I am in Maintenance Mode

But I am addicted to you... I can't stop writing you!! After the Summer, I'd like to propose something to you, which could improve our lives for all eternity... I'm working on it (and for it) right now. Let's be Cuddles :D.

"A(n end of) September without unwanted routinely obligations? A holiday feeling that lasts forever¿" Let's make it happen...



Popular posts

Blog, Online Diary

Thursday May 24, 2018

23:28 (11:28 PM) Another day full of impulses has passed. I learned that booking a flight is cheaper and more efficient than travelling by car. Especially because I’m 21 and thus will be charged extra, since there’s an “extra risk related to my age”. They don’t have manual cars available…

Blog, Online Diary

Wednesday May 23, 2018

I’m using a time cheat here, since I’ll be telling you about Wednesday… 00:55 (12:55 AM) [May 24] My Cuddleee How was your day? Mine was… Impulsive. I have to check out on the 25th, so I had to decide on where to go next. My final destination is Los…



There's this long line for boarding now. I'll just sit here until the line is almost gone. I have an aisle seat and no carry-on luggage anyway.

Nosce t’ipsum EP(isode) 1

The “bonus track” is available in your favorite music store, under the album name “Revenge of The Nerds”, by Lil Fangs.  You’ll find the playlist by clicking the following link: (I’ll embed later. I’m sitting at the gate and my laptop battery died. We’ll be boarding soon.) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLZZjLeyp_umCuMTH2p_fGlJFy-H1oK8yl

Blog, Online Diary

Tuesday May 22, 2018

06:06 (AM) Good morning How was your night? Are you ready for this? I really can’t wait to see you. I really hope I will…….. The thought of not meeting you freaks me out. I’ve cooked yesterday, I packed, I wrote a goodbye letter, I rushed the lyrics videos and…

Drafts, Recipes

Pasta (vegan): “The Last Meal” (saffron & basil + veggies)

When I cook, I always try to discover new tastes. I’ve never tried the combination of basil and saffron before. “The Last Meal” I’ve prepared for my family. Today. Last meal ever. We’ve eaten so much takeout food and many (unhealthy) restaurant dinners, I’m starting to receive complaints on my…

Blog, Online Diary

Monday May 21, 2018

14:52 (02:52 PM) My suitcase weighs 15 kg, according to the weighing scale I was able to put it on, right before my father entered the house. He just came back from visiting my grandmother. He called me downstairs to strongly advice me not to visit her. Her accusations, distrust…

Blog, Online Diary

Sunday May 20, 2018

10:58 (AM) We’ve been chilling at my friends’ parents in Amsterdam for quite some time now. I kind of really want to go home. The weather is so nice. I can’t wait to be completely alone. To be able to walk somewhere without being accompanied by people I wouldn’t voluntarily…

Blog, Online Diary

Saturday May 19, 2018

16:02 (04:02 PM) Hi :] Yesterday was fun. I know the degree of fun I experienced is just a teaser of the fun I’ll experience when I’m totally free, chilling with you.  First I felt a bit sad for the people I’ll be leaving, but from the way they treat…

Blog, Online Diary

Friday May 18, 2018

16:06 (04:06 PM) … I’m not allowed to carry my keyboard in my suitcase instead of in my backpack, because I might get stolen. I say: “So someone at the luggage checking area is going to spot this €100 keyboard through this luggage checking machine and think: “Oh boyyy this…

Blog, Online Diary

Thursday, May 17, 2018

14:00 (02:00 PM) Hi Cuddleee What’s the most fun thing you’re going to do today? My father woke me up at 12, telling me to get up. This is my first night here, where I slept “aan een stuk door”. Without waking up. (That’s not my most fun thing. The…


Wednesday May 16, 2018

10:25 (AM) Good morning, my cuddle How was your night? I’m sitting at the breakfast table now.  My sister asked me to put her phone in the charger, when my grandmother woke us up, because we had slept through the alarm (but I think I didn’t go off? My biggest…

Blog, Online Diary

Monday May 14, 2018

12:19 (AM) Good afternoon 😀 How was your night? Again, I only took a set of naps. In the middle of the night (I already went to sleep past 3 AM, and I was the first to lie down, so the others going to sleep woke me up every time,…

Blog, Online Diary

Saturday May 12, 2018

16:59 (04:59 PM) Ah screen staring 18:03 (06:03 PM) Hi sweetie What’s on your mind today? I wanted to write this earlier, when I was sitting on a bench in the mall, but my father came back out of the store sooner than I expected – because he didn’t buy…



To get in the mood of finally being free… We’ll be being hyped to this.

Blog, Online Diary

Friday May 11, 2018

12:24 (PM) Something I’ve not been doing for a long time is fully explaining myself. I used to do it when I was very young, then I developed my “storytelling skills” around puberty, so I slowed down my speaking pace and focused on intonation. Now I’m back at speaking fast…


My First Piano Performance

The first time I played the piano for an audience, was at the Pianodriedaagse at De Doelen in Rotterdam. The event was called the “drie minuten festival”, where contestants are allowed to perform for a maximum of three minutes, in front of an audience and a jury, at a very…

Blog, Online Diary

Wednesday May 9, 2018

17:03 (05:03 PM) Good afternoon 18:14 (06:14 PM) I want to tell you so much, but every time I’m sitting next to someone and they keep looking at my phone screen. The top of the screen I’m writing on says “LilFangs.com” and I don’t want them to visit that URL…

Blog, Online Diary

Tuesday May 8, 2018

21:31 (09:31 PM) Good evening :] How are you today? I haven’t told you about the many things I’ve done yesterday evening yet.  23:21 (11:21 PM) I won’t get to writing everything down right now, because I’m now re-writing down the answers on my test on different paper, so that…

Blog, Online Diary

Monday May 7, 2018

07:20 (AM) Good morning <3 How was your night? I think I’ve slept about an hour in total. My father was watching a movie on his laptop, so the light reflections on the wall kept me awake. Then my skin and eyes started to act up so I was very…

Blog, Online Diary

Sunday May 6, 2018

19:29 (07:29 PM) Good evening, my cuddle How’s your day? I swam a bit today, made some pictures of monkies in the trees here, packed, ate and listened to people’s conversations. I do that A LOT, by the way. But I often don’t mention it.  Oof, I was helping with…

Blog, Online Diary

Saturday May 5, 2018

13:48 (01:48 PM) I just had lunch at a “warung” (if I’m correct)? I made a picture of the street dogs who were chilling there. Revenge of The Nerds (The became the due to some autocorrect measure, but I want it to be The). My sister and… My cousin…? Are…

Blog, Ex Animo, Nosce Te Ipsum

V. Bonus Rebel

I had to find a way to proclaim that we are supposed to live a different life. Then, a magic sound gave me an epiphany. I’m kind of insecure about my voice, you see. But then I heard… My favorite artist. His topics are so diverse. Politics, spitituality…  How can…

Blog, Ex Animo, Nosce Te Ipsum

IV. Mad Fangs

What time are we leaving? Where are we going? I don’t care. As long as I’m with you.  They don’t want me to clear my name. They like to see me suffer. Anything for good gossip. They have no other topic. But I’m getting tougher.  You see, I thought, in…

Blog, Online Diary

Friday May 4, 2018

17:25 (05:25 PM) Hi Cuddleeee <3 I’ve recorded the audio for the intro of EPisode 1 not so long ago. I started on track 2 as well. But my voice… The airconditioning has given me a cold… I thought of just not recording the singing and rapping part, but then…

Thank you for scrolling down so far.

In The (Bottom) Spotlight

Monday May 21, 2018