Gooood morning ♥ Perseverance Operation Sunnyhoes continues. I can’t quit it with my body in need like this (even if it’s just some kissing), even though it’s not easy doing this from the isolation my family cohort is, in which I’m isolated in my thoughts. Chances to randomly chat up someone when I’m anywhere is practically impossible in between the “Let’s go here,” “Let’s sit here,” “This person/they think(s) that…” “Look at those people there.” (And then I feel embarrassed.) I’m very used to it, though, so “no big deal”… 🙂 How life would be different if the outside world…Continue reading
Top of the morning to you, my dear ladies and gentlecuddles. 😏 Operation Sunnyhoes has kicked off way better than the pre-opening of my bookstore and book club admissions has. My gut tells me that I’m doing the exact opposite of what I should be doing, as I want to get a complex international business concept of the ground. Because Operation Sunnyhoes is far from politically correct. (Like will this make you shy away from me even more? 🙁 ) But meow maybe it works the other way around… I like taking risks. Better Policy, Better Hoes I pay my…Continue reading
Heyyy Fangs here with the Sunnyays 😸 We’re on sunny Curacaooooo 🌞 Just arrived at my aunt’s holiday apartment. It’s my second time on Curacao. 🙂 Meowsss I’ll be socializing and chat you up when I’m alone. 🙂 ~~~ Updated 16:42 (04:42 PM) [GMT -4] Piscadera Currently, I’m laying on this like cat royalty. After eating the tasting like home dinner my aunt’s housekeeper who is one of the 11 people holidaying(-ish for she cooks, cleans and does our laundry and such) here, I got ready for going out later: I want to get kissy, my meow… As I was…Continue reading
My loveeeee ♥ I’m back yays 😀 My days of being absent here are over now, because… The D.O.C.I.S. Store (opens in new tab) is now open for pre-orders! 😀 The reason why it is open for pre-orders – and not real orders yet – is that the online configuration of the store and the Book Club are done, but I need to be home to process the orders, and I’m going on a little holiday today. 🙂 Meooow I’ve been working quite hard in the last few weeks… Developing my lil online empire, searching for an apartment, watching my…Continue reading
The Fangs is looking for authors! I hope you are interested. 🙂 Here are some reasons why you should write for The Fangs: Reason 1: International audience: We all think big The Fangs is created for the international audience of people who all have one thing in common: we think big. Regardless if our backgrounds are similar or not, in our thoughts, we look far and beyond. The Fangs is the safe haven for exactly those unique trains of thought. This is THE place to share them! People from various ages, various countries and various genders (will) come here, with…Continue reading
Do you also have a lot of unshared thoughts? Are you in the mood for something new? Are you creative? Do you also wonder what the thought patterns of people with views similar or opposite to yours look like? Then the D.O.C.I.S. Book Club might be something for you. I hope that you have been thinking of becoming a member. This article explains what you can expect as a member of the D.O.C.I.S. Book Club and what The D.O.C.i.S. Book Club Alliance stands for. It is written with the utmost transparency, hoping that that will spark your excitement about becoming…Continue reading
Last updated: August 21, 2019 This Agreement is composed for you (“you” means “potential Book Club member” or “Book Club member”, depending on what suits the reader of this agreement best, and will also be named “Book Club member”, “member of D.O.C.I.S. International”, “member” because this is about Book Club memberships), to ensure that you are aware of what requirements D.O.C.I.S. International should meet for its Book Club members, as well as know what is expected from you as a D.O.C.I.S. Book Club member, when you become an official member of the D.O.C.I.S. Book Club. Article 1: Definitions 1.1. D.O.C.I.S….Continue reading
Heyyy ♥ Hehe according to my schedule, I should actually be working on some legal documents right now, but I reallyyy want to share what was on my mind last night, as I was trying to make my thoughts enter sleep mode. Sexy Pajama Party I had this fantasy of being at “a” festival, where everyone can just be themselves without having to behave politically correct and stuff. As I was walking from one stage to another, I spotted Catthierry. As usual, I was overwhelmed by “How should I behave?”-questions. But different from usual, I decided to be my touchy…Continue reading
