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Opposing views and speaking my mind

We engage ourselves in social interactions. All human beings have a unique perception of reality. If I were to describe the core of the contents of verbal communication, I would definitely include that the partakers in conversations, make statements about their personal experience of life. Some descriptions of this perception, can lead to discussions.  To solely study, or to convince?  I think that there is a lesson in most forms of communication. [Is dit populisme???????] [Meow.] … … Towards an example of a conversation leading to: “I avoid giving my opinion, when my view is the opposite of a stated…

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Reputational Damage

If there weren’t a (globally¿) spread rumor about me, I would have been approached and believed positively different, by others. Starting this project would have been much easier, without this bias. Even people who I don’t know, (think they) “know” me, as that person who “has had mental issues”, because of the message that was spread, while I was missing. Most of them talk to me as if I’m not an adult and should be kept away from “serious information”. It is in the sentiment in their voice. As if a war broke out and I am a little child…

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Do you believe that I will make it? 

My Cuddle, Today, it’s the 22nd of September. As usual, I have given myself so much work that even talking to a friend/acquaintance who I’ve ran into, feels like an extreme waste of time, for every minute I spend working on project Nosce Te Ipsum, makes such a big difference in the long term. Healthy would be to make the release later than the 30th. The 40 hours per week work agreement I’ve used to earn a small self-investment in this company, ended on the 2nd of this month. And then there were my final exams, of which the last…

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Quick Reflection 11/09/2018

All I think about is you Even though we haven’t spent that much time together yet —– My dream: We meet up once And you then never leave me The Never Ending Cuddle Hangout With our fellow Cuddles —– There are not many people like us Starting a new life with someone you barely know, might seem like taking a risk “What if our personalities don’t match?” To me, now, you’re my only hope So I say it’s so worth the gamble Other than that there’s nothing for me here —— Trust Trust is an interesting mental concept. I always…

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Mental Images

“Paint a picture of what has been on your mind every day. With words. In the end, you’ll see how far you’ve come.” Where’s the Volta? Stuck in the same spot.  Happy still hurts, when it’s for only one When it’s not shared When it’s misunderstood When it’s not even there I do not want your money in that way That would just make me feel more lonely IT’S ABOUT THE THINGS WE COULD DO WITH IT, FOR ALL OF US For now, the result is just a mental image, to me I live to make it reality I depend…

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What does it mean? 

“Zzzz so many posts, still no clear essence” The essence is everything to me, when you love it When you don’t, I won’t succeed Success means creating true happiness for many Many reasons for me to also shift + delete the other new Nosce Te Ipsum The diary is to preserve my memory, so ew to including it I don’t want you to feel the pain I feel But I want to be transparent But not another post The pain shouldn’t be a re-occurring theme Haven’t even written down half of it What’s the point?  Will I make it?  Making…

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Sad Pet 

An expert in judgment must know how FUCKED UP it feels when people have a different source that portrays you as “the bad guy”, according to a milked script that is so deep-rooted in people’s minds, even though your intentions are good.  They say: “Don’t try to talk to her, because she doesn’t want to talk to you.”  If I would want you to believe that, I would say that to you personally. With my mouth. Not through text. Don’t believe any other source than me. But please ask me first, before you interpret my written words, for they can…

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WILHELMUS 2.0

MY CUDDLES LET’S UNITE LET’S GET THE FUUUUUUUCK OUT OF THIS COUNTRY AND MAKE OUR OWN :D. THIS IS THE MOMENT YOU HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR!!!  YOU CAN’T GO TO WORK IF YOUR OFFICE BUILDING IS FLOODED!!!!  WE’RE CUDDLE VISJES NOW 😀 <3 [Your recipe for survival. Even though they say there will be no internet? Because you’re not allowed to share the details on how LETTING YOU DIE IS MUUUUUUCH CHEAPER. THE ROADS ARE TOO BUSY FOR EVACUATION. WE WILL NEED TO FIGHT FOR OURSELVES. LET’S BUILD OUR OWN SAFETY. (If you, at the sentence about fighting, thought: “I’ll…

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Fangs’s Dictionary

I like language (as well as many other things). I’ve made up a language, of which I would find it cool if other people would speak it, too. It would become the native language of my country, if I had one. Cuddle is “the official dialect” spoken by Planet Fang citizens. It stays a dialect until there are enough words to make it a language of its own. You could use the words together with your native language (or another language). Let’s speak Cuddle? :] Cishe Plural: Cishes “Mag ik een Cishe?” (= “May I have a Cishe?”) [Noun] A…

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Lil Fangs?¿?¿?

“Telescope + photoshop (@image captured by telescope) = NASA?????” “THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS HAHA” What’s a propagandist to you? Wednesday, August 1, 2018 – 01:18 (AM) [CEST] Scroll down for English. The core is below July 30. Ga ik “morgen” moe zijn? I-ë ye 😀 Mijn naam is Dominique Daniëlle Elia and this is the development of a project that is here to .(grey) .(purple) .(gold) .(black) .(“turkoois”) .(bordeaux) .(dark blue). (HAHAHAHA “dit is de beste introductie ooit” [hoeveel procent van mijn publiek spreekt geen Nederlands? Ben jij mijn publiek?]) The Lil Fangs Challenge: make longer talking…

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Sunday, June 10, 2018

20:18 (08:18 PM) Good evening <3 How was your day? There are two topics I’ll elaborate on today. One sad, one “happy”. It’s “happy” because of the paradox I’ll mention in between the topics. Yesterday I mentioned the turbulence in my life, but I didn’t elaborate on it. That’s the sad part. The “happy” part is my struggling having a “finish line”. I often say “this is it”, but those points don’t have a “finish line”. Now I’ve finally been able to picture one. It requires A LOT of work, but it’s so worth it. I’m going to push myself…

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Search “Revenge of The Nerds” in an online music store!!!

