00:26 (12:26 PM) 

I’ve never been so motivated to work πŸ˜€ . Just the idea of living somewhere I don’t know anyone and no one knows me, makes me wettttt. It’s just better for my character, my future, and the awful flashbacks of my past… 

The day before yesterday, I’ve sent out two applications – and worked on Volta’s Plan B – but today (after sleeping) I’ll do the rest! Hopefully it won’t be necessary, though… 

Being an online redactor for a classical music radio station, suits me quite well. A tamed rational mind with my character, would go for that. And would seek jobs in that category, since it suits my qualifications. But still I’ve also applied for an administrative function at the ANWB. The organization where I worked last Summer… 

The director is so hot and cute at the same time, I would kill for a chance to see him from close by again HAHA I’m such a fool x_x. This Vicje… I wish I could be his assistant 😻. I’ve been acting so strange around him, that I’m not sure if I can ever talk to him again. I find him so attractive that I basically lose my ability to speak… Why am I attracted to older menΒΏ It’s not even “older men”, actually. It’s just my Vicje and my B, when it comes to literal Graeynissis… And then there’s the loooong list of non-grey haired people who have that effect on me, 

But for my CV (even though, when it comes to study material, I prefer learning statistics/mathematics/economics over subjects like literature and history – PR excluded) I think a job as redactor looks better… It does sound better, to me. In the end, since I’m quite desperate for affording my own space to live, I’ll just go for what pays better… 

And when I get a job in Hilversum, I’ll move to Hilversum. When I get a job in The Hague, I’ll move to The Hague. I won’t be working in Rotterdam and wish to not ever live there anymore. If I get a job in Amsterdam… Well… Finding an affordable apartment for one isn’t easy, so then I would choose a city right outside the city.

I’m loving Keynes his book, by the way!!! I love it, to get more perspective on things I’ve learned about.

Meoww I’m going to bed. I hope your Saturday was Cuddle πŸ˜€

Good night

I love you β™₯

xxx

15:52 (03:52 PM) 

As I was working on my Volta’s Plan B, I found out that (public and international)  stock trading/investment banking, started in the Netherlands… The state owned businesses VOC (Verenigde Oost-Indische Compagnie = Dutch East India Company) and WIC (West-Indische Compagnie = West-India Company) were one of the first businesses on the trading market. 

The VOC was the very first, according to Wikipedia’s source. But I included the WIC, because  meoww the country where part of my roots lie, was a former Dutch colony, where the WIC was involved in its West-African slave trade. Surinam is where a great part of their slaves were brought to, to work on Dutch plantations. 

Whether or not they actually were the first: I’m just shocked to hear that they were on the stock market. State owned businesses, profiting from the most unethical shit. And did you know that they faked their book keeping to make it seem as if they didn’t have waaaaaaay too many slaves? My grandfather used to do genealogical research, about our origins, and he told me that there was only one census that can be trusted. The year ended with “21”… I think it’s 1621, which is the first official year of that company…

Wow… 

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18:12 (06:12 PM) 

I’m reading The Postulates of the Classical Economics now, in The General Theory of Employment, Interest and Money. 

The first one is that wage is the marginal product of labor, but this is far from as fixed as it seems, in today’s world, right, because some people are still paid after they have just left the company (sometimes even more than their wage). How does that (uncertainty) translate itself into a function? I need a Graeyniss for that x_x. Luckily it’s just a minor detail for now… 

I feel like playing some Nintendo games…

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