Heyyy ♥ It seems like everything will be finished on time! I’m here with a lil status update. 🙂 Today I’ve been working on the online environment of our (assuming that you’ll sign up 😀 ♥ ) D.O.C.I.S. International Network. You’ll be able to access the Book Club Forum, vote for D.O.C.I.S. International related things, add and private message friends, form groups for any cause, and much more depending on what you choose when you sign up (write articles, suggest things, sign up for elections, etc.). 😀 You can sign up from August 23rd onward, though The D.O.C.I.S. Store officially…Continue reading
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Heyyy ♥ The completion of the online D.O.C.I.S. International empire is getting closer and closer. 🙂 And so are my trip to Curaçao, the start of university in Antwerp and finding an apartment. It’s all yays. 🙂 Earlier today, I visited the south of the center of Antwerp to see another potential apartment. It is located in such a nice neighborhood! I snapped some quick pictures… But still they don’t display how pretty it was. 🙂 Usually, when I think of a city center, I think of an overdose of car traffic and cramped streets. This was meowww. 😻 I…Continue reading
My Graeynisssssssss ♥ As a regular Dutch person would say, “I don’t want to fall with the door in house” (AHAHAHAHAHA) but I’m going to dive right into it! Looooook at this: The D.O.C.I.S. Store is getting a lot closer to being finished. 😀 What it looks like in practice? Amazing! 😀 I really hope you will sign up!!! ♥ Oh and meoww D.O.C.I.S. International has a new logo: I don’t know if you click on the links I share in my blog posts, so that’s why I’m showing screenshots… And I just took away the slider on the home…Continue reading
Heyyy ♥ ♥ ♥ How was your weekend? I hope you’ve made some fun memories. I’ve been working on the fun memories we’ll create as a future international book club. Omg meoow I really can’t wait until everything is done. (Though I’m a bit worried about if anyone who now frequently visits my blog will sign up…) It will be such fun! To have nerdy hangouts together… Once every quarter, I’ll rent a location where the D.O.C.I.S. Book Club (also known as the D.O.C.I.S. International Council) will meet up. It’s very easy to combine with your current occupation, regardless of…Continue reading
Heyy ♥ My long-term vision is getting clearer. 🙂 I can now explain it better to you as well: When the D.O.C.I.S. Store is finished, the Fangs Store will disappear. This post is called First Light, because with an impression of the D.O.C.I.S. Store home page being finished and doing my first potential apartment visitation in Antwerp, an impression of what my life will look like from the end of October is in sight. Today I haven’t added that many books to the store yet. I’m almost home now after visiting my first potential apartment in Antwerp. I can see…Continue reading
Yesterday, I didn’t post here. Writing a blog post takes quite some time. Time I used to make efficient D.O.C.I.S. progress (and make soup and do other duties). What is visible in The D.O.C.I.S. store now is what I did two nights ago. I spent almost the same amount of time preparing the store back-end and front-end for those 4 books, as I did for 36 books today. The first 4 books, I sought the cover image, updated my assortment details on Excel (including formulating a D.O.C.I.S. Code for each book) and filled out the product page book by book….Continue reading
Hiii ♥ ♥ ♥
I have such interesting fun to share with you today! And also one thing that is a lot less fun. I’ll start with the non-fun. Let’s get that over with:
To many this might sound crazy, but now I have proof that the tunnel(s) in the dyke around my neighborhood will function as sluices to protect Rotterdam when the IJssel floods. (I explained this in practice on August 2 and have plenty of posts in which I express my worry about this.) When I was young, in primary school, I have learnt to accept this fate that comes with living in a sort of human sacrifice neighborhood. But I still don’t want to die unnoticed, in case it happens: a new watersnoodramp. There are water management strategies in the case of flood, as you can see on the above image (…[I expected a more massive type of door instead of a garage door…]), but there are no people management/evacuation strategies. (I know saving everyone is impossible, but to at least prevent the loss of Dutch (and Surinamese) intellectual heritage that lives forth in people, by saving some people…) That’s why I’m sharing this (and the powerless paranoia it causes) with my international audience of blog readers.
