10:38 (AM) 

GOOD MORNING ๐Ÿ˜€ <3

HOW WAS YOUR NIGHT? 

HOW WAS YOUR BREAKFAST? 

I’D LIKE TO TURN TWO QUESTIONS I ASKED YOU YESTERDAY INTO POLLS. 

THE FIRST ONE IS…. 

*GOES DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND GRABS YOUR HAND* WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE MY INVESTOR? 

INVESTING IS POSSIBLE IN MA-NY WAYS. By buying my book, by becoming a council member (and stockholder), by becoming a stockholder or by donating / giving away things (sponsoring). 

APART FROM THIS BUSINESS THERE’S NOT REALLY ANYTHING FOR ME TO DO OR SEE IN LIFE. I DO NOT EXPECT THESE DIKES TO LAST LONGER THAN DECEMBER. AFTER THAT, IT’LL HOPEFULLY BE SWIMMING AROUND, LOOKING FOR FISH TO EAT, WHILE BEING NAKED AS FUCK ALL DAY. I HOPE I WILL BE ACCOMPANIED BY A FUUUUUUUUCKING TALL BEARDED GRAEYNISS, WHO IS ABLE TO TAKE APART UNDERWATER BRICK BUILDINGS WITH HIS BARE HANDS. THAT WOULD BE VERY CONVENIENT FOR CONSTRUCTING OUR NEW BUT VERY TEMPORARY HOUSE :D. 

OH I’M GOING TO ADD ANOTHER QUESTION TOO. BUT FIRST (OR SHOULD I SAY SECOND?):

WOULD YOU LIKE TO START A NEW LIFE WITH ME ON PLANET FANG? (WHICH WOULD BE OUR ISLAND.) 

WOULD YOU MIND IF THE NEW NOSCE TE IPSUM EPISODE WOULD HAVE, AS ITS APPENDIX, ALL DIARY POSTS THIS FAR? AS MY INTRODUCTION + BACKGROUND INFO. IT WILL KILL YOUR BOREDOM FOR SURE WHEN THIS FLOODED COUNTRY (THERE ARE SO MANY POWER HOUSES IN MY AREA?) CAUSES A “HISTORIC” (NOT IN MY BOOKS!) POWER OUTAGE. (As in all episodes from before the (online) release date?) 

WOULD YOU REALLY MISS IT, BY THE WAY?

HAHA HE WOKE ME UP BY LEANING HIS RIGHT HAND ON THE BED, ALONGSIDE MY TORSO.

I OPENED MY EYES. HE GAVE ME A VERY LOUD KISS AND ASKED ME HOW I WAS DOING. I SAY GOOD AND ASKED HIM HOW HIS FLIGHT WAS. HE TOLD ME HE DIDN’T SLEEP THAT MUCH. 

*intermezzo*

A RARE IMAGE OF “THE HIGHLIGHT” (THERE’S NOTHING ELSE(!!!)) OF “THE” NEIGHBORHOOD. I ALWAYS SMOKE IN THAT STONER’S HOUSE IN BETWEEN THE BRIDGE AND THE LOCAL GRAVEYARD, WHEN I CAN’T SMOKE AT HOME. THIS PICTURE IS OLD. THERE ARE MORE NEIGHBORHOODS NOW. 

ALS HET GEBEURT, GEBEURT HET TROUWENS SOWIESOOOOOO OP ZONDAG! PLEASE BE SAFE MY CUDDLEEEEEE!!!!!!! 

THERE’S THIS TYPE OF SLIPPERY STONE, WHICH COULD BE USED AS A PAVEMENT, THAT THEY CALL “KINDERHOOFDJES”. TAX MONEY IS USED TO CELEBRATE “KING’S DAY” THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE CONTRY. FUUUUUUUCK HIM. KOM VECHTEN DAN??????????????? THE TYPE OF SHIT PEOPLE DO FOR MONEY THESE DAYS, DISGUSTS ME. 

STAND TALL, MY GRAEYNISS!!!!! 

