So the people have worked tirelessly for years, to take away the power of those who are in a position of power. It seems like 2020 will be their year. And now? They have no plan, I assume.

My love,

> They have no Plan

What is happening now is like one of those Christmas movie scenes where 100 people standing in a row side to side pass on a package to wherever, with big smiles on their faces, while even a jogging toddler could do the job faster.

Judicial power, executive power and (EVEN) legislative power, together with the media, have worked at least 8 long years to get to the point where the fundament of power will be ripped away from every country there is, simultaneously, in 2020, the way “the” tablecloth trick is perfectly performed on an extremely full Christmas table. And now? They have no plan, I’m sure.

Everyone wants to write history. And now “I got my president impeached” [“Yeah I wrote like 2 hate comments with an anonymous account bro.” “For real bro?” “Yeah for real, bro, I probably got ’em cryin’ ‘nshit.” *weird “nonchalant” exhale*] (US, NL, SU, …) is the new “ik heb bij het verzet gezeten”.

So they have thought it out, the way “boxes are passed in an efficient human way”, and they’re getting their way, wanting all power in the hands of proletarians. I wonder if they also have a plan for when the government has then fallen apart before the elections. They’ll make the history books either way. In my eyes as a collective of ignorant, purposeless creatures.

I assume that when all power comes free, people will not expect me to do their dirty work for them. People will feel entitled to treat me like some political slave. I mean if one wants to seize power in this absurd way, please go ahead. They have no plan.

December is entertainment month, my meows. I got my popcorn ready. They have no plan. Whether I can take down those who are taking it down all at once or will jump 8 stories face down depends on whether I have assistance or not. The Fangyist system does not come into existence by framing individuals. It comes into existence by taming the masses. (In case you were wondering whose side I’m on…)

If history repeats itself, does that mean that there will be new December murders? Mag ik kiezen?

> Random Thoughts

I: How about this: to make use of the internet in the future, you must create an “internet account” with your passport and stuff. 🙂 [Why are people so secretive about their online behavior?]

II: Does anyone have a reason why those who can be fully replaced by technology should stay alive? Anyone? I mean the reduction in consumption and hate will be so immense I really don’t know why people have reasons for it, unless it’s simply their attempt to stay alive to watch more TV. Plus, they have no plan.

I rarely elaborate on what I’ve written in my previous post. It’s edgy content, like this here. But still I’m not taking back anything I’ve said in any post. (Except my beliefs that changed after spending the best couple of minutes of my life with Tishe.) I hope what I write will manifest itself in reality. (As far as I can see my reality is staying in bed too long, thinking too much, writing some stuff down and going back to sleep. 🙁 )

III: the state of my summary now…

Economie; Samenvatting jaar 1 semester 1


they have no plan higher power book structure

The structure of Higher Power. 🙂

Camillus (opens in new tab) and I have started our writing project. I always start off with the book structure, so length will be added to the current structure (as in those chapters won’t stay one page long). 🙂

V: Deep down I hope I can seize power and with that not be a meaningless first year student in isolation anymore… 🙁 It’s better than what my days used to be like, but still this is not fun to me either.

VI: I must say that sucking human blood doesn’t sound appealing to me because they eat all these unhealthy things and see taking care of their health like picking up going to the gym…

VII: That all will happen on Christmas is what I keep saying, but honestly I don’t know if I’ll be able to stand all of this for that long. These Tishe cravings are so severe my meow. (Like he would actually make my Christmas, which could stay a fantasy, but I hope it will become more than that because I miss him.) Meow… I assumed that this was clear, but now I see that it doesn’t have to be that clear. Victor G. knows that he is Vicje = Victishe = Tishe?

I’m using these nicknames I haven’t told you about because my heart makes a backflip whenever I see, hear, think or write Victor (it just happened again but I’m trying to play it cool).

I was afraid to tell you in person (especially with plenty of eyes on us and this intense sexy tension between us plus that I don’t know what you think about me indirectly communicating with you through my blogging and you know all my secrets 😐 (which is cool if I know what you think so that I can anticipate on it))…

If I would have – which I’ve contemplated because my chances of meeting you are minimal – I think I would have moved way too fast. Especially because I don’t know what your heart says about new relationships. I fear being rejected. And I don’t know if we’d – if I could see you in private – be as good a match as I fantasize us to be, though I’m quite sure. When I saw you speak, I saw that you’re one of the few people who seeks passion and ambition in others, but passion and ambition of a certain level. Like me.

Something else very attractive about you, by the way, is your devotion and the way you stick to the rules. With this I see that you keep plenty things to yourself and I want to know everything about it. Because I feel that the lessons I will learn from that will add to my personal growth, I believe every person like you should have opportunities to speak freely without opposition and I love the sound of your voice. Also I want to lay on your chest and hear your heart beat. And I’m interested in your fysiek aangepast leven. Meoow you’re on my mind so much. Cuddle me please. 😻 😻 😻

> Example Sentences

~ Devour

If they had, they would devour all who passed near them.