That was the non-fun. I wanted to show you this door on the day I went to Egmond, because that was the first day they were doing tunnel maintenance, but then it was still open. When I was on my way to have dinner with a friend in Rotterdam yesterday evening, though I already took my bike in case of a detour, I was hoping the tunnel would still be open, because that would save me a detour of over 10 minutes. But if it weren’t closed, I wouldn’t have had the chance to share this with you. 🙂
Which brings me to the yays: yesterday was so much fun! I’ve been lucky to have met such a kind soul. I’m so happy to have met someone who is also an intelligent and ambitious, creative and independent thinker. I feel like we’re a genuine inspiration to each other. And she has proposed such great growth opportunities! Of the exact details I don’t want to reveal too much, especially because my little web-empire is not finished yet and want it to be an asset to our names when it is brought forward officially, but [confirmed rumor] I might get the chance to speak for a professional audience [my idea to speak of “Evolving individualism in the 9 – 5 economy” would then be a (then published) essay based on which I’ll speech has to be approved higher up first] and D.O.C.I.S. International might function as official research publisher of work written by her. Many yays for D.O.C.I.S. if it can finally start to function as an international medium for other people as well instead of just me! 😀 ♥
I’ve had such fun my meowww. Laughing and sharing ideas as well. Unfortunately I didn’t take any pictures and don’t have any other physical reminders of this memorable fun moment, but I know this will be stored as a happy memory and I have the memory written down in my paper diary as well. (Spontaneous idea I just got: if we’d do a research book campaign internationally, we should do a photo shoot for it. 😀 ) Haha I asked her if she still wants to be associated with me after Facebook and Instagram marked my content as “too controversial to publicly show”, and she didn’t even say “no” ahahahaha yay. 😀 I thought she didn’t want to be friends with me, when I didn’t hear from her after I sent her a message. But I understand replying later meow I do that very often myself. Now she has moved to Rotterdam for her 4th year academic internship, which is awesome. 🙂 I’ve mentioned when I first met her, at the HBR Executive Event in Amsterdam in April.
I was quite nervous about making a new friend, because I have been living in isolation for 3 years hahaha… I was afraid that nerves from not knowing how to have friendship-like conversation anymore would make me act weird – I just worry about leaving a good impression a lot – or that it might become awkward, or that I’d get lost in explaining why I’m not a schizophrenic (ahahahahahahahaha I’m happy I succeeded in completely avoiding the topic haha yay milestone), or that I would have to adapt and end up talking about things that don’t interest me, but none of this happened! Absolutely none meow I’m so happy I could just be myself without any worries about the way I behave. 😀 What made me even happier is that she has so many creative ideas and also takes action for it. I appreciate this so much that I seriously almost wanted to cry out of happiness when I was on my way home. Not often do I experience situations in which I can be myself and someone understands me when I explain myself, and then be able to see that person more than just once. And then also recognize thoughts and traits of myself in her. 😮 (In most situations I keep re-explaining myself in different words and at some point just give up and not talk about myself at all anymore, but with her I didn’t have to do any of that.)
Hopefully this blog post isn’t creepy or attached-sounding to her… Though to long-term growth and friendship yays. 😀
In other news… I’ve improved my recipe for pancakes by using both cow milk and coconut milk, along with vanilla sugar, vanilla essence, cinnamon, raisins and skinned apples.
And another yay is that I’ll be in Berchem on Friday to check out a potential apartment.
For the rest of today – for my D.O.C.I.S. renovation progress is a day-to-day thing – I’ll be:
- Fixing The D.O.C.I.S. Store logo
- Updating The Store’s product catalog and payment gateways (iDeal payment support will be there from around September though…)
And then later up will be the book club page and the home page. When the store is finished, I’ll update the links on the D.O.C.I.S. International website and the content of the website itself (and try to make it look a little less plain HTML-ish). After that I’ll be working on Wikipedia pages for my endeavor and I. 😀 (And after that will be Curaçao!)
