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FangCatje - Nederlandse Versie (Preview)
Reflecting on what's ahead [Sunday, November 24, 2019]
Back Online :) [Thursday, June 13, 2019]
Twenty-three 🙀 [Friday, November 1, 2019]
Highlights [Monday, May 27, 2019]
A Hypothetical Organizational D.O.C.I.S. Draft
Voting & Writing [Wednesday, March 20, 2019]
CastleFangs 🏰 [Sunday, June 16, 2019]
Een verhaaltje
Crisis Center Day 6 [Sunday, June 2, 2019]
Passion 5 [Sunday, July 28, 2019]
Lil Tension [Wednesday, July 3, 2019]
Hmmm... Let's do Nothing :D [Thursday, July 18, 2019]
Passion [Wednesday, July 24, 2019]
Inner Crown [Tuesday, November 12, 2019]
Passion 3 [Friday, July 26, 2019]
The Perspective of the Crown [Thursday, November 14, 2019]
Reform Development Day 1 [Friday, June 14, 2019]
Operation Sunnyhoes Day 3 [Tuesday, August 27, 2019]
No Release Twice in a Row [Sunday, June 30, 2019]
Rudi Harold Hanenberg 81st Birthday [Monday, November 18, 2019]
The D.O.C.I.S. Store is open for Pre-Orders! :D
Afternoon Improv
December Manifest
Boxes [Wednesday, September 18, 2019]
Behind the Scenes [Tuesday, November 5, 2019]
This is not a Game.
A Reflection about Attraction [Thursday, November 28, 2019]
Still At It [Sunday, May 26, 2019]
Operation Sunnyhoes Day 4 [Wednesday, August 28, 2019]
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Reform Development Day 1 [Friday, June 14, 2019]

01:30 (AM) Heyy ♥ I’m Vampin’, my meowww. Too excited to go to sleep. Once I get going, I don’t want to quit until it’s done. For the sake of keeping that up, today is Reform Development Day 1. The video I recorded earlier is being converted to MPEG4, so that I can upload it to YouTube. And – this was a big step – I finished my contact page 🙂 . I hope the world will treat my contact information fairly… The video conversion progress is now finished for 75%. It is now 02:02 (AM). In the meantime, I’ve…

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Back Online :) [Thursday, June 13, 2019]

09:35 (AM) Good morning 🙂 ♥ I’m so glad to be back online, and I’m even more glad to find you here again 🙂 . It’s such a risk to lose (frequent) visitors, when going offline (unannounced) 🙁 . One of the greatest down sides of not having a fixed income, is that it’s not guaranteed that there’s enough on my account, to pay my bills. But it’s fixed now and I’m even out of personal debit account debt 🙂 . So after paying my €25 hosting bill Tuesday night (so cheap because I’m the administrator myself), I’m back online…

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Vampin’ [Sunday, June 9, 2019]

03:48(AM) Meoww I just made myself a late night snack. Back in the day when I was 14 and cool on Twitter, if I’d be awake late at night like this, I’d say that I’m Vampin’. I’m Vampin’, my Graeyniss. Hungry… Crank up the volumeee: 2/2 pic.twitter.com/Y9dIwvstSD — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) June 9, 2019 Do you have sexy traditional plans for Pentecost you need some arm candy Catje for? What are your plans for "Pinksteren" ( = Pentecost )? pic.twitter.com/gFtYMkhLQr — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) June 9, 2019 I'll be missing out on these Peking ducks pic.twitter.com/EQiwFMI6ks — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_)…

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~ While eating sushi, reading lilfangs.com/syntax-error out loud

I was planning to make another video about editing my websites, but you know I don’t like doing web development related things… So I impulsively decided to read my, at that moment, most recent diary post out loud and comment on the words I have written there. It was a lot of fun recording it. You can clearly see me get more comfortable with you, as time passes by. I tell you, for example, all about my feelings for King Victishe… And there are manyyy tangents in this video! All about the content I’ve been putting out in the open:…

