going to bed. Goood nighttt ♥ – xxx – 14:51 (02:51 PM)…

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Syntax Error [Friday, June 7, 2019]

7 June 2019

08:58 (AM) Good morning ♥ How was your night? I hope you slept well and have enjoyable things planned for today. For me, from the afternoon onwards, things only get worse, it seems. Stress has woken me up early. The prospects of my schedule make me think: “Please take me back to the crisis center,” because of both repetitious verbal therapy sessions and visitors coming over on the weekend, et cetera. All while I wish I could be with my dear Victor. My wish of wanting to be with him is nothing new. I’ve been mentioning him in my diary…

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Grapefruit [Thursday, June 6, 2019]

6 June 2019

13:48 (01:48 PM) Good afternoon 🙂 I just finished my first “meal” of the day: a selection of fruit I feel in the mood for, from the fruit basket downstairs. Now I’m back in my bed… It’s a sunny day, so I’d like to go outside, but my bank accounts are maxed out and I’m not in the mood to walk in the park by myself. Plus, I have no idea where my house keys are? I didn’t take them with me, when I went to the crisis center. I now can’t go to the gym either, because my membership…

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Another day…? [Wednesday, June 5, 2019]

5 June 2019

00:23 (12:23 AM)  I still hope you’ll purchase and read my essay, and let me know what you think of its content 🙂 . [products category=”essays-3″] It is written with the intention of discussing it on a much larger scale, and reach a consensus when it comes to shifting the hierarchy to a bottom-up construction. In it, I also say that the identities of some individuals can apply to multiple layers at the same time. You’ll find it interesting 🙂 . And I would like a new social circle, because I’m far too different from the people in my current…

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Disrupting The Silent Pyramid [Tuesday, June 4, 2019]

4 June 2019

00:35 (12:35 AM) I just finished my essay Disrupting the Silent Pyramid! It’s the best essay/plea/call-to-action I’ve written this far, I believe 🙂 . It’s exactly 2500 words and maybe re-sold for a lower price, if the profits are shared with me. I’m going to put it in my store now 🙂 . Here’s the cover image: ~~~ 01:26 (AM) [products category=”essays-3″] There it is 🙂 . It’s also a main menu item: Please check out the product page! It includes the best product description I’ve written this far 🙂 . I hope you will support my independent living, by…

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Crisis Center Day 7 [Monday, June 3, 2019]

3 June 2019

09:23 (AM) Good morning ♥ I woke up quite stressed out, because I don’t want to spend another day defending myself. But that’s why I’m here… All I can do is keep my head up. I’m going to take a shower and eat something. (Won’t go outside today, because my cards are maxed out…) But before I go, I feel like sharing this: Hehe meow I went to sleep with this thought: mijn Vicje [I sound obsessed lol]: I hope that the next time I hear you say “I really have to go”, is when I’m cuddling you in your…

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Crisis Center Day 6 [Sunday, June 2, 2019]

2 June 2019

05:57 (AM) Good morning :)♥ The chirping of birds woke me, a while ago. In case you see the featured image and wonder why my pillow is tilted to the side: it’s because (often, due to pillow quality) I prefer to lay my head on the mattress and pretend as if my pillow is someone I can cuddle with… I ate some left over soy beans, as I checked my notifications, after which I emptied my bladder. Now I’m back in bed. Meowww I wish I really had someone to talk to, with whom I can be intimate, who doesn’t…

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Crisis Center Day 5 [Saturday, June 1, 2019]

1 June 2019

06:49 (AM) Good morning ♥ How are you today? 🙂 I’m quite well rested, it seems. I’m thinking of how to keep myself occupied today… I feel like writing an essay about unspoken social hierarchy, but spending so much time with my phone in my hands isn’t healthy and I don’t have my laptop with me… Tomorrow will be a very hot day, so I really need those tights, though. (Even better would be to get my legs waxed… It’s very much needed… I wear tights in an attempt to mask my wildly unshaved legs…) And I should get outside…

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Crisis Center Day 4 [Friday, May 31, 2019]