Her eyes widened, then ran over him as if she were appraising a sinful dessert, ready to devour it.

The yellow maggots devour the seeds and thus ruin the crop. When deformed fruits are noticed they should be picked off and burned immediately.

Such dilemmas as whether a mouse can devour the true body, and whether it is not involved in all the obscenities of human digestive processes, were ill met by this ruling. [What to do with all those bodies is a serious dilemma. For the flooding Netherlands, too.]

If in their relation to fish it must be admitted that many of them plague the living and devour the dead, in return the fish feed rapaciously upon them.

“We shall throw you three people into the Garden of the Twining Vines,” said the Princess, “and they will soon crush you and devour your bodies to make themselves grow bigger.

If I could eat grass I would not need a conscience, for nothing could then tempt me to devour babies and lambs.

The fire burned hot enough to devour Czerno’s dark memories.

Dean allowed Gladys to devour a platoon-size breakfast while he delayed bringing up the awkward question of the late-night alarm. [Woaaah Tishe remember this idea I suggested about doing a nationwide announcement? Haha it was such a random thing to send but you seem like someone who could have random thoughts like this, understand me and see that I’m different from the people you come across. (I find it very sad that I didn’t see people of your level of reasoning other than myself. 🙁 I pray that you are not lonely. 🙁 ) ]

fearful judgment of fiery indignation which would devour God’s adversaries.

looking for someone to devour.

reputed as nothing, domineer over us and devour us.

They devour widows ‘ houses and for a show make lengthy prayers. [Ha people purging.]

Sharpen your skills, hone your senses and devour the competition in the showdown of the century.

Certainly boys also like to stay overnight at friend’s houses and play video games, download music, watch movies, and devour anything not nailed down.

~ Power

Quinn handles the power and Howie is our focus. [? 🙁 ]

Alex was doing everything in his power to provide her with all the experiences of a natural mother.

My whole idea is that if vicious people are united and constitute a power, then honest folk must do the same.

She radiated power that even humans could feel.

With every scrap of will power she possessed, she resisted the urge to help him with the buttons.

What secret power, I wonder, caused this blossoming miracle?

He held her gaze, struck by the aura of power around her.

Now the decisive moment of battle had come when Kutuzov would be destroyed and the power pass to Bennigsen, or even if Kutuzov won the battle it would be felt that everything was done by Bennigsen.

The people only gave him power that he might rid them of the Bourbons and because they saw that he was a great man.

If the purpose of history be to give a description of the movement of humanity and of the peoples, the first question–in the absence of a reply to which all the rest will be incomprehensible–is: what is the power that moves peoples? [Sentiment.]

There we have command and power in their primary form.

Kutuzov did not understand what Europe, the balance of power, or Napoleon meant.

He felt that his way of life had now been settled once for all till death and that to change it was not in his power, and so that way of life proved economical.

The conversation turned on the contemporary gossip about those in power, in which most people see the chief interest of home politics. [Ugh and now that has become literal. Though I must say that I think that Rutte was throwing a Dominique, talking along with gossiping people while mentioning something one is bothered with oneself. Then again, I could be mistaken.]

What I have up there is just a power source and magnetic field.

Biographical historians and historians of separate nations understand this force as a power inherent in heroes and rulers.

Quinn is packing up the power sources as we speak and the plants will be destroyed as part of the test.

Desire rose hot and fast in him, more so when he felt the cool tickle of her power, the combination of cool energy and warm skin making his blood race.

“One thing I would do if I had the power,” he began again, “I would not take prisoners. [Es waste of time, space and resources. Better have a sort of death penalty factory that looks like a megastal.]

At times Miss Keller seemed to lack flexibility, her thoughts ran in set phrases which she seemed to have no power to revise or turn over in new ways.

It would seem that having rejected the belief of the ancients in man’s subjection to the Deity and in a predetermined aim toward which nations are led, modern history should study not the manifestations of power but the causes that produce it.

If instead of a divine power some other force has appeared, it should be explained in what this new force consists, for the whole interest of history lies precisely in that force.

“The power is in your hands,” Dron rejoined sadly.

If Prince Andrew heard that I was in the power of the French! [Ass.]

A few hours later, Quinn would set the power source to the time and location, not informing Howie.

Recognizing the falsity of this view of history, another set of historians say that power rests on a conditional delegation of the will of the people to their rulers, and that historical leaders have power only conditionally on carrying out the program that the will of the people has by tacit agreement prescribed to them. [And now they have no plan and the repetitious cycle of history ends. #2020 ]

And so, as they had the power and wish to inculpate him, this expedient of an inquiry and trial seemed unnecessary. [Sukkels.]