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Processing… [Saturday, June 8, 2019]

01:05 (AM) Meowww my laptop is processing the video of three hours I made earlier, reading and elaborating on yesterday’s diary post, while eating sushi 🙂 . I’ll let you know when it’s online 🙂 . I keep postponing changing around my websites, because I would rather pay someone to do it… That’s how I ended up reading a post out loud for you 🙂 . ~~~ 02:16 (AM) My video is almost fully processed now 🙂 . You can follow the process live here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3wL_B9_mcA&feature=youtu.be Meanwhile, I’m going to bed. Goood nighttt ♥ – xxx – 14:51 (02:51 PM)…

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Syntax Error [Friday, June 7, 2019]

08:58 (AM) Good morning ♥ How was your night? I hope you slept well and have enjoyable things planned for today. For me, from the afternoon onwards, things only get worse, it seems. Stress has woken me up early. The prospects of my schedule make me think: “Please take me back to the crisis center,” because of both repetitious verbal therapy sessions and visitors coming over on the weekend, et cetera. All while I wish I could be with my dear Victor. My wish of wanting to be with him is nothing new. I’ve been mentioning him in my diary…

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Grapefruit [Thursday, June 6, 2019]

13:48 (01:48 PM) Good afternoon 🙂 I just finished my first “meal” of the day: a selection of fruit I feel in the mood for, from the fruit basket downstairs. Now I’m back in my bed… It’s a sunny day, so I’d like to go outside, but my bank accounts are maxed out and I’m not in the mood to walk in the park by myself. Plus, I have no idea where my house keys are? I didn’t take them with me, when I went to the crisis center. I now can’t go to the gym either, because my membership…

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Another day…? [Wednesday, June 5, 2019]

00:23 (12:23 AM)  I still hope you’ll purchase and read my essay, and let me know what you think of its content 🙂 . [products category=”essays-3″] It is written with the intention of discussing it on a much larger scale, and reach a consensus when it comes to shifting the hierarchy to a bottom-up construction. In it, I also say that the identities of some individuals can apply to multiple layers at the same time. You’ll find it interesting 🙂 . And I would like a new social circle, because I’m far too different from the people in my current…

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Disrupting The Silent Pyramid [Tuesday, June 4, 2019]

00:35 (12:35 AM) I just finished my essay Disrupting the Silent Pyramid! It’s the best essay/plea/call-to-action I’ve written this far, I believe 🙂 . It’s exactly 2500 words and maybe re-sold for a lower price, if the profits are shared with me. I’m going to put it in my store now 🙂 . Here’s the cover image: ~~~ 01:26 (AM) [products category=”essays-3″] There it is 🙂 . It’s also a main menu item: Please check out the product page! It includes the best product description I’ve written this far 🙂 . I hope you will support my independent living, by…

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Crisis Center Day 7 [Monday, June 3, 2019]

09:23 (AM) Good morning ♥ I woke up quite stressed out, because I don’t want to spend another day defending myself. But that’s why I’m here… All I can do is keep my head up. I’m going to take a shower and eat something. (Won’t go outside today, because my cards are maxed out…) But before I go, I feel like sharing this: Hehe meow I went to sleep with this thought: mijn Vicje [I sound obsessed lol]: I hope that the next time I hear you say “I really have to go”, is when I’m cuddling you in your…

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Crisis Center Day 6 [Sunday, June 2, 2019]

05:57 (AM) Good morning :)♥ The chirping of birds woke me, a while ago. In case you see the featured image and wonder why my pillow is tilted to the side: it’s because (often, due to pillow quality) I prefer to lay my head on the mattress and pretend as if my pillow is someone I can cuddle with… I ate some left over soy beans, as I checked my notifications, after which I emptied my bladder. Now I’m back in bed. Meowww I wish I really had someone to talk to, with whom I can be intimate, who doesn’t…

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Crisis Center Day 5 [Saturday, June 1, 2019]