For more information about everything that’s going on over here, listen to Revenge of The Nerds in your favorite online music store. The link to my Youtube channel is at the right top menu on the home page. For the ebook, search “Nosce Te Ipsum I, Book I, Episode I” in an online book store. I was typing this on the plane to Baltimore. That’s why there are no links in this post.

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Tuesday May 15, 2018

19:58 (07:58 PM) I was starting to feel bad for leaving. But then I heard (in English, with an intentional “funny accent”), while this mf was poking in my belly (that already hurt): “You need to start working out. Damn. Go to the gym six days a week.” You need to buy proper groceries and stop buying takeout food you overweight fleh. I didn’t say a thing. If I would speak my mind, I could terminate my mission. And that was before I received my second round. They don’t need to eat as much as I do. They don’t get…

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V. Bonus Rebel

I had to find a way to proclaim that we are supposed to live a different life. Then, a magic sound gave me an epiphany. I’m kind of insecure about my voice, you see. But then I heard… My favorite artist. His topics are so diverse. Politics, spitituality…  How can I answer you openly…?  So what I just did is sort of not allowed, right? Can we talk about this? I’m not in it for the money anyway. Tell me what you think. Tell me who you’re thinking of. Should someone carry a secret about love, just to survive the…

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IV. Mad Fangs

What time are we leaving? Where are we going? I don’t care. As long as I’m with you.  They don’t want me to clear my name. They like to see me suffer. Anything for good gossip. They have no other topic. But I’m getting tougher.  You see, I thought, in a friendship, it was a given To not put dirt on someone’s name But I learnt they faked it I’m trapped in a snake pit I hate this They never asked me But in case you wonder If I could go missing again I would Their presence makes me sick…

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III. Nerdy Smooth

Did I just see you take off your socks? Damn… Those feet…  00:12 – 00:30 piano solo Is it hot in here? Or is it just you? It must be hot because of you — I’m so happy you’re hearing me I want to talk about the attraction between us Something that should be explored more Something divine One day, I leave my life behind and spend all eternity with those I’m truly attracted to, but have never met before I know you’re carrying quite a big secret You already know everything about me You can read my eyes, without…

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II. An Overture

00:02-00:13  Please don’t focus on sound quality I had to find a way to get these words to you I’m not trying to comform myself to the standard of someone living in the spotlight It’s about the message For me to experience true freedom, you need to hear my message 00:18 – 00:20 (silence) My message 00:20-00:25 (ladder) — 00:25 – 00:35 (zonder zoemend geluid) You must not love your occupation But you’ll adore my alternative 00:35 – 01:03 full beat  Be my subject Be my subject Be my subject Be my subject We’ll find your true purpose You’ll say…

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A.D.H.D.

What if my body and mind can do way more than I believe is possible? I set my own mental boundaries. Can we escape time? Because I feel like having dinner on the beach. Wait. Are you down to go to a place where you can do whatever you feel like doing whenever you feel like doing it? Let’s go :D.

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Betawoman

Fear the Alpha. With his empty Clouds that bring darkness to life. Duality in Reverse implies The Beta. Female Equivalency powered by the East’s Light. A Dove with Hawk-like ambitions. Are you ready to Evolve? Stop it, Babylon. I’m an Amazon. Lil Fangs

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The Truth

Do you Follow? Do you Create? Exhibition Spiritually dormant? Spiritually cognizant? Inner Mission Ever gazed at the Moon? Ever stared into the Sun? Divination Are you happy? Do you satisfy yourself? Your Creation Do you believe in yourself? Are you part of something greater? Inhibition Are you self-preservative? Do we support each other? True Religion You can achieve anything you want in life. The limit lies beyond the sky. Exorcism.

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The Weakness

A slave to my passions. Not able to lie. [When I tell someone something that isn’t in synch with the truth a wave of self-hatred and disgust captivates me, for hours.] It’s hard to be yourself when you’re used to being disrespected for being a dreamer. F*** that, though. I do whatever makes me happy. F*** scarcity thinking.

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Time

The Universe was created when you came to Earth. Makes the words “Big Bang” sound a bit awkward. Wake up. Eddy B’s intelligence is being misused. Perception and reasoning are the key to survive. Can we make this place look like Heaven? [Hell Yeah.] Just keep your head up. And keep breathing. You’re a cool person. Lil Fangs

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Bitch

Come and sit on my Lap. Beauty level off the Charts. Do you value my Assets? Educated by the Bourgeoisie. Brain level PhD. Here we don’t care about that, though. I’d rather swim in your sea. Lil Fangs

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“Het Wilhelmus” der Cuddles

My Cuddles, It’s time to “Shenron Mode” our courage. No one will understand our impulse. They think we need them. They need us. But still they treat us so loveless. I want to “take my friends on tour” as well. You all have your own planes, if not, you could share them (with me looool faka government plane). It’s time for Fang School. Being a nerd is not something you should be shunned for. It’s a gift. Making them feel jealous. Talent is a necessity. Let’s stop wasting time. And try to reach the maximum of our capacities. It’s going…

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a poem 19/04/’18

Seafood platters Blood splatters I need to edit the rest of my blog What the fog What was I thinking “Making it go viral in advance” will cause trouble But I’m still gonna burst a bubble Meet me in Paris. Felt how the Earth shook? Save my ebook 😀

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