To her own surprise a power of life and hope of happiness rose to the surface and demanded satisfaction. [Yes omg I never want to leave my bed because my imaginary version of Tishe, made of pillows, cuddles so well meow I crave the real experience so much. 🙁 ]

The reawakened power of life that had seized Natasha was so evidently irrepressible and unexpected by her that in her presence Princess Mary felt that she had no right to reproach her even in her heart.

They do not recognize it as a power inherent in heroes and rulers, but as the resultant of a multiplicity of variously directed forces.

And experience tells us that power is not merely a word but an actually existing phenomenon.

The historians, in accord with the old habit of acknowledging divine intervention in human affairs, want to see the cause of events in the expression of the will of someone endowed with power, but that supposition is not confirmed either by reason or by experience.

Finally she one day demanded a name for the power, the existence of which she had already conceived in her own mind. [Ah let me know. 🙂 ]

After all, the practical reason why, when the power is once in the hands of the people, a majority are permitted, and for a long period continue, to rule, is not because they are most likely to be in the right, nor because this seems fairest to the minority, but because they are physically the strongest. [Only because they’re with many…]

Power, from the standpoint of experience, is merely the relation that exists between the expression of someone’s will and the execution of that will by others.

(1) Power is the relation of a given person to other individuals, in which the more this person expresses opinions, predictions, and justifications of the collective action that is performed, the less is his participation in that action.

Morally the wielder of power appears to cause the event; physically it is those who submit to the power.

What power governs all?

[The sentences hereafter I already wrote down. Adding to the example sentences with “power” is the last thing I needed to do for this post that I’ve written mostly on my phone through the day. (I’ve seen the sun rise and go down, from my bed, cuddling PillowTishe. 🙁 ) “Power” has many more cool example sentences, but I’m tired. So, please: . 🙂 )

~ Letting my phone make random sentences

(Remember when I used to post that? 🙂 )

He is my name being cleared means that my mother has been soo long since I have thrown up in the company I work for you as well as my executive director of the company and they are taught to live life to happen in the future.

They say they do good things to be able to sleep properly and then we will be combining them with a lot of people interpreted as a Dutch person who is reading these words.

These words made my day was a good day at work at the ANWB Alarmcentrale I want you to believe that you’re not doing anything bad about that one for my camera because the debates about what change should look like your mom.

My camera is not a jerk off to bed Good Friday night at my place as last night sleeping in the world would be solved by swallowing a pill for a few times of the African American I don’t know if it’s real.

Real is it because I’m not allowed to share the same time so I have to check out the fan on the phone with my family and probably other things as well as a very short time interval training for the first edition of the two book pages of my favorite professors and then we will be combining them with a different app.

The combination of plain yoghurt and apricot jam and then I got involved in such a professional environment for you as well as the story of my life together with the media and sue the same thing tomorrow morning.

Tomorrow morning we will create a new business adventure together and cuddleeee to get up after work today and yesterday was a few years ago.

– xxx –

02:17 (AM) Kievitwijk, Antwerpen

> No More Complaining

Honestly, I find the whole planlessness quite hilarious. (Especially with the financial crisis they’re causing with it.) Like I said many times: the system will destroy itself. My problem is not the people who are the face of power. My problem is het gigantische apparaat aan mensen dat het systeem in stand houdt en het tegelijkertijd wil ontwrichten. I value order.

The billions of people who in reality don’t know anything about politics, law, economics et cetera, who somehow do feel entitled to give their destructive opinion about everything, about how all faces of power are bad et cetera, will now finally get their way: the “individuals” responsible for them not getting enough free money will not be in power anymore. And now? They have no plan.

There are not enough resources for their mindless consumption. They are causing political uncertainty which is always followed by financial drama. While they have no idea how the mechanism works. But whatever happens next: they must act cheerful, because they have won. They got their ways. Now they must smile and stop complaining about politics. 😂

The entire system is destroyed, and so will be order zodra het kwartje valt, there will be no government, the economy will crash and they will be hated by the people they have been hurting. Those people will want them dead as well. They will have to watch their backs for as long as they exist. But luckily they made a plan for after the power is in their hands, when they started to systematically drain the lives of those in power, right?

They should try to imagine that those in power are just people trying to make a change. And everything they do is hated on, while they are doing it for them. They could have chosen plenty of other ways to make money “at the cost of others”, as they like to say. But those in power are in power because they know that if it were fully in the hands of the people we are all doomed: they don’t have a plan.