06:49 (AM) Good morning ♥ How are you today? 🙂 I’m quite well rested, it seems. I’m thinking of how to keep myself occupied today… I feel like writing an essay about unspoken social hierarchy, but spending so much time with my phone in my hands isn’t healthy and I don’t have my laptop with me… Tomorrow will be a very hot day, so I really need those tights, though. (Even better would be to get my legs waxed… It’s very much needed… I wear tights in an attempt to mask my wildly unshaved legs…) And I should get outside…

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Crisis Center Day 4 [Friday, May 31, 2019]

10:06 (AM) Good morning ♥ Though it hurts me to know that my business e-mail address is blocked, when contacting my Vicje – though I can understand he can not go in to personal business enquiries – it’s a relief to know that the e-mail I sent him yesterday, from my personal e-mail account, was delivered: I don’t know any other places to apply for a job I could be hired for, where I’d be sitting behind a desk. Serving drinks, sitting behind the counter, etc. suit my ambitions even less. I’m putting my Vicje in a difficult position, though…

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Crisis Center Day 3 [Thursday, May 30, 2019]

11:28 (AM) Good morning ♥ I don’t know why I can’t reach my Vicje 🙁 . My heart is too weak to approach a random proletarian for this, who won’t understand how much of a sensitive topic this is, and how much bad news would destroy my heart. Some people speak of him in such an awful manner, I won’t be able to endure something like that again 🙁 . I attempted to email him this [a very random message, I know], when I received a “failed to deliver” notice in return…: I don’t know what to do now 🙁…

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Crisis Center Day 2 [Wednesday, May 29, 2019]

09:11 (AM) Good morning ♥ I slept quite well, for the first time in a long time 🙂 . I’m going to join the breakfast table… For the sake of giving myself some more rest, I’ll mainly be writing instead of typing, today. But before I reduce my typing here (and on Twitter): Last night, I started to write down an outline of the way I would give myself a diagnosis: I only wish to speak to someone who is open to give me a second opinion. I have no patience with those who only focus on that lie of…

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Crisis Center Day 1 [Tuesday, May 28, 2019]

01:08 (AM) I just ate some bread and left-overs. I’m at a more comfortable location than in 2017. This is an open vicinity. In 2017, I was in the closed vicinity. I wasn’t allowed to record the intake. But I still recorded a short piece, before I was told to shut off my phone and prove that it was off. (My god x_x.) I’ll just keep it for my own administraton, but won’t share the audio file on here. I don’t want to upset those who have authority over me, here… The conclusion of the conversation was that we don’t…

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Highlights [Monday, May 27, 2019]

00:00 (12:00 AM) I tweet so much that if I wouldn’t share it here as well, it would be impossible to create an oversight. So highlights (of highlights): That was not my original plan for a campaign, but it would work as well… We can also make it less sexy, so that it fits today’s cultural standards #DOCIS #Fangyism — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 26, 2019 And with people of whom I know they’re in love with me, to whom I’m attracted to as well, but I don’t want to break their hearts…. #Fangyism — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 26,…

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Still At It [Sunday, May 26, 2019]

09:48 (AM) Good morning ♥ I just ate some yoghurt and a piece of salmon from my parents’ dinner of yesterday. But eating makes me die less fast, so I kind of regret it… I don’t want to perceive life anymore, on the one hand. But on the other hand, I want to rule this world and be kissing my Vicje… 🙁 Als je denkt dat ik nu “niet meer mezelf ben”, omdat ik die “Lekker mezelf zijn…” kut post niet meer update, dan zit je ernaast. Na vrijdag de 17de, zag ik mijn kans om mijn Cold Case nog…

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Death O’Clock [Saturday, May 25, 2019]

01:19 (AM)  I still either want to get killing or die. I don’t feel hunger anymore. Only this intense headache. I’m losing weight fast, though… You are free to act as you wish. Messing with me might backfire on you, though. ~~~ 02:02 (AM) Someone please tell me that it’s Death O’Clock…. you will regret it and you will regret it! — Make me. Who are you? https://t.co/lsjHjKz5CK — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 24, 2019 I really need to take a shower, but my body has become so weakened after not eating for so long 🙁 . Still gonna try…

