01:11 (AM) 

What’s good, my meow ♥

I’m loving the look of the renewed D.O.C.I.S. International website. Too bad I probably won’t be able to finish it before going to sleep. My mother will be here tomorrow at one o’clock, so I need to be ready before that time. 

How I feel about it? It’s better if I just casually change the topic of this, because oh my god all of the shit that is happening to me and has been done to me should have been fucking illegal. I don’t live in my own home, eh. 

My options if I don’t hear from my Graeyniss? Absolutely zero. My patience with this proletarian shit? Getting close to numbers below zero. My health? Well, I’m still breathing. Only when I lay down I notice how much I’m in pain. Other than that, it might not seem as if I’m dying – everyone who doesn’t believe that I’m sick can also start purchasing cold-proof swimwear – but know that it is not fucking healthy for me to walk around for months with white blood cells in my urine and an infection that antibiotics don’t change a thing about. But if society stays like this, I’d rather let it kill me. Fuck all of this shit. 

Oh and yess my business website says 6 publications, but there are only 3 on this website. “Christmas special” haha godverdomme: while I was editing my websites [you can now also download D.O.C.I.S. directly from this website], I have re-sent the books I unpublished when I started to apply for jobs [because I mentioned my personal situation in them, with that schizophrenia diagnosis I do not agree with, about which I didn’t tell my employer, when I applied (but I’ve told him about it, when I was fully open and honest in that very long email)] for republication. I assume that it can just be published again, since it was published before – I’m talking about the distribution platform – maar het is altijd even spannend. If all goes well, you’ll be able to see all 6 of them very soon. Look:

The left date is the publication date. They have all been published before. Good luck swimming, if you don’t believe me. I’m showing you the rest of my tabs consciously. That’s Fangyist. 

Buy it, when it’s there? Ah, what’s the point. I’m not going to keep waiting and begging for it… What the fuck. Doei. 

I love you, my Graeyniss ♥

Please Cuddle me 🙁