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Doe eens iets geks? 

Iets wat ik nog nooit heb gedaan, is een post helemaal in het Nederlands schrijven. Wat betreft grammaticaregels [ik kan het beter “alleen maar uitzonderingen” noemen] is het sowieso een verschrikkelijke taal, dus wijk ik algauw liever uit naar een wat toegankelijkere taal. Puur om geklaag te vookomen.  Vele Nederlanders hebben me aangeraden om eerst te beginnen met het veroveren van de Nederlandse markt, voordat ik internationaal ga. Ik heb drie heel zwaar wegende argumenten om dit niet te doen:  Het doel van mijn missie betreft alle landen ter wereld, [JA, “KOMMA EN”] en het Engels is een internationale taal. …

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A trauma

Who would you listen to? A group of people who express their care about someone, by, with a large budget, starting a campaign about how they miss someone and how that person “is now a lost cause”, because she has smoked quite a few joints, then became a lot less socially active person and decided to never come home again, or “the lost cause”, who has a very alternative view on the world and is, with a very low budget, trying to change the world, currently by legally bending the law, from her bedroom at her parents’ house? Apparently the…

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2019’s Reform

My original strategy for making large-scale changes to the system, was very subtle. It was my intention to accomplish it independently, instead of doing it via the democratic system – because I don’t believe in it. For the change I want to make, which includes a more eco-friendly economic system, as well as a safe haven in case the Netherlands flood again, I want to buy an island and declare it an independent state, with its own constitution, its own currency and an alternative legal system. Throughout my writings, Planet Fang – which is what I want to name the…

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Wednesday, December 26, 2018

01:57 (AM)  There’s some text in the previous post, which was updated after 12. I would love to talk to you some more, but I can barely keep my eyes open. Plus, I’ll have to do some grocery shopping tomorrow, because during last evening’s dinner, we decided that I’m not only in charge of the mashed potatoes. I’ll also be making the starter. My sister wants something with raw salmon, so I’ll be making my own version of zalmtaartaar :)♥ . I’m off to bed Good night, my love ♥ I love you ♥ ♥ I can’t wait to spend…

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Sunday, December 23, 2018

[I wrote this unfinished piece of post yesterday around 7 PM, but then something happened, and because of that, I still will not finish it. I’ll explain it to you 🙂 . Between the three dotted lines is the unfinished piece of post.] — My Cuddle ♥ Excuse my previous madness 🙁 . It’s a side effect that comes with my ambition. I hope you still love me. I get so mad, because I love you and I can’t stand that I can’t be with you 🙁 . I had a lot of fun with my mother yesterday. When we…

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180 Days of Fangs

There’s a crucial difference between writing general self reflection and writing an online diary post, to me. It’s in the concept of time. In an online diary post, I reflect the emotions I feel – still not in the peaceful state I want them to be in – to the way I experience time as I’m writing that exact post, by means of showing a(n alternative) contemporary life – it might be interesting to reflect back on it in 10 years and see how much life has changed, hopefully with D.O.C.I.S. International – and of preserving my long and short…

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D. O. C. I. S. 

D.O.C.I.S. The abbreviation in the name of the international business I intend to start, called D.O.C.I.S. International, stands for: Determined Observant Colloquial Intelligent Stratagem   D.O.C.I.S. Nosce Te Ipsum I, Book I, Episode 2 Copyright © 2018 by Lil Fangs. All rights reserved. Sharing content of this book is only allowed when it is mentioned that the source is this copy. ISBN: 9789082936834 D.O.C.I.S. International   Prosperity Within the new Standard we shape Determined and Strategic Decisions, fast like Bliksem We’ll Create a whole new System From the routinous Life, this is your Escape These Words are Written for Unification Feel…

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Opposing views and speaking my mind

We engage ourselves in social interactions. All human beings have a unique perception of reality. If I were to describe the core of the contents of verbal communication, I would definitely include that the partakers in conversations, make statements about their personal experience of life. Some descriptions of this perception, can lead to discussions.  To solely study, or to convince?  I think that there is a lesson in most forms of communication. [Is dit populisme???????] [Meow.] … … Towards an example of a conversation leading to: “I avoid giving my opinion, when my view is the opposite of a stated…

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“Lil Fangs” is a temporary name