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Een verhaaltje

Er was eens een Nigeriaanse prins, die de mooiste ogen en de grootste intelligentie van het hele land had. Hij ontmoette Queen Fangs op een dronken avond, beiden niet wetende dat ze Queen Fangs heet. (Verzin dit ter plekke…) They have had very good chemistry. Too good, some would say… Beiden worden ze regelmatig gediscrimineerd. Ze zijn daarom bang voor liefde. Zo bang dat ze elkaar veel pijn hebben gedaan. Het wantrouwen werd te groot, toen Fangs niet durfde te zeggen dat ze de geur van zijn adem en smaak van zijn speeksel niet lekker vindt, en dat ze zich…

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Not Dead Yet… [Friday, May 24, 2019]

10:45 (AM)  In reference to yesterday: This is a popular post AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (It only has 12 views, why my most popular post has 2000+ views. This is sarcasm…) ~~~ 15:50 (03:50 PM) LIVE: de persconferentie van premier Rutte over de #ministerraad https://t.co/sjSmNFLhin — Mark Rutte (@MinPres) May 24, 2019 It’s not 22 people. Just The Fangs… ~~~ 16:48 (04:48 PM) Toch maar wel… pic.twitter.com/bg6R6GVfPO — Lil Fangs (@LilFangs_) May 24, 2019 ~~~ 21:40 (09:40 PM) This bloodlust is driving me crazy yoooo… Hunger is also driving me crazy, still. Barbaren bederven mijn eetlust… ~~~

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Voting Day [Thursday, May 23, 2019]

12:58 (PM) Good afternoon ♥ I decided to resort to a less painful method, yesterday, and am still here. So I can vote 🙂 . I’ll get to that right away now. After that, continuing this method, I can even still work on my websites 🙂 . I’ll get to that! &Please please do not copy the behavior that comes with my suicidal tendencies 🙁 . Yesterday, I impulsively named my post “campaigning D.O.C.I.S.”, showing more of the definition of that in practice, which was followed by a wave of sadness, because it is so hard for me to find…

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Campaigning D.O.C.I.S…. [Wednesday, May 22, 2019]

02:13 (AM) Weet je waarom ik eigenlijk niets zei, toen er vragen gesteld konden worden…? Omdat ik anders ruzie zou starten… Zie dit als een krantenkop: “Een zetel in het Europese Parlement, om daar over niet in het Europese Parlement zitten te praten?” Wie is dan wie, in de deep-state? I’m still trying to dissolve it… Ik heb niet genoeg ruimte om dan te zeggen: “De lijsttrekker is niet elke stem in de partij. Als in het gebeurt mede in zijn naam, maar hij gaat daar niet zitten.” Dus het volgende is niet op hem van toepassing: “Een zetel in…

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Continuance & Curiosity [Tuesday, May 21, 2019]

04:51 (AM) Changing around my business website is going steady… I’m very proud of the hover effect I included, haha 😋 . It’s hard for me to stop doing something, when it’s not finished [out of context, but this includes the way I go about sex, when I still have energy], so here I am, in the AM, still working on HTML and CSS files… I find watching daylight set in a very calming experience. Unfortunately, it’s always followed by regret, because I’m getting behind on sleep. Haha every time I have plans of attending something I know will be…

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Baby steps… [Monday, May 20, 2019]

23:10 (11:10 PM) Good evening 🙂 ♥ Excuse my absence today… I have been busy documenting a proposal for the property project, and have started off designing a theme for my soon to be renewed websites 🙂 . Since my books aren’t selling at all, I have no incentive to publish anything at the end of this month. I’ll have to change my methods around. So instead of releasing another book, I’m giving my web appearance a makeover. And I’ll be making a Fangs app… How I’m going to provide myself with the proper income that will give me freedom…