31 May 2019

10:06 (AM) Good morning ♥ Though it hurts me to know that my business e-mail address is blocked, when contacting my Vicje – though I can understand he can not go in to personal business enquiries – it’s a relief to know that the e-mail I sent him yesterday, from my personal e-mail account, was delivered: I don’t know any other places to apply for a job I could be hired for, where I’d be sitting behind a desk. Serving drinks, sitting behind the counter, etc. suit my ambitions even less. I’m putting my Vicje in a difficult position, though…

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Crisis Center Day 3 [Thursday, May 30, 2019]

30 May 2019

11:28 (AM) Good morning ♥ I don’t know why I can’t reach my Vicje 🙁 . My heart is too weak to approach a random proletarian for this, who won’t understand how much of a sensitive topic this is, and how much bad news would destroy my heart. Some people speak of him in such an awful manner, I won’t be able to endure something like that again 🙁 . I attempted to email him this [a very random message, I know], when I received a “failed to deliver” notice in return…: I don’t know what to do now 🙁…

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Crisis Center Day 2 [Wednesday, May 29, 2019]

29 May 2019

09:11 (AM) Good morning ♥ I slept quite well, for the first time in a long time 🙂 . I’m going to join the breakfast table… For the sake of giving myself some more rest, I’ll mainly be writing instead of typing, today. But before I reduce my typing here (and on Twitter): Last night, I started to write down an outline of the way I would give myself a diagnosis: I only wish to speak to someone who is open to give me a second opinion. I have no patience with those who only focus on that lie of…

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Crisis Center Day 1 [Tuesday, May 28, 2019]

28 May 2019

01:08 (AM) I just ate some bread and left-overs. I’m at a more comfortable location than in 2017. This is an open vicinity. In 2017, I was in the closed vicinity. I wasn’t allowed to record the intake. But I still recorded a short piece, before I was told to shut off my phone and prove that it was off. (My god x_x.) I’ll just keep it for my own administraton, but won’t share the audio file on here. I don’t want to upset those who have authority over me, here… The conclusion of the conversation was that we don’t…

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Highlights [Monday, May 27, 2019]

27 May 2019

00:00 (12:00 AM) I tweet so much that if I wouldn’t share it here as well, it would be impossible to create an oversight. So highlights (of highlights): That was not my original plan for a campaign, but it would work as well… We can also make it less sexy, so that it fits today’s cultural standards #DOCIS #Fangyism — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 26, 2019 And with people of whom I know they’re in love with me, to whom I’m attracted to as well, but I don’t want to break their hearts…. #Fangyism — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 26,…

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Still At It [Sunday, May 26, 2019]

26 May 2019

09:48 (AM) Good morning ♥ I just ate some yoghurt and a piece of salmon from my parents’ dinner of yesterday. But eating makes me die less fast, so I kind of regret it… I don’t want to perceive life anymore, on the one hand. But on the other hand, I want to rule this world and be kissing my Vicje… 🙁 Als je denkt dat ik nu “niet meer mezelf ben”, omdat ik die “Lekker mezelf zijn…” kut post niet meer update, dan zit je ernaast. Na vrijdag de 17de, zag ik mijn kans om mijn Cold Case nog…

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Death O’Clock [Saturday, May 25, 2019]

25 May 2019

01:19 (AM)  I still either want to get killing or die. I don’t feel hunger anymore. Only this intense headache. I’m losing weight fast, though… You are free to act as you wish. Messing with me might backfire on you, though. ~~~ 02:02 (AM) Someone please tell me that it’s Death O’Clock…. you will regret it and you will regret it! — Make me. Who are you? https://t.co/lsjHjKz5CK — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 24, 2019 I really need to take a shower, but my body has become so weakened after not eating for so long 🙁 . Still gonna try…

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Not Dead Yet… [Friday, May 24, 2019]