I HAVE TO CONFESS THAT I HAVE BEEN SPENDING SO MUCH TIME “BLOGGING”, THAT THE NEW NOSCE TE IPSUM HAS ONLY 8 PAGES AND HAHAHAHAHA I STILL HAVE NOT STARTED WITH STUDYING YET. WHAT’S THE POINT, SINCE WE’RE BECOMING CUDDLE VISJES ANYWAY? 

BUT I’M GIVING MYSELF THE REST OF THIS WEEKEND TO FINISH IT. IT WILL BE WAAAAAAAAY LONGER THAN THE FIRST EPISODE. 

http://www.paleizen.nl/Paleizenbestanden/Nederland/Den%20Haag/Eikenhorst.htm

WHILE TELLING ME ABOUT HIS FLIGHT, HE WAS MOVING TOWARDS THE DOOR. HE ASKED: “AND? HAVE YOU ALREADY SEEN A FUNCTION THAT HAS CAUGHT YOUR EYE(S)?” 

I WAS FIGHTING FOR MY FACE TO KEEP THE SAME “-.-” EXPRESSION. I WANTED TO RAAAAGEEEEEEE. HE COMES HOME FROM HIS SECOND 10 DAY HOLIDAY (IN MAY/APRIL, WE WENT TO SURINAME FOR THREE WEEKS). WHAT THE FUUUUCK DO I NEED TO WORK FOR? HE HAS BEEN CHILLING FOR 10 DAYS. I HAVE BEEN WRITING NON-STOP. MY SISTER’S SCHOOL HAS STARTED ALREADY. 

MY MOTHER WALKED IN TOO. I SAID HI AND ASKED HER HOW SHE WAS DOING. AFTER THAT I SAID “OKAY, I’M GOING BACK TO SLEEP NOW”.

THIS IS THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST, MY CUDDLE. LET’S TEAM THE FUCK UP :D. (Dan heb ik tenminste wat te doen…..) 

22:13 (10:13 PM) 

The current state of the new Nosce Te Ipsum

I just learnt that my mother has been reading my blog? Awkward? 

I’ve been writing on my bed all day. Managed to come a little more loose “around people”. As in I “usually” don’t talk to myself out loud anymore, when there’s someone else in the house, but today I just thought “fuck it”. [The not talking etc was/is from being hurt waaay too often.]

My body has so much energy stored from being in this position. I didn’t really want to go outside, so I asked if I could smoke a joint in the backyard. After her response, I chose not to. I am afraid of their financial authority over me and the way our conversations can get hurtful. If my purpose was to work behind a desk, I wouldn’t have this form of dependency. THAT’S WHY SOOOOOOOOO MANY PEOPLE DOOOOOON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M TRYING TO DO FOR US HERE. 

I haven’t told them about my blog? I thought its content would be too hurtful. But aiiiight. (I need to let it out somewhere, so let it be here. I am not giving away their identities. There might be people reading this who know how I (we, then) feel.)

At D. O. C. I. S. International (in case you didn’t know, this is a multi-purpose company), every author gets more than 80% of the purchase price per sold online copy of his or her work. This because it’s way more important to support the maker, instead of the people who turn it into more money. 

Please invest in me :D. Details on this will be published soon. 

On the forum/private network… It would be much more comfortable if it weren’t on the “public internet”…? I want to know what “the plans” are when it comes to our safety when the water gets to high? And in other countries? Ha-haaaaa I feel I need to become a Graeyniss ve-ry fast!  Hopefully then we could be . Why isn’t this country colonized yet?  ๐Ÿ˜€ (The “Wtf? They were pioneers in slavery” behind this?) 
I can’t stop missing Benoรฎt :[. I’ve been (publicly) hiding this for a VEERYYYYYYY long time, but meow :[. I miss our connection. And he’s so cuddlable! (Not that I’ve done this :[. I wish I had. I can only fantasize about it…) I don’t see myself be happy and succesful in this life, without him being my Cuddle :[. (There’s never only one Cuddle, though, my Cuddle!!) 

I’m going to sleep. I have been pretending that my large pillow is him FOR TWO YEARS NOW. Otherwise I feel too lonely and too unloved :[. 

Good night, my Cuddle

I love you so much

xxx