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:D -> :( [Sunday, May 19, 2019]

17:37 (05:37 PM) Good afternoon ♥ I hope you’ll read the title of this diary post and think: “I experience the transition from a good mood to a bad mood, too, and could, by analyzing the way Fangs (indirectly) expresses this transition in her diary post, find better ways to prevent this from happening to me, in the future.” It’s one of the reasons why I share my feelings publicly. Yesterday, I shared an impulsive draft with you, about the way I could shape my life, to still get some satisfaction from it, now that it seems like the path…

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:( -> :D [Saturday, May 18, 2019]

03:49 (AM) Hey Cuddle ♥ I can’t sleep. I need cuddles 🙁 . My heart hurts more than ever… If I’d get a euro for every time someone tells me I need help, I would seriously not need help, because money is my only problem, causing me to have to spend time with people I can’t level with, because I can’t afford to stay away from them, instead of having them make me feel depressed for not being understood. But yesterday’s “get help” was different. My B turns out not to be my B, he told me :(. Two years…

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Offline 1 “Breaking News” @ Cold Case 41

Friday May 10th, my mother told me that my first encounter with my B after two long years of waiting, pleading and strategizing, will take place on Friday the 17th 🙂 . Please help me make sure that my B is safe before and during this very special and precious moment ! The same goes for me (and my assets, including my files)… I need to valuate my assets (they’ll be sold for a ve-ryyyyyyy cheap price)… I did a big clean-up today, aside from having that thought about safety. I’m so worried when you’re not here with me 🙁…

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Offline Relaxation & Cold Case 39 [Thursday, May 9, 2019]

I’ll be having some quality time alone with my thoughts, not expressing my feelings on public media, until it’s time for our Volta. If all goes well, that takes place about a week from now. (I wish I could tell you exactly when…) In the meantime, if you want to, you can reach me via e-mail (d.elia@docis.international), which I’ll check via my laptop every now and then. My phone will be switched off, or, when I feel like listening to music when I’m outside or when I’m in the shower, in airplane mode. You could also become my Nintendo Switch…

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Lekker mezelf zijn terwijl die hartverscheurende Cold Case helaas nog steeds niet is afgesloten

– – – – 09/05/’19 Offline Wat mijn blog content betreft val ik ontzettend in herhaling. Minstens tot en met mijn samenkomst met dr. Crutzen, zal ik daarom offline zijn. Wel zal ik af en toe mijn e-mail checken, dus als je me wil bereiken, kan dat via d.elia@docis.international. Ik werd zo geconsumeerd door het schrijven om mijn concept en identiteit te definiëren, dat ik vergat dat alles online eigenlijk waardeloos is. Ik hoop dat de technologie zich zodanig verder zal ontwikkelen, dat het concept van de online persoonlijkheid zal verdwijnen, en het leven zelf een uiterst bovennatuurlijke ervaring wordt….

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Fangyist Souls

Everyone shows Angelic behavior, but only a handful truly are. I strive towards our Unification. Demons in a human shell currently rule this world, with their policies of jealousy, hate and self-preservation. We do not have to Obey them. We can create a much better World. Only when we Separate ourselves from them. My Fangyist Soul, please be Loyal to me. Time will Reveal the world’s Angels and demons. We will have to act fast. Quick and painless. Or with an honorary fight. They have hurt us far too often. We have done nothing to them. This demonic dystopia will…

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The Link between Fangyism and (the) D.O.C.I.S.

I elaborate on the similar motives for the constitution of Fangyism and D.O.C.I.S. (International), and how this shows itself in my (future) sustainability policy and Fangyist economics. — In the video, I said that I was going to put these things in the description: The Hypothesis download: https://docis.international The Hypothesis explanation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDP8ZRM9ttc&t=1755s (from 11:00) Fangyist economics 1: https://lilfangs.com/looking-at-marke… Fangyist economics 2: https://lilfangs.com/fangyist-economi…

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