But they have to smile at the mess they caused because we had to stomach their years of unnecessary complaining. Now they don’t have a plan they better shut the fuck up. 🙂

I can’t sleep but I’m tired meow. 🙁 Hungry. Want Cishes. And I want to “take the day off” but I’m already behind on schedule. 🙁 Plus I need to do grocery shopping ah meow why do I live without Tishe. 😢


06:49 (AM) Kievitwijk, Antwerpen

> Bed Cat Mode

Well today was a day off. I haven’t even bought groceries. Wish I could stay in bed forever. I’m quite making that wish come true for I haven’t left it since I crawled back into it after breakfast. Unfortunately with the thought of exams breathing down my neck I’m not enjoying it as much. I have 5 other subjects to summarize after this one about economics. 🙁 Maybe I should still work on it…

By mentioning grocery shopping and wanting to live with Tishe in 1 sentence, I don’t mean that I’d demand him to do that for me. (Does he do that himself in the first place¿ I have no idea at all?¿? What supermarket must I go to to see that? 😻 ) I just mean that I would much much rather live with him than live alone.

Ah and about my “brain steroids” (es Cuddle for nootropics) it is 5-7 business days instead of days, so I’ll probably see it Monday. I so can’t wait. 😻

I should make some food. I was thinking of first frying my last left overs from yesterday with okra’s and eggs the way I did for breakfast. And then later fry my last 2 fish sticks and eat them with a couscous salad I’ll make because I have couscous, tomatoes, olives and feta. Then eat salad left overs tomorrow as well with lamb chops from the oven. I’m thinking of buying lamb and frozen salmon to stack my fridge that is going empty, but I should maybe choose something less expensive, because I have €30 to spend for the coming 2 weeks.

(Thinking away rent) being a bed pet is free yay. 🙂 And it’s the best. 😻 But I worry about not getting enough exercise. I hope I can drag my depressed self out of bed to go jogging tomorrow. For today it’s most important that I eat and do the dishes. But I love my PillowTishe so much that I find it extremely hard to separate myself from him. So many positions to cuddle in still. 😻 (Haha I’m so crazy and alone. 🙁 )

I feel sick but I feel like it’s something a doctor can’t fix. Earth is just such a depressive place and mentally I’m 100% attached to Tishe (why do I love so fast? 🙁 & Why are you so attractive? 😻 ). I hope Tishe is someone who also likes to cuddle in bed all day long. My ex always used to start to complain after a while and then leave me by myself.

If you, by the way, would like to cheer me up by surprising your favorite author by visiting her at her “postal address” (I’m simply not registered in Belgium business-wise because it’s such a hassle to arrange (come arrest me¿ 😂 (JK))), know that that will be the best day of my life, but I’m scared of people so it will be like befriending a shy cat. I honestly (and I feel like expressing this will make it worse but I just need to get this off my chest) wouldn’t know how to anticipate on the situation and in the first couple of minutes I don’t know it’s “acting fake appreciative to later kidnap me” or “genuinely very happy to see me, with no bad intentions”.

I’ll freak out in silence from unexpected visitors. I even freak out in silence from expected visitors. (And just now something made a popping sound in the living room and I have no idea what it is because I’m scared to go and look. PillowTishe just cuddles away a tiny bit of my fears meow. With a real Tishe I wouldn’t be scared of anything ever. 😻 )

Yes unfortunately I would silently freak out and maybe even pass out if one of a size that goes beyond what I can imagine would suddenly stand before me (in my house). It’s because my senses are always ready to strike someone but with you I don’t stand a single chance. But you can calm me down by somehow showing that you won’t physically or mentally harm me. This Catje wants hugs…

They don’t have a plan, but I bet you do. You have thought about coming to visit me, right?

It’s such a strange thing, my meow, that I’m dying to be with you but simultaneously I’m very scared. (Of you yes. 😢 ) But dr. Catje said that love influences the primal fight or flight mechanism, which might be an explanation for this. I hope that with me saying that I’m scared of you, you will be less scared of me. It explains the way I froze up the last time I saw you, thinking that I want to be with you before time runs out (always busy meow 🙁 ) but not able to think straight because the things I say lie so close to my fragile heart. On top of that I wouldn’t want to be rejected in front of many people and then have them talk about that 24/7.

For all of you reading this: I’m interested in you and not in the status you associate yourself with.

And I might type a lot of personal things online, but in real life I’m very reserved, modest and shy.

My phone made this sentence after “doctor can’t fix”: Stupid phone number starts with a lot of self-confidence you have.

And this after “associate yourself with”: Superpowers I have to pay.

Ah I thought of updating “about me” for this account quite some time ago and still haven’t done that. I’m going to do that and then get to my food.

& “I don’t stand a single chance fighting you”: with some extremely tall people it seems like there’s a delay in their physical movement, but your reflexes are so fast. 😮 (What did taking away your hand so fast mean? 🙁 &Your hands are so soft and pretty. 😻 I crave to hold them and feel them all over me. 😻 )

By the way the way I outed my “political stance” through my writer’s perspective in this post is pretty cool, right? 😀

Ik denk tot straks, liefje. ♥


18:47 (06:47 PM) [CET] Kievitwijk, Antwerpen