24 May 2019

10:45 (AM)  In reference to yesterday: This is a popular post AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (It only has 12 views, why my most popular post has 2000+ views. This is sarcasm…) ~~~ 15:50 (03:50 PM) LIVE: de persconferentie van premier Rutte over de #ministerraad https://t.co/sjSmNFLhin — Mark Rutte (@MinPres) May 24, 2019 It’s not 22 people. Just The Fangs… ~~~ 16:48 (04:48 PM) Toch maar wel… pic.twitter.com/bg6R6GVfPO — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 24, 2019 ~~~ 21:40 (09:40 PM) This bloodlust is driving me crazy yoooo… Hunger is also driving me crazy, still. Barbaren bederven mijn eetlust… ~~~

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Voting Day [Thursday, May 23, 2019]

23 May 2019

12:58 (PM) Good afternoon ♥ I decided to resort to a less painful method, yesterday, and am still here. So I can vote 🙂 . I’ll get to that right away now. After that, continuing this method, I can even still work on my websites 🙂 . I’ll get to that! &Please please do not copy the behavior that comes with my suicidal tendencies 🙁 . Yesterday, I impulsively named my post “campaigning D.O.C.I.S.”, showing more of the definition of that in practice, which was followed by a wave of sadness, because it is so hard for me to find…

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Campaigning D.O.C.I.S…. [Wednesday, May 22, 2019]

22 May 2019

02:13 (AM) Weet je waarom ik eigenlijk niets zei, toen er vragen gesteld konden worden…? Omdat ik anders ruzie zou starten… Zie dit als een krantenkop: “Een zetel in het Europese Parlement, om daar over niet in het Europese Parlement zitten te praten?” Wie is dan wie, in de deep-state? I’m still trying to dissolve it… Ik heb niet genoeg ruimte om dan te zeggen: “De lijsttrekker is niet elke stem in de partij. Als in het gebeurt mede in zijn naam, maar hij gaat daar niet zitten.” Dus het volgende is niet op hem van toepassing: “Een zetel in…

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Continuance & Curiosity [Tuesday, May 21, 2019]

21 May 2019

04:51 (AM) Changing around my business website is going steady… I’m very proud of the hover effect I included, haha 😋 . It’s hard for me to stop doing something, when it’s not finished [out of context, but this includes the way I go about sex, when I still have energy], so here I am, in the AM, still working on HTML and CSS files… I find watching daylight set in a very calming experience. Unfortunately, it’s always followed by regret, because I’m getting behind on sleep. Haha every time I have plans of attending something I know will be…

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Baby steps… [Monday, May 20, 2019]

20 May 2019

23:10 (11:10 PM) Good evening 🙂 ♥ Excuse my absence today… I have been busy documenting a proposal for the property project, and have started off designing a theme for my soon to be renewed websites 🙂 . Since my books aren’t selling at all, I have no incentive to publish anything at the end of this month. I’ll have to change my methods around. So instead of releasing another book, I’m giving my web appearance a makeover. And I’ll be making a Fangs app… How I’m going to provide myself with the proper income that will give me freedom…

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:D -> :( [Sunday, May 19, 2019]

19 May 2019

17:37 (05:37 PM) Good afternoon ♥ I hope you’ll read the title of this diary post and think: “I experience the transition from a good mood to a bad mood, too, and could, by analyzing the way Fangs (indirectly) expresses this transition in her diary post, find better ways to prevent this from happening to me, in the future.” It’s one of the reasons why I share my feelings publicly. Yesterday, I shared an impulsive draft with you, about the way I could shape my life, to still get some satisfaction from it, now that it seems like the path…

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:( -> :D [Saturday, May 18, 2019]

18 May 2019

03:49 (AM) Hey Cuddle ♥ I can’t sleep. I need cuddles 🙁 . My heart hurts more than ever… If I’d get a euro for every time someone tells me I need help, I would seriously not need help, because money is my only problem, causing me to have to spend time with people I can’t level with, because I can’t afford to stay away from them, instead of having them make me feel depressed for not being understood. But yesterday’s “get help” was different. My B turns out not to be my B, he told me :(. Two years…

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Offline Relaxation & Cold Case 39 [Thursday, May 9, 2019]

9 May 2019

I’ll be having some quality time alone with my thoughts, not expressing my feelings on public media, until it’s time for our Volta. If all goes well, that takes place about a week from now. (I wish I could tell you exactly when…) In the meantime, if you want to, you can reach me via e-mail (d.elia@docis.international), which I’ll check via my laptop every now and then. My phone will be switched off, or, when I feel like listening to music when I’m outside or when I’m in the shower, in airplane mode. You could also become my Nintendo Switch…