Until my name is cleared…  This is a long story……. Should I keep it short?  My actual poet’s alias/composers name/writer’s alias is Δοκις, or “Docis”.  As long as my name isn’t cleared and I can’t deliver the exact work I want to deliver, I don’t want to publish anything under the name that looks like the name of my organization.  My name being cleared means that my side of the story is heard on the same scale as the story that is far from the truth, which has been spread over a scale so large that it worries me, when…

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My Interview with Smashwords

What do your supporters mean to you? My supporters are my happiness. It is so comforting to know that there are so many more people out there, who are like me. I wouldn’t know what to do, without them… What are you working on next? The second episode of the first book of Nosce Te Ipsum I. The research questions for the entire series, I already have. The exact content of an episode, I like to write on-the-go, to give my audience a real-time update of the status of the project they’re a part of. Who are your favorite authors?…

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Do you believe that I will make it? 

My Cuddle, Today, it’s the 22nd of September. As usual, I have given myself so much work that even talking to a friend/acquaintance who I’ve ran into, feels like an extreme waste of time, for every minute I spend working on project Nosce Te Ipsum, makes such a big difference in the long term. Healthy would be to make the release later than the 30th. The 40 hours per week work agreement I’ve used to earn a small self-investment in this company, ended on the 2nd of this month. And then there were my final exams, of which the last…

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Wednesday, September 19, 2018

02:13 (AM)  My Cuddle!  I have decided to delete parts of what I’ve previously written in this post. This diary has been used for me to vent, sometimes. As you might have noticed… It doesn’t leave room for the other anonymous party I was venting about to vent and it was just a minor aspect I needed to vent about, so what’s the point of keeping it in my history, right? [The “You’ve hurt me too often. I want to run away and never come back.” “You’re insane and irresponsible! Fine, stay away!!!” messages are something else. Dat is bijna…

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Quick Reflection 11/09/2018

All I think about is you Even though we haven’t spent that much time together yet —– My dream: We meet up once And you then never leave me The Never Ending Cuddle Hangout With our fellow Cuddles —– There are not many people like us Starting a new life with someone you barely know, might seem like taking a risk “What if our personalities don’t match?” To me, now, you’re my only hope So I say it’s so worth the gamble Other than that there’s nothing for me here —— Trust Trust is an interesting mental concept. I always…

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Mental Images

“Paint a picture of what has been on your mind every day. With words. In the end, you’ll see how far you’ve come.” Where’s the Volta? Stuck in the same spot.  Happy still hurts, when it’s for only one When it’s not shared When it’s misunderstood When it’s not even there I do not want your money in that way That would just make me feel more lonely IT’S ABOUT THE THINGS WE COULD DO WITH IT, FOR ALL OF US For now, the result is just a mental image, to me I live to make it reality I depend…

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What does it mean? 

“Zzzz so many posts, still no clear essence” The essence is everything to me, when you love it When you don’t, I won’t succeed Success means creating true happiness for many Many reasons for me to also shift + delete the other new Nosce Te Ipsum The diary is to preserve my memory, so ew to including it I don’t want you to feel the pain I feel But I want to be transparent But not another post The pain shouldn’t be a re-occurring theme Haven’t even written down half of it What’s the point?  Will I make it?  Making…

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Sad Pet 

An expert in judgment must know how FUCKED UP it feels when people have a different source that portrays you as “the bad guy”, according to a milked script that is so deep-rooted in people’s minds, even though your intentions are good.  They say: “Don’t try to talk to her, because she doesn’t want to talk to you.”  If I would want you to believe that, I would say that to you personally. With my mouth. Not through text. Don’t believe any other source than me. But please ask me first, before you interpret my written words, for they can…

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WILHELMUS 2.0

MY CUDDLES LET’S UNITE LET’S GET THE FUUUUUUUCK OUT OF THIS COUNTRY AND MAKE OUR OWN :D. THIS IS THE MOMENT YOU HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR!!!  YOU CAN’T GO TO WORK IF YOUR OFFICE BUILDING IS FLOODED!!!!  WE’RE CUDDLE VISJES NOW 😀 <3 [Your recipe for survival. Even though they say there will be no internet? Because you’re not allowed to share the details on how LETTING YOU DIE IS MUUUUUUCH CHEAPER. THE ROADS ARE TOO BUSY FOR EVACUATION. WE WILL NEED TO FIGHT FOR OURSELVES. LET’S BUILD OUR OWN SAFETY. (If you, at the sentence about fighting, thought: “I’ll…

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An Introduction to Project Nosce Te Ipsum