May we all have another day of yays. ♥
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To work more efficiently, I’ll post one status update a day again, instead of multiple ones per day.
Last night I came back home after spending about two weeks in Egmond. Now there are 18 days left before going to Curaçao, where I’d like to relax without having to think of unfinished D.O.C.I.S. related things or about finding an apartment in Antwerp, so I’m working on those things now.
I hope to notify you with positive news about finished websites, having found an apartment and campaigning the D.O.C.I.S. book club, soon.
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“Sunday, August 4, 2019” will be an ex animo (poem “without thinking”) post instead of diary-ing all day.
I won €6 in the lottery, I just saw. No jackpot but still something. 🙂
— The Fangs (@LilFangs_) August 4, 2019
Actually, this is not much of a poem. More uncontrolled prose.
Over 550 blog posts, all written from the perspective of my eyes. Are they not provocative enough? 🙁 I can’t hear you. Why?
Over 206,000 / 206.000 (two hundred and six thousand) [international writing] words, written in the perspective from me to you. You, whose beautiful eyes are going over this page. What do you see?
Are you A, B or C?
I want to know. Not only your perspective. Also the perspective “you to me”.
I hope it’s different from what I’m used to. I hope you’re C.
You see, I can’t hear people’s internal dialogues when they talk to me. But I can estimate them by asking questions and reading their body language.
My powers never reach the core, though I try. What is going on in your outmost personal layer? Especially now that my writing has reached it, but I haven’t. (Not yet? 🙂 )
Why I want to know? Because I’m an ambitious, affectionate and cuddly person and I want to know if you’re that person too. Society doesn’t embrace that openness, but we should.
When I study anyone’s behavior, I see their attitude towards the world. But I can’t see if they’re A, B or C, without getting hurt. I’ve never reached the core.
What is your attitude towards me? A, B or C?
“I really admire her. I love what she’s doing. I wish I could do it myself.
Where her theories come from, I don’t know. I need more proof to be able to trust it. My own life would become damaged if I go all-in on this and it turns out to not be feasible. Like could it still all be schizophrenia and not real? I can’t imagine that that could be the case, but still can’t rule it out if I haven’t seen her theories in practice. Why did she exactly become labeled as a schizophrenic anyway? I still have the feeling that there’s a lot more to that story.
Everything that is going on in this world makes it hard for me to trust. Media accusations versus personal counter-accusations. That that will ever be something of the past? The future she portrays sounds too good to be true. I want to believe in it so much, but my heart would become irreparably damaged if I would trust this and it turns out not to be true.
I wouldn’t be able to formulate any theories like hers myself, but if they’re true, I could learn them and implement them in my life. I could use her theories to realize my own dreams and make a living from that. I would love to move to Planet Fang. It feels like there, eternal love and eternal happiness really do exist.
Privacy wise I have nothing about me she may not know. I would love to be her (social) research subject, sharing my thoughts with her, to improve life on Planet Fang. I think I could realize my dreams, doing what I want in life and also being part of D.O.C.I.S. International.”
“I want to have sex with her. I want to do that every day. But I can’t love. I don’t love her. Though she should love me so that I can have her with me for the rest of my life. I will tell her I love her so that she will tell me the same.
To let her become the royalty she wants to be? No. I will make sure that that won’t happen. If there’s anyone who deserves to be the last new royalty introduced to the world, it’s me. I want the money and fame. If she gets it before me then I will make sure that I’m with her when it happens and eventually cause her downfall and say that I was the mastermind behind everything.
She says that she wants to create a better world blah blah. We all know that that is not realistic. Because the whole world is like me and I love to watch people clash. If it doesn’t happen naturally then I’ll cause it. It’s my favorite topic of conversation. Life is boring without clashes.
