00:02 (12:02 AM) Meoww yesterday was cool 🙂 . After playing the piano, I went out for dinner with my father, my sister and her boyfriend, at the Meat Cave in The Hague. There are, unfortunately, some chapters I need to close before I can take group pictures of us that include self-written introductions of themselves and other cool things maybe. But then I want my website to look more representative as well, officially debuting them. The concept of fathership regarding me and me feeling so BlackTalian, is also quite complicated. So meoww here are Fangy (hmmm) memory pictures I…

00:11 (12:11 AM) Hooraaaaaaay, LilFangs.com exists one year today! ♥ Sooo much has happened since the very spontaneous “in medias res” start of this blog! Visiting Paris and (multiple cities in) Suriname (again), escaping psychiatric surveillance by running away to the US, almost going homeless in the US so coming back and still escaping surveillance by working full-time in an office for the first time in my life, scoring my first “university” study points, the long and difficult search to find suitable Graeynissis for my business (and to befriend), of course, releasing many books and articles, and muuuuuch more 🙂…

03:55 (AM) Meoww yess so I’m now going to add the final layer of fun complexity to the “I developed a major crush on someone who might turn out to be my actual biological father, who has also been the motive for other people, to diagnose me with schizophrenia” story that is part of my cold case: he (dr. Crutzen) has always been able to hear me reason, and as I matured (forgetting parts of my childhood), and he mentally identifies himself through my reasoning (just like many other people), he might have forgotten that he is my father, and…

00:56 (12:56 AM) Meoww I ended up still going to the gym and later accompanied a friend to the university library, while I was doing my depressing book keeping. I need a donation/investment to make my business look more attractive, and that could then lead to anything that looks like revenue. Currently, I have no income. Only fucking high personal expenses (from my personal account) to escape my parents’ home. And then I get so broke that I have no other option but to go home. Every fucking time. I hope my B will save me! 🙁 There are no…

15:53 (03:53 PM) Hi ♥ Just like yesterday and manyyy days before that, I’m still in bed (around this time)… I’m not outing how much of a bed pet I am that often – in comparison with how often I’m exhausted and self-cuddly like this. That’s because it’s my guilty pleasure… Dutch culture is all about getting up early and doing things together, saying that you contribute to society. My bed pettiness is considered a symptom of the illness I believe I do not have (schizophrenia), so I’m very incentivized to not shout it from the rooftops. I reallyyy can’t…

14:15 (02:15 PM) Heyy ♥ My long term goal is to put my concepts for the development of my non-profit publishing and charity business into a multifunctional non-profit multinational, into practice. It’s not simple, to find funding for this concept. So I’m very glad that yesterday, when I was thinking of finding another way to prove my expertise, I came across the University of Antwerp, which seems to have a very simple admission process, which, for this curriculum, apparently closed on the 14th of March. I hope I can still get in… In that way, I can prove my expertise,…

16:58 (04:58 PM) My love ♥ An impulsive Google Search session earlier today, has inspired me to follow a new and more effective strategy to achieve my goals. I will tell you all about it, but first I’ll be taking care of dinner, because my writing makes me very hungry. So I’ll be making this three course meal, as I wait for my relatives to come home. I’m going to make an improvisation of mashed potatoes, a combination of spinach and read coal with apples, “Caribbean shrimp” and parsnip-asparagus soup. And I bought ice cream for dessert 🙂 . I’ll…