The chapters in this article are the introductions of two previously deleted Nosce Te Ipsum episodes. They very indirectly show that the actual content of project Nosce Te Ipsum depends on societal demand, which will be defined by “The Simulator”. The missing questions are in the intermezzo. The Mission Hi sweetie! How are you doing today? I have so much love for you, if I would start explaining it in detail, I would lose my voice with so much ease. There’s something in the way you reason with so much competence and you read the words I write… I miss…

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Sunday, June 10, 2018

20:18 (08:18 PM) Good evening <3 How was your day? There are two topics I’ll elaborate on today. One sad, one “happy”. It’s “happy” because of the paradox I’ll mention in between the topics. Yesterday I mentioned the turbulence in my life, but I didn’t elaborate on it. That’s the sad part. The “happy” part is my struggling having a “finish line”. I often say “this is it”, but those points don’t have a “finish line”. Now I’ve finally been able to picture one. It requires A LOT of work, but it’s so worth it. I’m going to push myself…

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Tuesday May 15, 2018

19:58 (07:58 PM) I was starting to feel bad for leaving. But then I heard (in English, with an intentional “funny accent”), while this mf was poking in my belly (that already hurt): “You need to start working out. Damn. Go to the gym six days a week.” You need to buy proper groceries and stop buying takeout food you overweight fleh. I didn’t say a thing. If I would speak my mind, I could terminate my mission. And that was before I received my second round. They don’t need to eat as much as I do. They don’t get…

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An Open Letter To All World Leaders

Featured: It’s a man’s world & Black mirror season 3 ep 1 I, Dominique Daniëlle Elia, have nothing to hide. Ik, Dominique Daniëlle Elia, heb niets te verbergen. Reading and sharing my message would be highly appreciated. It’s time for change. Don’t you think so too?   Dear world leader(s) (Not necessarily referring to America here) If all the “myths” about our privacy (or our non-existent privacy, depending on how you look at it) are true, I can easily reach you by posting this on my social media. I want to reach you because I notice that the things you…

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Draft: Het DIY-dieet: achtergrondonderzoek (0)

Categorie: DIY Publicatiedatum: We weten niet wat er in ons eten zit, gezond eten is duur en een pizza is veel lekkerder dan een maaltijdsalade. Ik vraag me af of ik een dieet zodanig kan opstellen dat ik én kan eten wat ik lekker vind, én mijn gezondheid vooruit help in plaats van achteruit. Om erachter te komen hoe ik mijn dieet moet samenstellen heb ik de volgende vragen opgesteld: Wat heeft een menselijk lichaam dagelijks voor voedingstoffen nodig? Wat maakt dat mijn eetpatroon mijn gezondheid achteruit helpt? Hoe zitten 3 verschillende bekende diëten in elkaar? Paleo, Cambridge, Slimming World…

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Draft: De strijd tegen procrastinatie (1): Nooit meer uitstellen

Categorie: levenswijze Publicatiedatum: x Deel 2: Wat ik heb geleerd Wat er is veranderd Je kent het misschien wel: ruim de tijd hebben om iets te doen, maar uiteindelijk beginnen wanneer de deadline bijna in zicht is. Uitstelgedrag weerhoudt je ervan om vooruit te gaan. Dit kan zorgen voor enorme frustratie (vooral voor mensen die enorme waslijsten met taken en doelen hebben). Waar komt het vandaan? Na wat research te hebben gedaan, ben ik op de volgende oorzaken van uitstelgedrag gekomen: Men is zich van tevoren niet bewust van hoeveel tijd het kost om de opdracht te voltooien Gebrek aan…

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Draft: Trend update

So, when social media started (for me), I was on top of “all the hypes”. I was fourteen and had a twitter account. Reflecting on all kinds of things. From politics to giving people shoutouts, while totally not reading what my “friends” are posting, but focussing on finding funny “can you relate to this” tweets to retweet. “Back then”, it wasn’t that popular yet.

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Black Culture*

What is black culture? I can’t ask my teacher anymore… He had taught me so much. I didn’t even go to school yet, then. I could already write, though. Later, I gave my first presentation, at age 9, about the country my family is from: Surinam. My teacher had told me everything I had to know to give the presentation. I’m talking about my grandfather. He told me about the harmony there was before slave trade. And the disrupted culture there was afterwards. There’s a disrupted image going round, of what black culture is. Black culture is not slave culture….

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