Haha that she’s diagnosed with schizophrenia is great news to me. It’s hilarious, really. And that she went missing and that that went viral and stuff hahaha. She’s always emphasizing that she is a good person and now all of that effort was all for nothing. She’s a demon too and I will get her to confess this, to seal the fact that she’ll never make it. I can’t wait to dry her tears of failure.
If I’m jealous of her? Nooo she shouldn’t think that she’s better than I. I don’t really understand most of her theories, but I still memorize everything so that I can make it look like I’m the mastermind behind D.O.C.I.S. International, when the time is right.
I will lie about my personality in her research so that I can gain access to the highest layers of Planet Fang. That is what my talent is: using sneak tactics to climb up the ladder.
Life should stay exactly like it is. I have it good and she may not have it better than I. If she gets money then I want to get it too. Love does not exist. I love her deception, acting like she can improve the world. If I can’t improve the world, then no one can. I don’t want to see anyone get successful with that.”
“I love her. I’m in love with her. We’re soul mates. But I don’t tell her this. I’m afraid she will reject me. I’d rather not let my dreams of using my intelligence to destroy the system together with the love of my life come true and find happiness in her online reality, than feel the eternal sting of her potential rejection. Even though it’s just a probability statement.
I can relate to every single word she writes and/or says. It’s like she speaks of my life instead of hers. I have felt so alone in my intelligence for so long. I can’t believe that she’s real. This is more mental comfort than I could have ever asked for. This is what I have missed all my life. Now I know that I’m not alone.
I have a lot of self-formulated theories, too. Some are similar to hers, some are different. Intelligent people often make the same observations and realizations.
That I could start a new life with her sounds like an absolute dream. But it’s such a great risk for my current career and my family. Even though these attachments are just mental concepts. I should choose me, like she says I should. Chances are high that we will be successful. That we will write history… I want my name in the history books too, as part of her story…
I’m afraid that my emotional problems will make her run away from me like other people in my life do. But she sounds like it will actually draw us closer and make us stronger than we already are. Fully immune against demons.
From her words it sounds like our attraction will be mutual. But that really sounds too good to be true. Either way, life is so boring and I really want the challenge she offers. I want to be part of the board of D.O.C.I.S. International.”
What will be the future of us?
If you’re A, I would allow you to live on Planet Fang. I would absolutely love to meet you. I find it important to know how I can make my stratrgies better suit your ambitions, so that my power on Planet Fang will not bother you. We will not physically spend eternity together, for if you can’t formulate theories like mine by yourself I will have so much to explain and that will hold me back, but mentally we will still always be together. You will be in my thoughts often. Your life on Planet Fang will be the best ever.
If you’re B, you will not gain access to Planet Fang. You’re a disease to good people. I can’t wait to kill you with my bare hands. The next war this world will know will be the war against you and your fellow demons.
If you are C, I love you just as much as you love me. We are complements. I can’t even be successful without you and I don’t want to do this without you, even if I could! You have the intelligence and affection I need.
Would you vote honestly if you knew that your choice could mean instant death? I’ll classify the world in A, B, C, regardless if you vote or not, for your digital footprint reveals enough, and my A’s and C’s will live their best lives.