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Lekker mezelf zijn terwijl die hartverscheurende Cold Case helaas nog steeds niet is afgesloten

9 May 2019

– – – – 09/05/’19 Offline Wat mijn blog content betreft val ik ontzettend in herhaling. Minstens tot en met mijn samenkomst met dr. Crutzen, zal ik daarom offline zijn. Wel zal ik af en toe mijn e-mail checken, dus als je me wil bereiken, kan dat via d.elia@docis.international. Ik werd zo geconsumeerd door het schrijven om mijn concept en identiteit te definiëren, dat ik vergat dat alles online eigenlijk waardeloos is. Ik hoop dat de technologie zich zodanig verder zal ontwikkelen, dat het concept van de online persoonlijkheid zal verdwijnen, en het leven zelf een uiterst bovennatuurlijke ervaring wordt….

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Cold Case 35 [Sunday, May 5, 2019]

5 May 2019

12:55 (PM) Good afternoon ♥ I’m so glad that my days of cold casing are finally coming to an end. When my life changes around to what it should have been from the start, I don’t have to spend time doing things that should have been outsourced from the start. I look forward to the moment I change my number and am only available to those I’ll spend eternity doing business with. To move to a country with living space, finally bring out the professional looking material I wanted to have been creating from the start, be acknowledged for the…

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Innovation & Cold Case 32 [Thursday, May 2, 2019]

2 May 2019

13:02 (01:02 PM) Good afternoon 🙂 I’ll be showing you how I update my websites today, (semi-)live! Like around last year’s Christmas, I’m going to attempt to excite people to act upon my online fundraiser. This time I’m attempting the more populist approach, though that is a little against my principles. I just want my business to finally thrive… You can follow my process of “innovating” my websites today, by keeping an eye on my Twitter page (or my Instagram story, but Twitter is more elaborate). Turn on my notifications, please . #Fangyism #FangyFacts pic.twitter.com/J1heyoELtu — Lil Fangs (Dominique Daniëlle…

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Cold Case 28 [maandag, 29 april 2019]

28 April 2019

00:12 (12:12 AM) Ik begin inmiddels mijn limiet te bereiken wat betreft gratis content. Zo ontzettend veel mensen kijken toe hoe ik lijd, en doen dat nog eens gratis ook. Ik denk dat het het meest bevredigend zal zijn als al mijn content van het een op het andere moment van hen afgezonderd wordt. Daarbij krijgen ze ook geen toegang tot het bestuur van mijn organisatie. En mijn boek moet echt van Bol.com afgehaald worden en ik heb recht op 100% van de omzet die er is gemaakt met de verkoop van mijn boek. Ik weet nog steeds niet wie…

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Cold Case 27 [Zondag, 28 april 2019]

27 April 2019

00:37 (12:37 AM) Digitally earned money is not real money. It disrupts our system and therefore digital fraud is best solved with the death penalty. #FangyFacts #Fangyism This is an indirect reference to Fangyist Economics & Initiating Change (+Keynes part 2 [the digression]) :)) . With that, I do not mean kill everyone. It’s a statement about the balance between the amount of resources available, your earnings and what nature receives in return. ~~~ 01:42 (AM) ~~~ 16:22 (04:22 PM)  So last night, I wanted to share a poll and ended up making a spontaneous group chat, with people I…

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Cold Case 26 & Kingsday [Saturday, April 27, 2019]

27 April 2019

16:29 (04:29 PM)Hii ♥Here are some pictures I took last night:[I decided to go with instant noodles instead of rice at the last moment]Need to clean kitchen#fangyismIs a word that was not used on the web very often. Making up words is the improvisation you do when you want to make yourself heard and the other words have not been used yet.Unfortunately :(I can’t wait until my days of blogging are over and I can finally rule the world with my Graeynissis 🙂 .It’s Kingsday today and I have plans of staying at home. I mean I love to dance,…

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