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My fellow Fangyists, ♥ Today’s Diary Theme Today’s diary post is focused on further enlightning you about the Determined Observant Colloquial Intelligent Stratagem. Many texts of mine have been devoted to this, but they all won’t be as open-hearted and clear as this one. At the end of today, we all know: All Stratagem related terms that are Fangyist (including the meaning of the word Cishes in Cuddle [now that it’s pride week and I recently learnt that there is another meaning for the word, plus I have some things else about that to share]) What phases the Stratagem has…Continue reading
Good morning 🙂 ♥ How was your night? & What will you be doing today? I wonder if you also have some layers of honesty you were keeping to yourself (which is not lying but simply avoiding unnecessary crises). Because I’d love to learn from your experience. Meow I’ve completely lost my straightforwardness. Every time I want to speak my mind, the idea of what type of responses I’ll get makes me stay silent. Maybe I should just keep the peace until I’m in Antwerp (not the US because that is currently too expensive for me, plus I have D.O.C.I.S….Continue reading
Heysss ♥ This is such a trippy sight! I can’t believe that it’s August already. It feels like 2019 has barely started and meanwhile it’s coming to an end. August is, internationally, ~the~ month of taking breaks. But D.O.C.I.S. won’t be participating in that for the year is coming to an end and I’m still not closer to the accomplishment of my goals than in 2017. That is why I’m stating some “before September 24th” objectives: Finish the online presentation of D.O.C.I.S. International Currently, everything of me online is all half-finished (or not even half-finished). Of course I can’t finish…Continue reading
My Graeynissis ♥ [ = My 10% most intelligent yays ♥ ♥ ♥ ] Thank you for checking in on me today. ♥ Just the thought that someone understands all that I’m rambling on here makes me feel like maybe some day I’ll get the help I need to permanently break contact with all of my current social circle and become a happy and healthy person. I’m being held in a social, financial and legal deadlock so I really can’t do this all alone. What happened yesterday is proof of this. [Long and detailed build-up to explaining why I refused…Continue reading
Heys my Graeysss ♥ ♥ ♥
Yesterday was yays. I chilled with my aunt we had a day of snacking fries and talking. I like that I can relate to her troubles so much. It makes me feel less alone.
Through the day I had a song stuck in my head because of this:
ai ai olga — Je bedoelt toch niet dat liedje he? https://t.co/r4BUtkvcbW
— The Fangs (@LilFangs_) July 29, 2019
It was my intention to not answer to anything yesterday, but had seen this ASKfm “question” and I just couldn’t figure out what it meant. Until I thought of pronouncing it in a non-speaking way. It’s a song of which the chorus (translated to English) is: “Ai ai Olga if you don’t love me I will jump into the ice cold Volga (river in Russia),” about love-related suicide basically. I remember a teacher in primary school teaching us this song ugh what an awful memory. And in this “question” context it filled me with a sense of guilt.
I didn’t want to believe it. Not again. I really thought why do the people I’m in to always reject me/run away from me and why do I get chased by people who I’m not in to? I have rejected so many people and I really really really don’t like to do that because I know how much it hurts and I don’t want anyone else to feel that way.
Especially the baby emoji made me uncomfortable. The times I have rejected a “I want to start a family with you,” (often hearing that from someone I barely know) is not countable on my fingers.
zeker wel catje — Nee alsjebliefttt er zijn zo veel visjes in de zee https://t.co/wFDv8JNEYn
— The Fangs (@LilFangs_) July 29, 2019
But I had to be honest and say that there are plenty of fishes in the sea because I don’t want to end up in a relationship I don’t want to be in. I need someone influential with whom I can start a revolution with and yays find attractive. Someone who will make me never reject anyone ever again, if you know what I’m sayin’. 🤔 (Just say “Leave my girlfriend alone please godverdomme” or something…)
Other than that I don’t have much to say about yesterday.
I do have something sad-ish but positive to mention about a few weeks ago, which I hadn’t mentioned here yet: I got a letter from the Belastingdienst in which the inspector stated that she has noticed that I, in 2017, have suffered a loss on my personal bank account(s) and that they are going to study this more starting by analyzing my finances from 2014 onwards. As long as they don’t give me a fine for having suffered a loss (like how paying a bill late comes with an administration fine and losses mean less tax money coming in right), that sounds like quite good news. Maybe they’ll give me back what I’ve lost? Maybe they’ll see that my family is fraud? It could be the yays. 🙂
Today I’ll be phoneless beach chilling, cooking pasta and later escorting my aunt and cousin (who has been claimed by the – I recognize from the way they treat each other compared to when I was little – oppressive new friend she met here) to the bus station. Tomorrow is basically my only other day alone. (When I fell for this it really sounded like I’d have some real time off you know.) Thursday my parents are coming to stay here until the end and my sister will come here too with a gang of friends large enough to fill this cramped space with air beds. I feel claustrophobic. Despite all of this:
Wat vind je leuk om in je vrije tijd te doen? — Gezellig kletsen en van het weer genieten https://t.co/7Bx5Uh0DEU
— The Fangs (@LilFangs_) July 29, 2019
You should know that I love to just sit and talk. It’s what I do with my family, it’s what I used to do with my friends. My problem is just that I seek this hard-to-find type of conversational depth. Is that you, my Graeyniss? 😸
As for D.O.C.I.S. International I’m still tired (is this heart failure¿) and I need Wi-Fi to be able to “finish” anything, so that niss will be continued from August 5 onwards. Though in the meantime I’m also going to visit some apartments in Belgium with my mother to see which one is the most yay to move in to. I’ve already gotten a crush on a two-bedroom one in a quiet neighborhood near-campus… Hoping no one else gets that same crush before I’ve visited it… 😀
I’ll be having another keeping-phone use-minimal day.
Love you more than yesterday ♥
Updated 08:29 (AM) [Timezone GMT +2 (Amsterdam;CEST)]
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Good morning, my Graeyniss ♥
Passion is finished yaysss. 🙂 I don’t know if you’ve spotted it last night, because I updated the last of it pretty late last night. It’s a veryyy nice read, seeing how it sticks together from start to finish:
Passion – lilfangs.com/passion
Passion 2 – lilfangs.com/passion-2
Passion 3 – lilfangs.com/passion-3
Passion 4 – lilfangs.com/passion-4
Passion 5 – lilfangs.com/passion-5
I’m in bed, writing you early because today I’ll be full-time spending time with my aunt, cousin and her new friend who are staying here. I spend far too much time with my phone in my hands I’m missing out on reality. 🙁
But before I go, I’d like to share some feelings of mine I’m dealing with, hoping for your listening ear: especially after sharing those screenshots of the type of “conversations” I have every day and the amount of degrading ASKfm questions that pour in whenever I answer just one of them (at some point I just stop answering because it’s just too much time and energy wasted for nothing… I still have questions in my answers queue from that same day), I see and feel more of the disrespected reality I live. It’s not nice. 🙁 I’ve been keeping myself from online conversations more and more ever since this realization (again). Chances are high I won’t respond to anything today, but still maybe post a few tweets in case I’m bored.
Another thing I’ve been afraid to share is this: https://ask.fm/docis_/answers/155733411360?utm_source=copy_link&utm_medium=android
I dared to share this new piece of fraud evidence now, because my parents left last night. They will be back – with my sister and her friends – on Thursday. I’m always afraid that my father will beat me to death when I check-mate him with evidence on his fraud. But people don’t believe this is real or something? I don’t know why I’m not saved from all the dangers I live. 🙁 I hope the government has its eyes on him because this really is not normal. I don’t want to be a part of this anymore. 🙁 I’m not a fan of the system either but if we’d all do what they’re doing the financial crisis that will follow would be untamable.
I hope that, considering that with those screenshots I have now shared all aspects of my life, what I’m trying to do as a propagandist is clear and people will see the good in this and work with me. It would bring us to the revolution that will better our lives. I hope that it will work out and that I – though it’s still a better alternative than forever living together with my family – won’t have to live all by myself in a city where I don’t know anyone, don’t know who to trust, where I could be treated like just another student, while my intelligence is clearly different and I’m this online phenomenon spitting ideas, who can be followed anywhere. I really don’t want to meet another person telling me “Oh you’re so beautiful blah blah,” while I can’t talk about the actual contents of my mind (like seriously let’s revolutionize the system) and then end up in this weird sexual relationship being offended “because I don’t say much and I’m weird”. Please. 🙁
I’m going to take a little nap because I couldn’t sleep last night. I hope you’ll help me start the largest court case ever one day. From there we could initiate the D.O.C.I.S. 🙂 .
With all of the formerly forgotten toxic flashbacks that are haunting me now, I’m starting to realize how the D.O.C.I.S. I initiated 2 years ago, before the memory loss thing happend, sticks together.
Love you ♥
Updated 08:56 (AM) [Timezone GMT +2 (Amsterdam; CEST)]
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